My Early Christmas Carol

Sometimes When We Touch - Dan Hill

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Merry Christmas

失落沙洲和弦简谱

哇！第一次post酱的东西，好像有点怪怪..哈哈，但是一直找不到这首歌的弦谱，所以就随便乱抓..大概也没有很多浏览这里的人欣赏吧，就当作是给自己浏览的post吧..

这首歌由木吉他弹奏的话，本人是比较喜欢 T23-1-23-1-2-1 在主歌，副歌方面就要随性，通常这种指法的东西都是看当时的心情得啦hor..哎呀清拆啦反正第一次，如果有semo不很专业人家也不理啦！来来，看和弦看和弦...

G Bm Em Bm
又来到这个港口 没有原因的拘留
C Bm Em
我的心乘着 斑剥的轻舟
Am D
寻找失落的沙洲
G Bm Em Bm
随时间的海浪漂流 我用力张开双手
C Bm Em
拥抱那么多 起起落落想念的
Am D G G7
还是你望着我的眼波


Chorus 1
C D Bm Em
我不是一定要你回来 只是当又一个人看海
Am D G G7
回头才发现你不在 留下我迂回的徘徊
C D Bm Em
我不是一定要你回来 只是当又把回忆翻开
Am D Gsus4 G
除了你之外的空白 还有谁能来教我爱

G Bm Em Bm
又回到这个尽头 我也想再往前走
C Bm Em
只是越看见海阔天空
Am D G G7
越遗憾 没有你分享我的感动

Rpt *Chorus*

C D Bm Em
我不是一定要你回来 只是当又一个人看海
Am D G G7
疲惫的身影不是我 不是你想看见的我
C D Bm Em
我不是一定要你回 来只是当独自走入人海
Am D Gsus4 G
除了你之外的依赖 还有谁能教我勇敢
Am D Gsus4 G
除了你之外的空白 还有谁能来教我爱

好像有点怪，但是这是我已经试了一段时间的...清拆啦.... hahaaha

X了

黑色笑靥掉了， 雪白眼泪掉了
该出现的所有表情瞬间掉了
瞳孔没有颜色， 结了冰的长河
回忆是最可怕的敌人

故事情节掉了， 主角对白掉了
该属于剧中的对角戏也掉了
胸口没有快乐， 断了翅的白鸽
不枯萎的藉口全掉了

曾经唱过的歌，分享过的笑声
在心中不断拉扯
想念不能承认，偷偷擦去泪痕
冬天过了还是会很冷

越来越欣赏Green Hornet， 可以写出这样的词
既简单，又让人有无限的想象空间
最喜欢就是副歌的第一句，真的让人充满遐想
掉了，吊了，调了，叼了，钓了，雕了，屌了....
想不到他和阿密特搭档，可以有这样的效果

Realization

Now I know... I'm so scary......

Doing Something Right but Incorrect (Ball Match Case)

You are an SG in your team, your opponent leading with 2 points and the game clock is 3 seconds remaining. Game clock is ticking down to 2 sec and the opponent's PG made a turn over and the ball roll to you where you are standing , a big man of your team is open but the C of the opponent team is rushing to you to block your upcoming open shot, this very moment you can:

A: Pass the ball to your open big man, and let him made the 99% easy shots, drag the game into over time
B: Take your most favourite 3-pt shots from down town and bury your opponent by leading them a point without going into the OT. But of cause with the risk of missing the long shots and the whole team lose the game.

Normally I would choose B, since I'm really fancy on 3pt shots. Some how or rather passing to the big man can really get a high percentage of equalize the scores, but we do not know what's gonna happen during the 5 minutes OT. I'm doing a reasonable decision right? But it's just so incorrect for me not to pass the ball to the big man for an easy dunk. Something is right, but its just so not correct.

Funny Clinic Visit

*Nurse open door, and I sat down*

Doc: Ok lets start by geting your weight and your height... hrm.... weigth XX kg.... height 178cm

*I dunno I only 178cm.... looking weirdly at the doc*

Me: actually I felt quite severe discomfort at my back...

Doc: Ya ha.... ok lemme check and see, you ly down on the bed pls..

*Me lie down...*

Doc: Which part?

*Me showing the pain part...*

Doc: Ok... get up 1st, lemme complete the thing first...Come I check your blood pressure...

*pumping and checking....*

Doc: oh ok.. quite good, 120/70... can I check your tongue?

Me feel awkward: Ok....*I dunno backache got relate with tongue*...

Doc: ok.. can... still ok...

*Doc start filling a form on my height etc that she checked...*

Me: May I know why got check so many things?
*Doc no hiu me...*

Doc: Have you collected your urine?

Me: HUH??? back ache need collect urine?? I think that form doesnt belong to me...

Doc: oh? you are Tan XXX XXX right?

Me: *smiled and said* no doc, Im not....

Doc: OHH!!!! ok ok... hehehehe.... ok whats the problem........

Me: =.=........

Dreaming

Late at night when all the world is sleeping

I stay up late and think of you

and I wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too

Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight

Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight

And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be

Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you ever see me
and I wonder if you know I'm there, am I there?
If you looked in my eyes would you see what's inside

Would you even care

I just wanna hold you close but so far
All I have are dreams of you

So I wait for the day and the courage to say

How much I love you, Yes I'll do

Late at night when all the world is sleeping

I stay up and think of you

And I still can't believe

That you came up to me, and said

"I love you, I love you too"

Now I'm dreaming, of you tonight

Til tomorrow, and for all of my life

And there's no wher in the world I rathered be

Than here in my room, dreaming of you endlessly

笨蛋的路痴

原来回去，是那么的难
我在一个交通十字路口，险着闯了红灯
然后发现自己被困在路口当中
当时，我决定改变主意
因为刹那间我觉得很辛苦

我转向了中路的方向
想借着绕进住宅区会比较不塞
谁知路途比原先遥远
完全出乎意料

我驾着车，开始有些慌张
我失去正常盘控驾驶盘的能力
两度差些亲上了前面的车
有一次，有辆他x的车硬要出来
我毫不犹豫地贴近，要他退后

然后，不知为何我忽然崩溃
可能是后知后觉
绕了个大圈，是冤枉和无谓的
是错路，虽然是我选择
是个愚蠢的错择

我花了接近一个小时半
终于到达了所谓的目的地
我打开车门
看见的却是最不想到达的地方
原来浪费了这么多时间
我到了一个我不想去的地方

Parking Space

This car seems came from far, exhausted

Parking itself into me, adjusting a suitable position to stop, comfortably, peacefully

I shaded with my 11 years old roofing sheets, which almost no body will ponder on it

I saw the car's model something like SLK or so, a luxiriuous car

The car own by a young man, thin, with a pair spectacles

It seems that the car are not happy, because of all the problems given by the owner

"My owner always prefer another car" said the SLK to me

"Why?" I replied with a fake curiousity

"Why he must treat me like that...? Why..."

"Its ok dear, you can shade under me. Or why not you park yourself under me, and leave your owner?"

"I tried, but don't know why, I can't! He simply drives me crazy"

Not long, the young man came back, and drove the car away

I some times still see the same car, hoping it to get better from its owner, or simply change owner.

I hope I can own a SLK myself but,

I'm just a parking slot, who allows people to park into me

Most importantly, its only temporarily.

老人国

我醒来时，只见几个身穿医袍的小孩子围绕着我
他们拿着手写，然后问我姓名与来历
接着一股语气说，“没事了，你只是撞伤头部而已”
没错，我是被一辆笨车撞到了，但是....

身穿医院里的病人服，我走向了医院的公园
狂了，怎么一路都是一些从孩童到十七八岁的少年
而且他们都用非常异样的眼光瞄着我
在公园的椅子上坐着，身躯与头脑同等的不自然

“嘿，你好像是从外地来的？” 有个各自不大的小孩向我抛问号
“呃...这里是哪里？”
“这里不就是老人国咯！”
“老....老人国？怎么每个人都那么年轻？！”
*惊讶地*“嘘！！！！ 不要说那两个字！！！！”
“哪两个？年轻？”
“嘘！！！！会被捉的.....”

ok，很明显这地方很古怪，明明全都是小子，但却.....
“你好，我叫Jerry，我来自...请问..这里的人都是那么的.....不老吗？”
“哈哈，对，这里的人都那么的不老，我叫Marcos，是老人国的建筑工程，那天被Sylvia那婆娘差点就..."

谈着谈着，才知道这里的人都只活到十八岁
十八岁过后，就回到一个叫“尘埃”的地方...
Marcos说，从前老人国有一些反国规的人没有到尘埃去，
就被罚到一个叫幻影的空间受苦
“从前有一个人，竟大胆到在国王面前说出XX两字，那个叫木老虎的一名黑人，就被送到幻影去受苦；还有一个叫Billy Gate的人，在每个人的电脑里驻进病毒，每个人一开电脑就会看到那两个字；另一个更加夸张，竟然用电吉它弹唱出XX两字成摇滚，好像叫什么Gilbert 包.."

Tiger Woods, Bill Gates, Paul Gilbert?
Marcos还说，老人国的人都从一条叫做铜河的川，
每年四月，都会有船只送婴孩进来老人国。
到底哪些婴孩是从哪里来呢？

If's and Dont's In Facebook - You VS Employers

Here comes this very familiar pic, I believe that many guys out there received this email about this lady doing something very lunatic to get her own arse out of bounds. But have you learn any lessons before any bad things happen to you? specifically, here's some do's and dont's:

1. If you own a Facebook account, don't add your boss (very basic huh?)

2. If you added your boss, don't misuse it during office hour

3. If you misuse it during office hour, don't post something FUNNY as your shout out

4. If you posted something FUNNY as your shout out, don't relate it about your work

5. If you posted something about your work, don't say something idiotic

6. If you posted something idiotic about your work, don't mention about your BOSS

7. If you already mentioned something about your BOSS, don't say anything moo moo about him

8. If you already said anything moo moo about him, make sure you had already a confirmed worker (for confirmed employee, go to No 12, for non confirmed employees, go to No 9)

9. If you are still under probation, make sure you don't leave any stuff back in your place since you are not more faceee in order to "accidentally" see your colleagues and your BOSS.

10. If you left anything back there, don't go to collect the stuff yourself, ask somebody to do it for you.

11. If you already reach the office, say hello and goodbye to your boss.

12. If you are a confirmed employee, don't tell the boss you posted the shout out, just tell him/her that your 8 years old brother are so excited that facebook can post shout out so openly

13. If you already told your boss that, you are basically done, check your remaining annual leave and start looking for new jobs.

- The End -

WAIIIITTTTTT!!!! Shouldnt just stopped there. Let talk about, "What to do when you already added your bosssssshhhh???

1. If you added your boss in the facebook, fully utilize it, put up your link of your blog and tag his name on the link.

2. Delete all the blog entries that you say about negative comments on your company (Really have to do it meh???!!!)

3. Blog all good things about the company and how much you enjoy your work scope, including that you are looking forward to carry more responsbility which is some times not really true.

4. Pretending that he wont read your blog, say all good things about your managers and colleagues so that he thought you are a damn good teamworker.

5. State all the favorite places you are looking forward to travel such as Bali, Maldives, Sipadan, etc etc so that he could possibly suggest those location IF there's a company trip which may include you. (OHHH YEAHHHH!!!!)

6. Put all the increment and bonuses statistic of your friends in other company for his refrences in order to look good for your year end for the whole year of hard work job. (HOLY MAMMAAAA!!!!!!)

D*MN!!! DON CHA JUZ LURVVVV #5 and #6???!!!!!!

The Opinion Above Does not Represent J FM II.

以上言论不代表本台

Whats Goin On?

25 years and my life is still

Trying to get up that great big hill of hope

For a destination

And I realized quickly when I knew I should

That the world was made up of this brotherhood of man

For whatever that means

And so I cry sometimes

When I'm lying in bed

Just to get it all out

What's in my head

And I am feeling a little peculiar

And so I wake in the morning

And I step outside

And I take a deep breath and I get real high

And I scream at the top of my lungs

What's going on?

And I try, oh my god do I try

I try all the time, in this institution

And I pray, oh my god do I pray

I pray every single day

For a revolution

迷失的游魂

当夕阳西下时，他冒从档口边的树丛里出现了
没有人发现他，只有其他幽魂，也渐渐的活动起来

他往回家的路慢行，重复着他仅有的见见家人
也许还刺眼的沉夕让步伐都慢下来
只有搭上了一辆载满砂石的卡车
忘记了当初的目的，他睡着了

醒来时，他非常的痛苦
突然记起当初万箭锥心的过错，由谁来替他弥补？
从卡车上下来，他发现了在十字路口有一群饿鬼抢食
他缓缓地经过右边的小巷，却发现尽头无法令他前进

眼见只有热闹的十字路口，可以让他有机会记起当初的目的地
站在车来车往的路口中，车辆穿身而过
脑海除了生前触怒朋友的画面，再也无法思考
他躺在大路上，不想再行使了
来往的车辆令他更加凌乱
他双手压在头上， 显得无比的痛苦

凌晨的二时四十八分，他从马路上站了起来
繁忙的道路，变得如此的宁静
饿鬼们也不见了，之间另一名幽魂躺在另一端的道路上
步向起身后第一个面向的那一方走了
虽然他不知道前方是哪里，是什么
他只是知道，在晨曦之前
他要找到一个可以让自己躲开光亮的地方
毕竟，他知道自己已无血肉之躯


如果此文触动了你的不安，非常抱歉。这只是一片虚构的文章！=）

Hi, How Are You? I'm Fine, Thanks for Asking

Yeap, things are that simple, applicable, and widely use.

Apologize to my redang crew for not continuing the posts. Owe you guys a big one.

Its like saying hi to many things that we had left out. I'm sure many of you recently watched this clip, trying to describe the clip in texts. He walked out from the back stage, wearing a very lite plain white T, on the very dim light, He carried a briefcase. He opened the briefcase, and took a piece of coat out from the briefcase. Hanging tht piece of coat in the air, like 2-3 seconds, the crowds screamed and yelled like they never did. He put up his coat, from the same briefcase, He grabbed his white glove, only 1 piece of white glove. The crowd craved, they lost their sanity looking at The King doing it. The music started, he shoke his body and legs, slides the feet backward creating a graceful movements......

Thanks to The King, who gave us so many moments we should have. After stop blogging for so long, He is one of the major factor that make me feels like I should jot something here. Long live The King, you are not alone.
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I pick myself incomplete recently. Doing things that not much of purpose, objectives, etc. I smacked myself hardly after knowing that there are few friends also facing the same problem, perhaps its just a so called transition period for ourselves, for those who are still have plenty of room for improvement, for those who are like me. Living life without purpose and objectives are some times so difficult to accept. Among my friends, they have the same feelings.

Therefore I jotted myself few things to go for, some sort of upgrade or filling up my own life with colours. First come the SLR thingy. I was thinking, if I buy a SLR camera, at least I will commit my time to do some shooting since its not cheap to get an SLR. But yes, its not cheap, so I have to think more than thrice to really get an SLR.

Then comes the Lenovo IdeaPad idea. I am superbly pissed off and f*cked up by using all the 2nd hand thingy. Whoever know me good enough know that I don like 2nd hand things that people don wan then, GIV YOU USE LA..... After my office desktop stolen by some stupid arse thieves, they gave me a used C*mpaq, that also I only request them to upgrade my RAM but there are some ignorants who don understand language did not do it for me, then they gave me the SECOND HANDED D*ll. Yeap, SECOND HAND. I rather buy myself. Thats because of the disatisfaction I had.

Welp after all that, I am thinking isnt good to have myself learn an extra language? Japanese is good since many japanese company are having factories here, I can have the advantage if one day I so happen got into it. But still, if I don speak, don read, don listen, don practice, they will rust, because I cant speak japanese alone....

Ok how bout really let myself be a qualify guitarist? at least I can practice guitar alone... So I planned also to get on the guitar class to learn some theory, at least I'm not buta buta play guitar only but I know whats the theory behind....?

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Its a bit lengthy over but things are hardly smoothen recently. I'm not giving up life, nope not that easily. I once thought of stopping this blog, but I didnt. This shows that I will make my life continue positively. I kiss my fingers which are crossing.

I'll be back

its time for me to come back

Happy Mothers Day

I was disccusing with a friend on whether to do another entry in this period, since I am very very unknonw status on how to describe my recent mood swings. Anyway, I decided to post this, since its a global celebration onto Mothers Day, it should be meaningful to do so.

To do it a little bit special, I do not think I carry the responsible to describe nor explain how mother should be.... how great they are... how noble they are.... etc etc... meaningless when most of us already know, BUT, I am doing this to dedicate this song to all the children in this world, if you can here this song and understand the meaning of the song writer, deep inside your heart, thank your parents.




So, please love your parents, not long ago I just read an article, it says:

“世界上有两样东西最不能迟，一是行孝，二是行善”, there's two things in this world, we cannot afford to late, 1 is filialty, 2 is charity. I am not a filial person, but I do hope those who have the chance to do it, do it.

Last but not least, Mom, miss you so much. And please look after father from up there k.... hehee...

The Trip I Name It Siao Siao #1

Its all started from the waiting of the Mr Air-cond Spoil to wake up and pick us up. We spent our time at that familiar McD with the Jawis on it. And Yean Hong (here and after known as the booterr) introduced that the familiar bus that should take us to the jetty has arrived.

After they hopped up to the bus 1 by 1, me and ah soo still chit chatting out side the bus, there, this very smart bird decide to drop me a hint which is to ask me to get up the bus before there's no more seat, with its poo poo on my shoulder.... wtf..... so I decided to take a photo shot of the bus plate number before I forgot the plate number for me to get to Mr Da, Mr Mag, and Mr To if they can give me some extra pocket money.

This nice Mr Aircond spoil first drove us to the Terrengganu China Town. As named, everything here are chinese, including the Bah Kut Teh and dim sum can be found here. The sky of China Town is full of swallow, flying around the bluish clouds. Here, a group of siao lang started to do their snap shots, including that they suddenly found some celebrities around, so they gathered and feast on the "don't-know-which" superstar for photo shooting session, I tried to take a good shoot on the siao lang gang but end up there's a guy call Micheal Rambo peace-ing to me... and I suddenly saw an evidence that a superstar has been really having a strong relationship with Malaysia.....

At the not so blue sky, and streaky hot sun shining onto the bus roof top, we proceed to the jetty which could possibly take 40 minutes, but unfortunately, the air cond of the bus broke down and everybody is preenjoying the services of sauna on the bus. The "sweater" couldnt take it so went to the bus driver aka Mr Aircond Spoil and discuss on how to turn cold the spoilt air cond, but end up opening all the roof door to sooth everybody inside. After that, we head to the island on the very fast boat, very fast the motor spoilt boat. End up standing up for that whole hour listening to 2 aunties gossiping......

To Be Continued..........................................

A Piece of Dialogue With Liang

L: its jz like that time when ur.... *cough* left...u didnt told us also, jz after that suddenly an sms...

Me: oh u meant my mom? nah, its near CNY, i dont wanna spoil others mood by coming to the funeral, summore its weekdays, everybody gotta work, there's no point by coming to the funeral as if its gonna make me feel better, it wont.

L: so wat, we wanna show we r frens, u do not need to sms everybody u know, tht time if u sms 1 of us, we will fwd this news to everybody

Me: *sum wat laughed*

L: i jz worried that ppl went there and laugh like a gathering instead of a funeral

Me: i jz worried that u all come and i hv to repeat how She left over and over again and made me so difficult.

L: this is y, u never told anybody bout ur real prob.


I was suppose to post my trip to the Redang on how "exhausted" it was but it bounced to have this kind of feeling for me to blog this up. Perhaps I started to hump myself away from my target which should be more positive or at least let Irwin read my post more worriless. But there's too many things I didnt do for Her. I feel so ashame that up till now familism still cannot really grow inside me especially after reading Bryan's post on how he entertaint his mom with the out-of-tune guitar. My mom didnt even know I can play guitar. What a ridiculous joke to tell.

What the....

I use the Fumakilla bottle to knock on my head
To make myself more alert
Gallons of caffein cant stimulate the neuros anymore
They are all now numb.

First happen when I lost my diary,
fine though till I knock that money lender's Waja,
still ok you know till I forgotten to submit my report in time,
now I lost all my f*cking receipt and I am subsidizing the company now.

Perhaps I need to use a ceramic instead of the aerosol bottle.
Because I am now numbed.
They first told me there's a pay rise.
"O.." I replied without giving a damn of the facial expression.
Then they passed me the offer letter and confirm it.
"Any expectation?" he asked.
"No, not at all" with the expression-less replied on the sat-down-prepared-to-discusss manager.

Then they started to yell at each other at another ground.
Its good that I decide to stay this ground,
Its bad that I have to squeeze all those pain into juice, by myself.

I started to feel alone, aging to be exact.
Even the geese not walking out from the front yard anymore.
I see the dogs at the guard house getting skinnier and I can some what see their bones.
The ants are not even bothering the biscuits crumbs I left on the table.

Is it all my "should be" "shouldnt be"?
I killed my own satisfaction, need lower ambitious.
I need a break, which I'm going to get soon.
May be its not a long break but, at least will cast me away from the boiling points.
I hope that people who stay here has the self management that I "used to" have.
That the neighbours do not receive such high decibels onto the innocents.

Time to sleep. Good night!

请把我的名字默念一百遍

昨天晚上偶然之下，在车上听见了一首熟悉的歌，好有感觉，在我不经意哼着那首歌的时候，我发现有一个gns也竟然眯摸着这首歌，可能是哪首歌的温馨程度。。。真是很怀念这首歌。。。

Random Long Post

i guess this is the 1st random post i did it here. to me most likely the term "random" happen to appear in this kinda occasions are some wat meaningless, and i'm deciding not to take care of my grammar and language here.

it happen to appear in my mind tht stopped me from blogging since mid of march till recently i put back sthg that not really me into the blog to sort of continuing things that had stopped for a while, which is a very bad habit of me on persisting sthg, in all sorts of efforts which needs to pay.

1st of all is the news of frens didnt make it up after chasing a gal for several years. big bow to him. several years aftering 1 gal. end up zero bcos tht gal told him tht herself do not know wat she really wants, and do not hope tht my fren to continue waste time on her. wat a ridiculous excuse. half true half not? i told myself, shall there's anygal tell me tht, there's only 2 things appear in my mind: 1 is tht gal found her true guy for her; 2 is she had enuf lunatic time spent on me, thts y. i spent a nite wit tht buddy of mine without complaining. i am more than 100% sure that if i'm down in mood, he will do everything he can to console me. this is call brother.

after that a fren of mine that i tot had been released from the past nitemares. but seems like still kena haunting by the characters in the nightmare spontaneously, so sad tht when u tried so hard to help fren, they are still bind to the negative side of the devils who still bugging them and unable to release. perhaps i was the devil b4, erm may b i stil the devil which still haunting somebody's mind. but i hope that i am not anymore.

after discovered myself underperform, i quickly style myself up in my workplace. things are quite likely to happen since suddenly the load of my work started to remoderate and changes a lil bit. and now, i do not hope that i hv more hours per day, i hope there are more days per week.

being nasty in the family has not become my preference. after doin it once, i really find it hard to accept for myself. and i think that familism has letting me know that i made a serious mistake on decision making, that i am not able to to change the cruel truth on meditating the illness in this house. even myself had lost patience on managing the eldar. i become very hot temper when i reach home. i still rmb wat LF said, "pity u, u cant feel the warmness of ur home" similar things mentioned by SY too.

recently i had a few frens which are far younger, like 19-20s, or some wat 22-23. joining them makes me feels like i'm old. perhaps the only thing in this world which is fair is the time. everybody share the same 24-7 a week, and 365.25 days per year. which will not be arguable. u take ur nx move to spend the nx second. u gain wat u spend for the last second. some focus wealth, welp most of them do, some focus fun and entertainment, some spend to look for their soulmates for the rest of their life, some out of nthg just wan to be themselves, ie me. how ever when i looked at those who i called gns, i envy that the only thing i don hv is the timing. i hope i would back to the campus again and do things that wat they r doin rite now. during my studies, my only complain to study life is there's no concrete rewards, unlike working life, u work hard ya its fucking hard but in the end of the day u get ur rewards, so called "in the end of the day". but nowadays the gns who are studying, they get their rewards, mixing up wit frens so freely; buying things that they intended to buy, and who need to work to buy their Sony Ericsson or Samsung? 1 out of 10?

deemed that i'm single, ray for no reason called me yesterday said wan intro me a "fren", and i can feel tht there are timings for me to readapt for being a good and responsible man to rely on. at least the correct person are simple so important at the correct place and correct time. i hope things will jz go smoothly and i put my palm on my chest and type this: if i were to stay single for the rest of my life, for this moment, i think its ok"

for watever reason i posted this long winded thingy. i hope everybody will hv their life progressive. the ills will get cured; the sad will get happy; the poor will get rich; and the irritating ppl can get lost.

Will You Marry Me? by KSK

"It's already half year ago, when we first met at the Hall of Grace, we know each other, hang out, dinner, movies, looking at the stars, and counting the cars on the highway, I want to tell you I love you, I hope that you will accept my love and become my soul mate, will you marry me?", said Terrance to Neesha, kneeling down on the floor with the wedding ring. During the eve of christmas, that would be the most unforgettable day for Terrance to stomp his courage to say those words.

Neesha was stunned. She cant close her eyelids but to look at Terrance. Without giving any reaction and reply, she ran up her room. Terrance was unhappy. After 6 months of knowing each other, he thinked that proposing together with confession perhaps worked simply too sudden until Neesha came down from her room bringing an unknown letter.

"Last christmas, I was very sad of a broken relationship. I approached pastor Lee. Pastor Lee told me that everything will be fine. The man of my life, will appear and be with me for the rest of my life, pampering me, give me everything. He wrote all these onto this letter." Neesha hand over the letter to Terrance and continues,"but I want to tell you, even though that the pastor did not tell me all those, I want to wear this ring, and love you for the rest of my life".

Old School...

#1 Wanted

#2 Old School Ad Board

#3 There is still letter for this address you know...


#4 Its older fashion than your anneh's barber shop

#5 Miss those bottles or not?

#6 You never ever took a bus, how could you imagine that is a bus stop?

#7 There's no Autopay station here, and I am very sure I have been to such carpark when I was a kid

#8 I seriously do not know what was this building, looks like a rich family house to me.

HOW DID HE......???!!!!!

One day, I'm gonna learn... THIS!!!



WTF!!!!!!!

Speed Trap?

Do you see a police setting camera to catch speed driver in the photo below?





Ok how about this?

谎话的意义

世界上有人真的没有说过谎话？
我有，而且还很经常。
可能谎话对自己其实没有占很大意义，
对我来说和一般人一样，
谎话 - 隐瞒事实的词句重组。

这两天我不断在思考谎话的真正原因：
- 隐瞒自己的破绽？
- 隐瞒一些残酷的事实
- 愚弄别人
- 为谋取利益
- 为了一些善意而说谎

大概前天吧，被骗了。
虽然不是什么天大事情，
但是好像蛮难解释吧。
因为，当场就发生了一些事让我揭穿自己被骗。
可能是难堪吧，反而被骗的觉得难堪
当我大叫：“噢！破空头了！”
自己觉得很“泄衰”， 原来是被骗了，
马上就离开一群人的闲聊。

感觉原本不遭，
但是此人却愚蠢到当我是极度蠢蛋，
在我到槟城时打了个“善后”的电话，
哇唠A你啊X臭X！
那是心虚？还是内疚？竟然用一些不可能的解释来特地澄清！

过后经过考虑后，就知道了谎言的意义：
善意的谎话， 被隐瞒者知道真相过后，感觉内疚难过；
恶意的谎话，说谎者知道破空后，感觉内疚难过。

你们说过最遭的谎话，有让你们内疚难过吗？

PS: 自觉者，请不要再来解释，因为这样只会让你自己更加难堪

我系购物狂！不是我的错！ - 男人女人购物传统观念

有无发现到现代女人，在购物官场是一条猛龙？男人到购物广场就只是会买自己想要的物品，但天生购物狂的女人......
1. 她们会埋下就算自己不是很喜欢的物品，包括衣服，小饰品等
2. 到了广场，90%不可能空手而回
3. 如果摆明车马是要“购物”，惨了，有时候一双手也不一定能那完全部袋子。
4. 等等！！！！！

其实，“我们不应该怪她们”。她们天生购物狂的特性，不是她们想要的。那为什么她们那么爱疯狂购物？

话说从前～～～～～

“在人类还在处于打猎和采摘果实的年代， 男人大部分的活动，就是独自走入森林里头，找寻猎物。男人非常清楚自己的目的，就是找个好的猎物，以便可以让家人吃顿好的。 所以当他们打猎时，都很专注在“自己要找什么东西”。 一打到猎物，就很满意的回家。而且也不很挑，只要可以填满肚子就好。

女人的工作室采摘果实。通常在她们的男人出外后，她们就三五成群的，一同到森林里采摘果实。当然，比起打猎，果实比较容易多了。数量和多，品种也很多。女人们就会很兴奋的观察到底那一些果实是比较值得采摘，考量的因素包括有：外表；有否被动物嚼食过；采摘容不容易；和好不好吃等等。然后采摘后，也不一定会吃。可能会放在一起，然后再三挑四选，务求选出最好的果实。”

亲爱的朋友们，你们是否觉得这个故事非常和现代的女生非常有关联？

中國武俠片的５０條不變定律

1. 悅來客棧是古代最大的連鎖客棧。……

2. 超級巨毒，解藥，暗器都產自西域。

3. 平時朝夕相處的人，只要穿上夜行衣，再蒙個面紗，對方就不認識了。

4. 沒用的小角色用的武功名字有很強的文學性和動物性，就是不大好用。

5. 長著超長白髮+鬍子的絕對是曠世高人，和他要拉好關係。

6. 英雄配一把好兵器，好到從不用去保養修理。

7. 在亂箭中，英雄要是不想死，就決不會死；萬一中了箭，那也是因為一旁有大惡人挾持其親人導致英雄分心。

8. 一定要象徵性的打幾下，才出絕招，並噴著口水大叫：去死吧！！

9. 使出必殺技要做很花哨的動作，還要做上一兩分鐘，但敵人決不會乘機偷襲，儘管這是個好機會……

10. 高手都無視萬有引力，到處亂飛且飛得飛快。不過要是趕遠路，卻會騎馬。

11. 大俠套餐：2斤熟牛肉+上等女兒紅。（悅來客棧長期供應……）

12. 好人從不下毒，壞人從不不下毒；但好人從不下毒卻老被誣陷下毒，壞人從不不下毒卻沒人懷疑他。

13. 大俠想顯示自己的修為，往往會撿起一根樹枝將不知天高地厚的小角色打敗，後來悅來客棧開始供應樹枝……

14. 在一條筆直的街道被人追殺，儘管有很多事要做，但弄翻兩旁的小攤是最重要的！

15. 好人用暗器是形式所逼，多才多藝，一擊必中；壞人用暗器是卑鄙無恥，旁門左道，扔死了都扔不中……

16. 壞人千心萬苦扔中了，還會被好人忍著巨痛放倒，並噴著口水大叫：卑鄙！

17. 會有絕世佳人救起中暗器的英雄，日不久也生情……

18. 當時社會治安不好，人人佩帶危險器械……

19. 菜市場殺豬的絕對是一胖子！！！！！

20. 絕世神兵被麻布一層一層裹緊，絕世神人也被麻布一層一層裹……

21. 主角一生坎坷或是一帆風順，一生坎坷的會坎坷到死，一帆風順的從不買彩票……

22. 所有人都很有錢，銅板很少出現，一張一張的銀票比草紙還便宜。

23. （悅來客棧的）店小二知識淵博，有問（+錢）必答！　　

24. 有錢人姓金，錢；窮人叫二狗。好人壞人偽君子一聽名字就知道。

25. 少林寺就1個方丈（老和尚那種8算）和1個徒弟厲害，其他都很==。　　

26. 練秘笈要分性別，別如男的，女的，男女混合的，不男不女……
27. 很喜歡在酒樓（悅來客棧）裏鬧事，先掀桌子，再摔椅子，最後才火拼。　　

28. 有時候可以一劍劈掉巨石，有時候卻劈不掉一張八仙桌。　　

29. 英雄都很帥，大反派也很帥，龍套長相鮮明~ 　　

30. 經典臺詞：A：在下***，江湖人稱****。 　　B：原來是***，久仰久仰。　　A:不敢當不敢當…… 　　

31．單挑是， “ 正義 ” 一方支撐不住了，就會喊人幫忙： “ 對付這種魔頭，不用和他講什麼江湖道義，大家一起上！ ” 　　

32．打擂時，一定是翻個跟頭上去的，再用30條的經典臺詞…… 　　

33.螳螂拳經久不衰，太極拳只有2個人會…… 　　

34.少林圖書館經常失竊…… 　　

35.儘管高手可以用鼻子聞到敵人的氣息，但在被偷聽時，只有對方碰翻了什麼東西才能察覺。　　

36.被察覺的人往往在快被追上時扔閃光彈，並在這一段時間逃的比平時快10倍。　　

37.都喜歡假死。 　　

38．一個人喝完悶酒一定會下暴雨。 　　

39.一下暴雨就會打並且只打一個雷。 　　

40.團體組合流行：(如)四大門派，四大金鋼等等………………………

41.拔劍時，有時會有劍氣，有時會拔不出來…… 　　

42.朝廷的大將軍是坨屎，公公才是高手。 　　

43．總有那麼一本書，劍，玉讓人搶。 　　

44.擁有比網路更快的傳播方式………………嘴！ 　　

45.沒見過有誰上廁所，要是有的話，那是因為被下了瀉藥…… 　　

46.妓院都是怡紅院（我懷疑是悅來集團的子公司……）。　　

47.髮型高度定型，甩一甩就恢復（用潘婷的？） 　　

48.要麼從小習武，要麼從不習武，否則是成不了大器的。　　

49.大俠勝利的方式只有2種：一招搞定或100，200，300招搞定……

50.美女到處都是，這是最鬱悶的……

兴奋

好久没这样.......

今天我的player播着自己的歌
I'm leaving on the jet plane, Jewel 的version
刚刚就tab了一下，好舒服

今天的工作虽然不轻松
但是充满开心的心情
大概是偷闲的时间利用的太好了吧

我告诉她别再养宠物了
宠物终有一天会离开自己
别再让自己伤心了

原本想好好把今晚的时间都让自己拥有
还不赖，就是什么都不理就行了
管他奶奶的

在自己surfing的时候，
看了许多人的部落格，
罗忆诗，颜菀倩，kenny sia,

有人告诉我，
我的witty回来了，
虽然刚刚懂witty是什么意思
但是真的很开心！

A Day To Remember

7th Feb, I wanted to write all the details about this date on how important it is. To me. But as I tried so many times to describe what it is all about, I cannot help myself by losing myself out of that.

I just want to say, I miss You, very much, things would be so different if You are stil here. I really miss You.

January Post Dated "Check"

Happy Chinese New Year and Gong Xi Fa Cai to all.

It took me so long to think about what I should jot for the coming post. I thought of posting something related to Chinese New Year, but my friend all know that I'm a boring person during CNY because my best top prioritized activity is hugging my pillow XD. Ok what ever it is, it would sounded more negative if its earlier and I do not want it to spoil everybody's festive season which is one of the reason that I delayed this post (though there's not much of visitors here....), and this time, I put it into more direct manner and comprehensive: My January Checked List. This is a list of what ever I thought of, in simplified version, almost about anything.

My January Checked List
1. To be postive, and it doesn't mean that I'm allowed to be careless.
2. To be always alert on the existing scenario. Do no underestimate any small matters arising.
3. Keep up with agressiveness, which will able to pace up myself to reach my target.
4. Keep up with patient, which will able to reduce unnecessary worry and demote possible-avoidable problem.
5. Do appropriate judgement and consideration with proper facts and figures. Do not rush into making a correct and good decision
6. Do not hesitate too long after selected the possible options listed down which may lead to "Shiet I miss the chance!"
7. Keep up with stupid and funny character which always make your friends laugh all time. Try not to be dull and self defensive.
8. Being serious in the correct time is the utmost important attitude rather acting stupid in the important discussions.
9. F-A-M-I-L-Y = Father And Mother I Love You. M is no longer here, therefore I decided to change that to Father And Me, I Love You.
10. Never eat any chocolate without drinking lots of water before KTV session.
11. Nicotine will not provide any long term solution. Destress with the correct method please.
12. Team activities (disregard of indoor and outdoor) are so important that will tell you that you are never alone in this sphere.
13. Always look back. Because there was where we walked through all the happy and unhappy times.
14. Shopping for CNY is some what unnecessary, since even if you were wearing last year's cloth, your friends will never mention about your cloth, neither if you worn the newly boughts.
15. Understanding your own religion and actual practice and needs for the ceremonies which is about time to learn.
16. Sometimes they are just so annoying, but if we really cant cope nor resolve those, ignore it.
17. There are always time and sufficient concerns for friends without fail, because there's not much faith frm family members, and we shouldn't expect to receive from them, but to give them what ever we have.
18. Carelessness is just a big problem to solve.
19. Yelling loud sometimes do solve certain problems.
20. Yelling loud sometimes don't solve the problems.
21. Keep fit and reduce some inches PLEASE.
22. Verifying is what an important move to make sure things go on or stop putting in hope.
23. Saying Happy New Year is some what easier to say Gong Xi Fa Cai.
24. Buying some delicious foods are good to share, but make sure you had enough of them before others sapu everything.
25. Always be factual, some times temper arises so easily if things that were wrong aren't corrected, and especially when you know some one is wrong.
26. Stop being too considerate and start being calculative since 7 out of 10 is taking advantage on you.
27. Stop being too rational because some times we just cant think out of the box, and things that can continue will just stop there.
28. Utilizing lunch hour to sleep in the office feels so damn good. Perhaps I should practice it more often and no bird Mr O.
29. Always keep your offensive and defensive system manual, where by you know how to prevent unnecessary damage onto others or onto yourself.
30. Got my biggest Ang Pow ever: 360,000. Dont doubt that. (since its in Rupiah).
31. Drinking beer while playing dota feels just so good.
32. Try not to do a check list at the end of February because I find it will be very nuisance to read by others.

冷笑话 - 历史人物篇

Q: 哪一个中国历史人物是跑最快的？
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Terms and Definition

Stunned

Adjective
Unable to act or respond; dazed; shocked


Attempt

Noun
1. The action of trying at something
2. An assault or an attack


Responsive

Adjective
1. Answering, replying, or responding
2. Able to receive and respond to stimuli
3. Using antiphons; antiphonal
4. Susceptible to feelings of others


Denied (past tense of Deny)

Verb
1. To not allow
I wanted to go to the party, but I was denied.
2. To assert that something is not true.
I deny that I was at the party.


Verify

Verb
1. To substantiate or prove the truth of something
2. To confirm or test the truth or accuracy of something
3. (Law) To affirm something formally, under oath

冷笑话 - 地方研究篇

Q: 地球上有东京，南京，北京，为什么没有西京？

Ａ：因为。
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西经被唐三藏取走了。

冷！ 冷！！ 冷！！！！！

Note For Early 2009

Yeap we heard that what they said. Its going to be a very tough year, tougher than ever at least.

While the SEA economy crisis during year 97/98, I was just a lad, perhaps I'm still one. I seriously feel the difficult time that I am going to face. Which is the target that I set mentioned earlier, to proceed with another financial target of my aim.

However, I think I had a very energized year this year, at least for this 18 days. Every negativity seems so nothing to me, I took my things more easily and more aggressively when they were needed to.

I told myself there's no such things called 365-happy days. As all the big ropes are helical shapes of multiple smaller ropes, which I assume there are so many elements that to combine into a big one in our life. No doubt, many negative things still happens. On my past year, those big things which impacted onto me and people around me had been too much. I would have just resolved every people relation and work matter better than what I had did.

Its a good start this year. I feel like every thing is more. The people are more, the good mood is more, friends are more, energies getting more, loves things around more, hopefully it'll lead to my bank notes to become also more. Which I think that, its time for resuming my part time job again. Although it may not be easy to manage my stamina and time. But I did it once, I think I can do the same thing before thinking of expanding things to become bigger.

It sounded very low profile when I reread my own post here. I want to clarify that this is not. This time I'm very sure especially the first 10 days of 2009 I had met a few big cases personally and officially, but I was so surprise everything handled perfectly. Perhaps understanding that many things are just beyond our control, we will have to move on with our foot steps firm enough to carry all the weight.

I want to remember my feelings now. That is why I came to this post. Previously I had created a personal authorized blog to jot down all the negative things to prevent myself spreading all the negativity to my friends, quoting Irvin, its too difficult to read my blog because that he had to help himself prevent to be affected by my negativity. Fortunate or unfortunate? I had not put a single alphabet there yet. Perhaps its just so nice to make things a little bit better by thinking in the positive way. I'd forgotten when was the last time I think like that, but throughout early of this year, I've been doing that, unconsciously.

Good job I praised to myself! I'll keep that up! And everybody should keep that up! Lets move ahead although its a tough year in financial, we shouldn't make it a tough year for our emotion and quality life!

Tom (Jeans) and Jerry's Non Sense Chat Log (Funny!)

It was a boring working late afternoon, as usual, I was looking for somebody to hit me with some text from my chatting tools to at least let me drift myself out from my work as my ular session:

T: hi jerry,,still alive ah?
J :ahh~~~...... ah~~~~~..... *dying*
T: ping piang.....
J: errkkK!!!!
T: chik chiak_[bullet uploading]..
J: siiiuuu....siiiiuuuuuu~~~~*matrix-style dodging bullets*.... nyek nyek nyek...
T: croaching tiger hidden dragon ...hiok,,hak hak,,,hek,,,[kung fu]
J: hoik! *dodge* hiiippp *jump up on the air* kraaakkk!! *broke a bamboo stick* AHH~~~ *stand on the bamboo tree preparing...*
T: tieng tieng....[guitar swiping], "xiu lam kung fu hou yeh"
J: hou hou yeh
T: xiu lam kung fu geng
J: hao hao geng
T: ngor hai ti tao gong
J: ti~~ tao~~ gong~~~~
T: nei hai kam kong toi,,,,,
J: kam~ kong~~~ toi~~~~ huak!!! HUAK!!!!!!!!
T: hahhaha,,,
J: ahhaah
T: siup,,,,,[pulling out the sword]
J: huh??!!!!!!! fok fok fok *stick swinging*
T: see my 飞云!hoi，，，hah。。。。
T: 风云剑!!
J: then i cannot use stick jor
T: i forgot wat tat sword name liao...hahahha
J: 血饮狂刀
J: 绝世好剑
T: ya,,,,jue shi hao jian
J: gurup...gurup.....*eating 菩提子*
T: 小李飞刀! siup ,,,,[茶杯..flying,,,]
J: kororororoororor........... *filling 茶杯 with tea*....
T: 敬你一杯! 请问大虾贵姓？
J: 大虾? 在下老虎虾!未请教!
T: 久仰大名...
J: 不敢当
T: 一斤多少钱？
J: 放肆！什么一斤多少钱?!!!
T: 哈，难道你是用‘只’来算的？
J: 最少要买五斤!! 用‘只’来算也可以!
T: siup.....[sword....pulling]
J: !! 未请教....
T: 再请教
J: 先请而后教
T: 先教再后请。。。
J: 后请而后教
T: 再后就接招!!!hiop....
J: hoik
T: ting ting ting'''[music]
J: 埋住！
T: ting ting ting ting,,,,,[walking round]
J: flok flok flok *pigeon fly in*
T: frezze...[MI2,...uom cruise walk in...opps...]
J: 大侠原来是同道中人
T: 你是哪一道？我是常迟道。。。。你呢？
J: 山中飞鸽传书, 说大侠原来是来买秘密老虎虾!
T: 对...老兄...
J: 飞鸽传书说，Mariah Carey 要来,要买老虎虾请他吃
T: 对....
T: 不好意思，昨天mariah 说他不想吃了
J: ！！
T: tom cruise,,要吃....
J: 唉，飞鸽传书就是不够SMS快, 已经叫他们用ＳＭＳ了...
T: 错,我们用3G
J: ３鸡？
T: siup....[PDA pulling,,]
J: 难怪三只小猪过时了。。。
T: ya,,,看我的最新山鸡, 最快，，最大，，，最划算
J: 高明高明!
T: 而且还是黑剃鸡{HTC}!!!
J: 可以跟我们虾帮派的千里传音相比
T: 难怪你outdate了, 我们可以传万里了
J: 让我把这太黑剃鸡拍起来,siup! [HP take out]
T: 泰国龙珠上等3鸡，可以传万里家
J: 我这个锁你屎未索(Sony Cybershot)
T: 锁你屎未索!! 黑剃鸡的死对头!!
J: 不错吧?
T: 屎未索已经收皮了。。
J: 不可能!
T: 讲多无谓。。。。看招!
J: hiippp
T: croaching tiger..[croach croach croach...]
J: hidden dragon [shouting...roarr.....roaarrr.....]
T: wah...really tired...来杯乌龙茶
J: 我不要, 我要黑龙茶!
T: ring ring ring...[黑剃鸡响了。。]
T: 老虎虾兄...在下又要使...任务难违。。。
J: *听～～妈妈的～～～话～～*[锁你响了]
T: 后会有期...
J: 等等！
J: shiupppp *tea cup sliding*
T: 嘿，，我接
J: 先敬茶。。。。
T: 我 siup....再请你茶
J: 很涨了,谢谢
T: 不客气
J: 你已经中毒了, muahahahhaha!
T: 哈哈哈...看我的
T: hoiikkk....puuuuu....[vomit out the tea]
J: 早料到你会这样, 其实毒中在你的手,
T: 哈哈密密麻麻。。。。。你也中招了!含笑半步丁！！hohoho..
J: :X， 顾名思义， 要含笑， 半步，才丁。我没有半步， 所以没丁
T: hoik,,,,,,[jumping to the air force 1]
J: 你！！！别跑～
T: obama need my helps
J: oops *walked*
T: he said he cannot pang sai, i need to urut 他, hoik!!
J: hoik, siup [continue yamcha]
Both: 哈哈哈....
to be continued....

Note: Tom Jeans (Facebook / Friendster) is my ex coursemate during diploma. A good looking guy, I always call him Kent Zhu Xiao Tian, because to me he really looks like him, some angle of view. He taught me a little bit of guitar last time, where I'd also joint him to jamming room before. And he's now a father, but a happy father I think. Only a happy father can able to chat to me like so funny, not like those very dull father, always talk about do's and dont's only. Haha. Hope to meet him up some day. Really long time no see.

In Memories of XF and XS

Dear XF,

By listening to the description from Your mummy to me, I know You left with full of willingness, by staying cute, even though You'd left.

We know You do not want to leave XS alone up there, that is why You decided to meet him up there 2 days after XS left. I'm sure that XS will first whack You up before saying anything to You, because I just asked Him to bless your life with full of strength day before, and You do not seem to accept that but made another decision.

I think that both of You will love each other more up there, live more happily up there. XF, stop bullying XS when You reach there ok? And we know how fat You were, so, You do not need to keep fit already, since You are already fat :p . Therefore eat as much of doggy food as You can. We know You like it, no need to curi curi makan.

And daddy know I very naggy.. but both of You must bless mummy alot, for her to be happy every single second, every day. And don't be naughty, cause I already ask Your grandma to watch you all out, She will report to me if both of You in caught naughty!

With Love,
Papa

To Little Skinny Who Will be Always be Blessed

Dear XS,

We know that You are always adorable, we know that you are always happy. When You reach your new place with full of joy and endless happiness, please do not hesitate to be as playful as possible, eat and store unlimited kua zi of Your most favourite activities. God will bless You no matter where You go. With the new place, we know that You will be happier than suffering Your illness within these few months. I feel very regret that I'm not around with You during Your toughest moment, and as well as not around with mummy when she's helpless. So, with all Your means, I hope You can bless mummy with all the happy days she will be going through, and all the strength to empower both of mummy and XF to continue live strong and happy. RIP.

With Love,
Papa