Sunday, October 26, 2008

What A Day!

Today, I'm back as a leader position to command the whole event. Although its not a very big event, consisting less than 400 people, but I had very deeply felt that its worthed when seeing few of the 120% supporting crew members to back me up.

I want to do a special thanks to all these people:

Fuang > although you told me that you are very kan jiong all the time, but I still find that you are very cautious handling every single thing.

Vick > Throughout the whole preparation of the event, I rank you the number 1 contributor, who poured most of your time to make from A to Z, although now you are having your own personal problem, but you had never abandon this event project. Very uneasy to see you run in the injured condition, but you said you are ok, not so bad, I decide to believe you. But if you are not ok, I will be very uncomfortable, that you had done so much even in injuries.

Leo > Thanks for doing the most important job in this event - the booklet. Its too difficult to be handled, although there's some minor error occured, but I'm still giving you a thumbs up!

Fong > Bro, you are the most MAN person I ever seen among my friends. In this particular event, you have been travel among the jobs from those who need tenderness like Master of Ceremony, to the most performance-drive job, like leading the stretching and marching the flag.

Kee Wei and Tan > I want to thank you for making all the results keep in time, delivered, and well organized.

Rebecca > I wan to salute you! You are so experience in handling so many different scenario at on handling sudden change of the event.

Madam Ngu > Thanks for your help in our registration, without you, I think the whole situation will be very messy.

Kim Leong > You are my all rounders. From preparing food, handing over the prizes, preparing the titans to the track, you were everywhere.

Low > Thanks for ensuring all the titans in good shape!

Mr Chin > Thanks for your "support"

Mr Ng > I owe you a BIG one. If its not you, I think today will be a one sided event.

Mr Hoo > Thanks for running your full stretch at your 4x400m event, although we didnt won, but in my heart, all of you are winners.

Jolyn > I thought our prize giving part will be a huge mess, but you prove to me that I was wrong, by making everything in such a good sequence and manner.

TB Tan and Krish > Thanks for your support, although you all are busy all the time with work, you never say "no" to our help

Angie > Thanks for organizing the meeting all these whiles, and I need you to organize another Review Meeting for this event next monday.

Ah Hong > Thanks for collecting the "underwear". And tonight you will drive me because I plan to drink until I become coma.

Mr Ong > Thanks for understanding me not in the office most of the time because busy organizing this event. I promise I will spend more time to close up all the unfinished job back in the office.

And of course, how could I don't thank him

Chong > although we didnt get our 20 mil, but I really want to thank you by assisting me although you are from Kuching, and today from 7:30am, till 2:30pm, I never see your eyes leave your lap top screen by helping every body to key in the results accurately, by duet-ing wit me online when we are stressed, by performing "Magic" with me when we are both free, and I just cant finish thank you here, may be when I won my 20 mil, I know how to express my gratitude. Haha.

I think to all those name that I left out, I apologize. But dont take it too hard. Cause its my forgetful, not that you didnt contribute, I just cant finish all those name here.

Although there are some silly mistakes, some major mistakes, some minor mistakes, and some "facial" mistakes, but I think our team handling it fantastically. Today in our team, there's no blaming, no pin pointing, no hassle, no pushing problem around. I witness this teamwork with full of impressiveness. Everybody is backing up each other, supporting each other, encouraging each other, and no complain until the trouble has been sort out. I am indeed so long never as happy as today. Its not because of the event, cause its only 60-70% of success, but its the team spirit that I seen.

We really strived, it has been shown.

*How could I? HOW COULD??!!!!!

Special Thanks to:

Izu and Carmen > Sorry for forgetting your big names, if its not both of you, I think I cannot last until my afternoon tea break at 3:30pm... And because of you 2, I drank 5 cans of 100plus (at least) *wwwooopppss*.......

Thanks again for everybody who presence themselves in the stadium! Tomo Arigathou!

Monday, October 20, 2008

Too Much For An Evening

Its a great night. I suddenly have this feeling that I cant wait to blog this right after my shower.

Scene 1: I called up my banner supplier for my company sports day. Inquiring him to help me to do an ink print (I cant believe they dont understand the description "canvas") banners which has been decide by W, or more accurately, his sister. I purposely requested W to convert it into the JPEG file, so that it is more common to be used in any graphical software. His sister did it in Adobe Photoshop, which is quite professional. I dont have that software. To ease everybody to review the design. I requested W to convert into JPEG file. This supplier, lets call him CT. He told me that, "Canvas? you meant ink print is it..."(see.. he cant understand canvas) "Nowadays ink print is very the high tech liao.. we use computer to print the drawings out. But it must be in .AI file name la...."
Me: "Adobe Illustrator? Your software should be able to convert the JPEG file into .AI files"
CT: "Cannot lahh... I do this type of banner so many times liao.. It must use .AI files... else I cant print it out..."
Me: "Can la... You try and see can bo? I dont have the converter nor Adobe software in my software."
CT: "Cannot la... you try to find the converter lohhh"
Me: "...."

I was kinda frustrated with his improfessionalism. I consulted my Kuching buddy Mr Young Gun. He told me that he never heard of such converter, may need time to source, and having the doubt I had, "isn't it Adobe can use the 'save as..' function to convert it?"
Therefore I look for Adobe Illustrator software, hoping to find the cracked version since the license protection for Adobe is tremendously strong. Uhah!!! Got it. Immediately I open the JPEG file and saved as the AI.

Sigh... some people just tend to act smart and their ego... like young gun said, "They are just trying to fart..."

Scene 2: To good to know that Little Skinny has slowly recovered, his eyes is less swollen and less reddish now. And he is keeping his wheel and don wan to let his mate to play on it. Haha.. pretty cute.

Scene 3: I had my Thank You Dinner thanks to Dato S. It was quite an enjoyable dinner looking at Mr CKW drunk, 70%? Ya about there. I'm impressed with his drunk. He spoke everything the truth, partially.
"YJ2 has excellent team work! When I knocked CKK's glass, some body will just jump out and drink for him!"
"It has been already Buyers market nowadays, all the S2M sales men know very well, CKK knows very well, CH knows very well, I think Jerry also knows a little. On how customer rejects us like throwing our product back to our warehouse!"

I only looking foward to these 2 statements, please let me explain why they are "Partially correct"

Statement 1: "YJ2 has excellent team work! When I knocked CKK's glass, some body will just jump out and drink for him!"
Correction: YJ2 has excellent teamwork FOR CERTAIN DEPARTMENT, they will protect their own departmental people and sometimes will neglect other people"

Statement 2: "It has been already Buyers market nowadays, all the S2M sales men know very well, CKK knows very well, CH knows very well, I think Jerry also knows a little. On how customer rejects us like throwing our product back to our warehouse!"
Correction: It has been already buyers market LONG TIME AGO! All the S2M sales may not know very well, CKK may not know very well, CH may not know very well, I think Jerry knows A LOT! On how customer reject us like throwing the four letter words on to your face together with their saliva.

Well, perhaps he was drunk, lets just don take it too seriously ;).

Scene 4: I wan to thank Mr CKK. Part of it. I got this so dog luck chance to meet him after Mr Dragon ask me to drive W back. I can feel that he was just trying to shooh him away, nevermind, I can do the job. On the way to carpark, God blessed, I saw Mr CKK. He was shocked that Dragon asked me to: "Can you drive W back first? HMK said we have something to discuss"
Is it so secretive? I thought "YJ2 people has excellent teamwork". His act already broke the golden rule inside a team - No secret between team members. Nah here proved that Mr CKW said was only PARTIALLY correct. Its just because me and W are not engineers, we are quality personnel, different department. Felt so bad but, who cares? I got this kinda dog luck to meet Mr CKK. I took this opportunity to tell him that the ITTI's isolation scenario. He invited me and W to join their "something to discuss".

Oh... No wonder Dragon don't want me to join. It was about a nagging by Mr CKK. I guess some times when egoism went too high, these people do not wish to let others see them nagged. Mr CKK said a lot of things, I really express my gratitude here that he had help me to say something for ITTI. He mentioned on how YJ2 treated ITTI as a rubbish bin, throwing all the rejected material to ITTI so called "ask for help", but in fact they were just doing "garbage disposal". I regretted when Mr CKK conversate this with me in front of so many people:

"Jerry, do you have anything to add on?"

"Mr C, I have plenty of things to say, but I don think this is a good position to say"
"I understand, you want to do it in details."

Mr C, I do not have such intention. No doubt that I want to use figures to show how you all treated (treat) ITTI as a garbage bin by throwing those things to ITTI. But the reason that I do not want to speak is I don want your engineers to lose their face and saying me to act like a pro by climbing the stairs you gave me. So here, let me put down what I wanted to say just now:

"Dear colleagues, I know that I'm out of the team, 3 miles away from the place you work everyday. However, when I received the rejected materials, I didnt sent any email to bombard you guys, I carry the samples from 3 miles away, sitting at Aunty's canteen spending your tea break to discuss with you, asking you all to help me by try to reduce this kinda problem. How ever, I think this brotherhood method initiated by me has been abused, and as that goes on, ITTI has been well known as garbage bin, where all the rubbish will be thrown there, showing your YJ2 good figures, leaving all your shits at ITTI.

In ITTI's position, no doubt that we are daughter company, but every metric tonne material you billed us as prime grade, has been rejected and rejected. And everytime I voice a nag, it has been replied by a joke that: huh? complain? ok lohh I don give you material. =.= h-a-h-a =.=. Not funny at all. Disregard of sellers or buyers market, ITTI do not even have the right to sound how bad is your quality, of the material and your attitude. During sellers market, the sellers are having rights to decide who to sell, even though you may have plenty of cash, I can just stop your material supply; whereas when buyers market, everybody is keeping their cash and clear off their stock, and dear YJ2 colleague, this moment you throw all you stock to ITTI, ITTI do not have cash, but forced to receive your material, defected ones some more, cheated some more.

If you were to think of isolating ITTI's people, please proceed. This will strengthen my will to be the joker of this game. I will be the bad guy. I will become the YJTI's Mr Brian Ch'ng, to send you all at least 3 complaints per week, or even more. I joint you all during the maintenence job asked from Mr CKK, it is not for the replacement leave (partially of course), it is because I wanted to let you all know, when you all need help, I'll be there, but why that ITTI called for help for so long, yet we only heard about hypocritic suggestion from you all?

I'm sorry if what I said are harshy, I don even want to give a damn! I just want you all to know how bad is ITTI doing now, not because that me and Mr O do not want to improve it, but it is this scenario where YJ2 people think ITTI people are staying inside rubbish bin. Now let me tell you, people who stay inside the rubbish bin are able to contain because they are able to withstand this pressure, when I asked dragon to join me to visit customer, he cross his hand and show me a big NO. Therefore, when I said I'm going a complaint at Penang, Ipoh, Kuantan, JB, etc etc.. Please never ever say that I'm enjoying."

Yes it could be that long. That is why I didnt mumbled.

It has been a long night. I'm feeling so much better now, no body shares my problem. I just do not want person who are not in suitable position to initiate to share my problem. I'll be good. I'll be good. I just know that. I'll be better.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Prayers for Little Skinny (Xiao Shou)..

Today, I beg for the health of little skinny to be as cute and healthy, naughty and adorable, fast and active, responsive and obeyant, as the day he was not ill. I pray for him that his swollen eyes will cure, so that he can be as happy as usual. Thanks for the help.


Thursday, October 16, 2008

How good it will be, if tomorrow never comes

Fong: Jerry, so next year you'll go up there right?

Jerry: I don't even know what will happen tomorrow, can we don talk bout "next year"?

Fong: You can definitely know what will happen tomorrow, plan what you want to do tomorrow, then you will know.

Jerry: Have you ever met such scenario when, you know what you want, but something unwanted is likely going to happen, and you can give a damn to change those unwanted things.

I dont see my tomorrow. Perhaps when I forsee it, I only see those unwanted things likely to happen. When she carried her son to come in front of my room saying something so affecting, I knew I hit the bouzai. The good things never realized, not even my 4D numbers are striked.

I was wondering how it could be, when I think I attempt to repair the atmosphere, to a more harmonical place. It is only 4 people, plus 1 infant. I cant manage a 4 people scenario, I cant solve a 4 people problem. May be I'm not so good, I'm not good enough here. No body will listen to me here; no body will think I'm good here; no body will appreciate what I did here; no body will like me here."

I am mentally fatigue. I am sooooo disappointed. I am so fucked up. I am so pissed off. I am so lost. I am so helpless. I am so stupid. I am so unwanted. I am so undisputed. I am so dedignified. I am so demoralized. I am so useless.

I choose to remain silent, and deaf if possible. According to the experts, when a person started to become deaf, or mute, unnaturally, it is the activation of self defense mechanisms.

"Expect for a better tomorrow" ??
When I sleep tonight, I only hope that I can wake up tomorrow.

Monday, October 13, 2008


你的回话凌乱着 在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽 甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯 我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌 假装没事了

时间过了 走了 爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
离开时的不快乐 你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了

怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着 你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Power of the Mentality

3:57am, it was akward. I thought it would be a scenery where I had talking non sense, or at least walk umbalancely. It wasnt so much, but I expected, when yellow + purple + brown, it should be giving me a hammer on the brain to malfunction it, I prefer calling it a "RESET". To shut down all the undesired memories usage in my brain, which caused it to "lag" over the time.

It wasnt a virus, it was a software. This software which I thought I had already "uninstalled" it. I think may still wan to continue using it, or not? I do not know.

I understand that when the brain is working in an extreme condition, it will not be affected by any other external substances, ie alcohol. I feel the alcohol flow into my veins, which made my face and shoulder so damn hot. I really felt it. I found out, when I walk towards the gents, I was walking in the straight line; when I peed, I didnt lean on the wall; as I finished, I didnt forgot to wash my hands with soap; when V was vomitting drunk, I advise to gargle the mouth so that the stomach acids didnt made the vomitting process more uncomfortable. Now you know, when your brain is processing something hardly, liqour cannot help you. I felt myself taken in excessive alcohol, but I was so conscious.

I hate that when Mr. X advise me not to drink anymore, asked me not to drive, thinking I'm unconscious, etc etc. It made me feels so irritating. I was conscious, and why I'm letting a person who cant drink to advise me stop drinking bla bla bla.. rather criticizing. Welp, I only able to think that he is CONCERNING his colleague. Which was the only way made me feel better, or else I'll be thinking he was again, acting pro, acting considerate, bla bla bla... Everybody knows how much hypocritic can hide a person's personality, the inner personality I meant.

I'm still confused, still looking to discover what I want, what had been offered to me. Another offer. My drunk supplier spoke to me, hinting me about skills of sales and marketing, and there's a huge customer in Malacca looking for a "SUITABLE" sales person to take care. I take that as an entertainment, he mentioned he doesn't dare to dig me over, as my bosses are looking way high upon me. Ok, up to those what he commented, two words "BULL SHIT"
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