星期六的Saturday Star

今天终于滚到了泳池里
想要游的泳那么久了

和喜欢游泳的感觉

我虽然不是游泳健将
也只懂得那两式
但游泳的感觉真的很舒服

爸爸在泳池里欺负孩子
从他的眼神看出，他很担心孩子的安危

情侣在池边打情骂俏
从他们的眼神看出，他们享受在一起的感觉

教练在大声喊叫学生
从他们的眼神看出，他们很想揍那些偷懒的人

喜欢在水里只需用脚尖
就可以弹跳超过1米

喜欢在水里被水包围
仿佛保护我被一切负能量影响

喜欢在池底踢游
感觉像（肥）海豚在摆动

游泳后我决定以点心为早餐
一直都想要很久了（又很久了）
皮蛋瘦肉粥，芋角是我的最爱
买了份Saturday Star
原来还是那么好看

其实，一个人的快乐
我已经学会很久了
就算从今以后我都是一个人
就算朋友都“绝种”了
就算世界上的人类都消失了
就算...
我还是可以很快乐的，真的很简单

三年

记得三年前的农历新年来得很迟，
那是我第一次工作后的新年，
打算着可以包一封大利是给爸妈。

那年发生了很多让人痛心的事，
我在种种艰辛的环境下走过了........

还记得那时候，晴她过来直到妈出殡了
出殡的当天下午，我送她到车站搭车回去
疲惫的躯体和精神让我不想说任何东西
如往常的，我告诉她到了就报平安。

那天午觉直到晚上，无法睡好
全身酸痛，精神劳累
我猜想她应该到家了，但并没有通电问她
在满心搅乱的情况下，电话就响了：
“公，你在睡觉吗？”
“嗯...妳到了吧？”
“我到了，冲了凉咯”
“嗯..."
“你还很累吗？”
“嗯..”
“好好...我很想跟你讲话，但是你很累，你去休息多点吧”
“ok...”

当时我真的很累，可能是脑袋累极了吧
没好好和她说多两句
通常如果我很累，不太爱说话
她都会发我脾气
但那时期，她没有
因为她明白事情的突然

现在我可以体会了解，当时我那么回应她
她是多么的痛，多么的伤心
虽然她了解我应该多休息
但是我真的应该让她知道我还是在乎她
转眼就三年了....

Be Strong

Hold up... hold on...
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone.

May your smile... Shine on...
Don't be scared
Your destiny may keep you warm.

Cause all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way

My deepest condonlence
Let the sorrow diminish through time
I know you can do it.

24.1.10 0140

- work blindly
- band practising for almots 5 days a week
- beer or liqour for almost 60% of 1 month.
- loy boy sang perfectly in the performance
- almost didnt sleep for 43 hour (still counting)
- had the greatest McD ever
- smiled happily from my heart after so long didnt do it
- being crazy
- being sensual
- being rational
- being ego
- being lazy
- played all the wrong chords
- worried for whole day and read something not delighting
- played less than 3 dota games in the week
- backache recurring
- disappointed Mr O
- pissed off with some new "PROJECT"
- pushed
- decided sometimes personal blog shouldnt update that often
- Sometimes when we touch - Dan Hill
- "ur head"
- :P
- wrong nicotine application and dosage
- "many things but no me"
- not servicing my CLK after near 6000km millage
- C902 got cracked
- my bike's rim is not round anymore
- klang heavy traffic jam
- thinking on ALL possibilities
- I want
- writting this boring post
- didnt watch soccer match for so long
- saw live nba broadcast in tv but not bother to watch
- said something meaningful
- said something constructive
- said something useless
- being forgetful
- didnt met up with eddie
- not yet return CY's shoe

- drunk with 1.5 cup of tiger

- penang trip with G
- prepenang trip with J
- etc

Welcome 2010, Goodbye 2009

New year should be brand new. Today is 1st of January 2010, the 1st page of 2010 calendar. Unexpectedly, I still unable to get myself a new resolution. If there is at least one, I hope that I can give my full support to the people I care, and by all means I'll do it.

Happy New Year