家

我回来了，我的家。
突然觉得这里像是我的家，心里的家

有人说，当你在外面困透了，就会家里吧
因为那里总可以让你有舒适的感觉
像这里一样

我的心没地方好去，没地方可以停留
但是有个家，总随时欢迎我回来
这里便有类似的感觉

原来在最紧绷的心情伪装若无其事，昂然无恙，镇定冷静
还蛮累的，蛮耗神的。

不过在纷扰中徘徊，心情迷失时
我回家了，我的心灵之家
J FM II

A Life of a Pen

About half a year ago I received a pen. Personally I'm not good taking care of pen. It would only takes me two week to "finish up" a pen. As if, hilang lar.. stolen lar.. left somewhere lar.. surprisingly this pen that I got survive up till today. As if I am having a very special feeling on it, funny, I was thinking perhaps this pen has survive through my record, may be I'll use it forever.

There was a time that the clicker spoilt. So I was thinking may be its not as lasting as I thought. Therefore I checked out where it was bought, and manage to repair it. On that moment, I really think this pen is really nice, especially my daily work do a lot of signing documents, I would probably need a comfortable pen to cob me during my work.

After it was like 5 months, since I have a new colleague that shared my job, many documents I do not sign anymore, and as seldom I need to use it, one day, I found out that the pen has already finish consuming its ink. I think, this pen has probably come to its end. Most likely it can be continued to be used, but it has only to buy a refill for it. May be the friend who gave me this pen would someday buy me the refill, a doubt and a trance of chances. However, I'm keeping this pen back to its box, and probably not going to use it, unless this friend bought me the refill. Asking too much huh.. ahhaa..

Dear friends and visitors, unfortunately this will be my last post at J FM II. Due to some personal reasons, I'll stop blogging in this page. No body knows if I will continue, but I'm deciding to stop here. If there was anything that damaged you or insulted you, I apologize because I seriously didnt meant it. Special thanks to all those regular visitors, Chong, Little Flower, April, Elims, ah soo, eli, gns js, gns cy and ah ju may be? I wont close up this blog and leave it for visiting purposes, if theres something you guys want to come back and glance through. Thats all for J FM II. Take care guys.

Lame Joke (World Cup Edition)

Last week planned by Lynn, we hooked up to Ivan's house for his 20th birthday and when he know I was in front of his gate he replied me,"WHAT THE F*CK???!!!"

Haha.. so it was like a wine session at nite and funny drunk Ivan was complaining about his next day will be travelling to Sungkai: "WTF is a hot spring over there... its just a hot spring rite..??" There I replied with its quite a nice place that I heard of where you can put a basket of eggs and boil while you're in it.

So there he goes whining his way to the kitchen where the uni friends are around the table drinking and said "TOMORO WE'RE GOING TO SUNGKAI HOT SPRING!!! TO BOIL EGGS!! BOIL OUR EGGS!!!" then the friends are laughing and there comes the inspiring world cup edition of lame jokes.

Me: Ivan do u know why the girls are the best goal keepers in the world?

Ivan: No... why?

Me: because ___________________________________

Do you guys know why?

迷宫

我是个称职的老师，因为我总是会给很多例子和比喻。所以在现实生活中，比喻和例子可以用来掩饰一些真相，且不透露真实的问题来找出另一番的观点。我和阿修的沟通，总充满了比喻和例子。

昨天我心烦了，想要逃开自己的问题，却无法脱离。所以找了阿修，给了他一个比喻。

我告诉他说，我非常厉害解迷宫，但是现在我陷入了一场迷宫，走了很久，都走不出来。不管怎样尝试，什么方法，都没能找到出口。总是兜了兜，兜了兜，来回都是同样的道路。来来回回都是末路。他回我说，要不你就不玩，要不你就习惯一下Deja Vu的东东。

我犹豫了他所说的Deja Vu的意义，因为那是个很大很大的字眼，没有预料到他会这么说。但是我回答他说，我已经在迷宫里了，但是我不玩了，要出来，我要出来，怎样才能让我出来？也出乎预料的：

修：习惯一下在迷宫里面就好，不用出来啦。
我：我必须走出来，真的很严重，不出这迷宫不行。一直在里边转，很疲累，我垮下来了，也崩溃了。
修：既然你走不出来，也没有出口，那为什么还浪费力气去争扎呢？不如在迷宫里找个伊甸？
我：迷宫里没有伊甸，我走遍了整个迷宫，一片漆黑，什么都没有。

对话就这样结束了。没有结论也没有方法让我走出来，仿佛自己在钻牛角尖。我不像是这类型人吧。毕竟理智成分还很高，只要不过午夜，就不会太感性...(某人说的吧)....

结果我停了下来，不再张望四周，不再找寻出口，这里反正也不会有伊甸，仿佛沙漠里没有绿洲。这是不是个迷宫？我望着自己留下的脚步和痕迹，已经是遍布整个周围。讨厌自己走了进来，走不出去，呼天不应，喊地不灵，听见的只有自己的回音，当时听见其他人的回声，也只是幻想。

而幻想，指的是它从来不曾存在，是潜意识给的假象，虚的，伪的。

对话

突然间想起和一名朋友的对话让我鸣了起来

我：如果有一天你再也找不到我，打电话不接，短讯也不回，我好像消失了，那你会怎样？
他：上网找你就好啦，反正你都会online的
我：.... 也对啦... 哈哈....

那是三个月前的对白吧。如果现在重问的话可能是....

我：如果有一天你再也找不到我，打电话不接，短讯也不回，我好像消失了，那你会怎样？
他：找不到就找不到啦，反正有没有你也没什么大不了...
我：.... 也对啦... 哈哈.....

有点冷吧.... 哈哈哈....