友情无价

可能话题有点敏感，所以以下的对话都修改了不少，而且名字都只是以代号显示..

我：抱歉，收迟了你的PM，也看见了你的fb status，知道你block了一些和我们之前的讨论相关的人。我真的认为没此必要，这不单是逃避问题，且还没把问题解决。还是你已经和他们谈了？然后还是不能接受？可能这样会失去珍贵的朋友吧，终究我不知道事情的细节。我担心会像你和阿S一样，多可惜啊，失去一些曾经对彼此有诚心的朋友。

A：不了，不能用"珍贵" 来形容他们了。某些事情让我彻底的失望。我也觉的和阿S当不成朋友很可惜。但今天我可以很肯定的跟你说，昨晚我毫不犹豫地block了一些人，其他的还蛮犹豫的。*sensored a stretch*。原来不是这样。他们还是觉得有事。很明显的他们不需要，也不珍惜我这个热心的朋友了。既然他们用行动来说明，我也用行动来支持。他们失去的是一直以来都很在乎他们的我。

我：可为什么不至少在做任何决定前，好好谈一谈呢？虽然有时候行动可以证明一些东西，不过不亲口证实，以你的个性，你会甘心吗？我质疑。可能你不是那些喜欢解释的人，不过如果当中有一些误解的话，而解释可以化误为解，何乐而不为？难道真的什么都没有尝试，就可以放弃所谓曾经的最好姐妹吗？真的想要你了解大家曾经有过的时候得来不易，那是不是可以由他们解释，然后再处理大家的误会？

老实说，你们一群已经是我参进去的时间少了又少了，所以对他们的了解很皮面，不足以讲评些什么。不过看见朋友失去朋友的现象，真的很令人伤心
考考虑，是不是应该大家谈谈，我相信“他”应该是有诚心的人，只是比较没有主见。朋友对我来讲，真的很重要...

A: 我不会主动再约大家了，去哪里的话等他们来约我，时间许可我还是可以和大家聚在一起。我不喜欢解释，因为再多的解释只会为阿S带来更多的伤害。

得来不易？这句说得好。但是这句话应该反问他们比较对。看看他们有什么看法。
甘心？之前我很不甘心，之前我心里一只怪责因为阿S的想不开，以至大家的友情产生变化。
我不甘心，为什么姐妹们只相信他们眼睛看到的？为什么没人来与我证实，没人来听我诉说？
我不应该当那个主动去解释的人。

够了，我自问对这段友谊尽了我最大的努力，现在是他们先放弃了我。朋友对我来说很重要。老套的一句话，朋友不必多，知心的一个就够。

我：可能是个人观点不同吧，你的方法并没错，我可以接受，只是这样的话，双方面都亏，总要有一方亏多一点，才可以把事情放大而理解。
可能你已经觉得自己已经做够了，再做下去真的过不了自己，那是可以理解的。毕竟每个人的限度跟方式都不同，没有absolute对错。不过如果是我的话，我还是愿意把面子放下来，低声下气。而且我见过很多其他其他的朋友失去朋友，不管当时情况多么难受，不过后来都会觉得很可惜，尤其是当事情没清没楚。

A：事情会有转弯，如果主动的是他们。谢谢你愿意听，也分享了这么多。

我：不用谢谢我，我比较贪心一点，朋友不必多，但是知心的越多越好..哈哈！

PS: 好难遍哦....

有趣的双向思维论

最近（其实一直以来）都会徘徊在单课题多元思考的状况。在多种不同的思考中，选出一个可以让自己舒服好过而容易接受且不让自己压抑的想法来说服自己。至少，在劣势情况当下也要想出一个反方向，又可从劣势中好的方面，让自己平静一些。以下是一些经典的双思维论点，或者一些在某地方看见的双向思维比喻。

1. 这个世界上，是先有鸡蛋？还是先有小鸡？

2. 苹果，是烂了才有虫？还是有虫了才烂？

3. 是要先有激励才有表现，还是先有表现才有奖励？

4. 叶子的飘落，是清风的追求？还是树枝不挽留？

5. 大便的掉落，是马桶的追求？还是肛门不挽留？(Like x 1)

凡是如果有双向思维，生活不但轻松许多，而且做人也看开不少。

家

我回来了，我的家。
突然觉得这里像是我的家，心里的家

有人说，当你在外面困透了，就会家里吧
因为那里总可以让你有舒适的感觉
像这里一样

我的心没地方好去，没地方可以停留
但是有个家，总随时欢迎我回来
这里便有类似的感觉

原来在最紧绷的心情伪装若无其事，昂然无恙，镇定冷静
还蛮累的，蛮耗神的。

不过在纷扰中徘徊，心情迷失时
我回家了，我的心灵之家
J FM II

A Life of a Pen

About half a year ago I received a pen. Personally I'm not good taking care of pen. It would only takes me two week to "finish up" a pen. As if, hilang lar.. stolen lar.. left somewhere lar.. surprisingly this pen that I got survive up till today. As if I am having a very special feeling on it, funny, I was thinking perhaps this pen has survive through my record, may be I'll use it forever.

There was a time that the clicker spoilt. So I was thinking may be its not as lasting as I thought. Therefore I checked out where it was bought, and manage to repair it. On that moment, I really think this pen is really nice, especially my daily work do a lot of signing documents, I would probably need a comfortable pen to cob me during my work.

After it was like 5 months, since I have a new colleague that shared my job, many documents I do not sign anymore, and as seldom I need to use it, one day, I found out that the pen has already finish consuming its ink. I think, this pen has probably come to its end. Most likely it can be continued to be used, but it has only to buy a refill for it. May be the friend who gave me this pen would someday buy me the refill, a doubt and a trance of chances. However, I'm keeping this pen back to its box, and probably not going to use it, unless this friend bought me the refill. Asking too much huh.. ahhaa..

Dear friends and visitors, unfortunately this will be my last post at J FM II. Due to some personal reasons, I'll stop blogging in this page. No body knows if I will continue, but I'm deciding to stop here. If there was anything that damaged you or insulted you, I apologize because I seriously didnt meant it. Special thanks to all those regular visitors, Chong, Little Flower, April, Elims, ah soo, eli, gns js, gns cy and ah ju may be? I wont close up this blog and leave it for visiting purposes, if theres something you guys want to come back and glance through. Thats all for J FM II. Take care guys.

Lame Joke (World Cup Edition)

Last week planned by Lynn, we hooked up to Ivan's house for his 20th birthday and when he know I was in front of his gate he replied me,"WHAT THE F*CK???!!!"

Haha.. so it was like a wine session at nite and funny drunk Ivan was complaining about his next day will be travelling to Sungkai: "WTF is a hot spring over there... its just a hot spring rite..??" There I replied with its quite a nice place that I heard of where you can put a basket of eggs and boil while you're in it.

So there he goes whining his way to the kitchen where the uni friends are around the table drinking and said "TOMORO WE'RE GOING TO SUNGKAI HOT SPRING!!! TO BOIL EGGS!! BOIL OUR EGGS!!!" then the friends are laughing and there comes the inspiring world cup edition of lame jokes.

Me: Ivan do u know why the girls are the best goal keepers in the world?

Ivan: No... why?

Me: because ___________________________________

Do you guys know why?

迷宫

我是个称职的老师，因为我总是会给很多例子和比喻。所以在现实生活中，比喻和例子可以用来掩饰一些真相，且不透露真实的问题来找出另一番的观点。我和阿修的沟通，总充满了比喻和例子。

昨天我心烦了，想要逃开自己的问题，却无法脱离。所以找了阿修，给了他一个比喻。

我告诉他说，我非常厉害解迷宫，但是现在我陷入了一场迷宫，走了很久，都走不出来。不管怎样尝试，什么方法，都没能找到出口。总是兜了兜，兜了兜，来回都是同样的道路。来来回回都是末路。他回我说，要不你就不玩，要不你就习惯一下Deja Vu的东东。

我犹豫了他所说的Deja Vu的意义，因为那是个很大很大的字眼，没有预料到他会这么说。但是我回答他说，我已经在迷宫里了，但是我不玩了，要出来，我要出来，怎样才能让我出来？也出乎预料的：

修：习惯一下在迷宫里面就好，不用出来啦。
我：我必须走出来，真的很严重，不出这迷宫不行。一直在里边转，很疲累，我垮下来了，也崩溃了。
修：既然你走不出来，也没有出口，那为什么还浪费力气去争扎呢？不如在迷宫里找个伊甸？
我：迷宫里没有伊甸，我走遍了整个迷宫，一片漆黑，什么都没有。

对话就这样结束了。没有结论也没有方法让我走出来，仿佛自己在钻牛角尖。我不像是这类型人吧。毕竟理智成分还很高，只要不过午夜，就不会太感性...(某人说的吧)....

结果我停了下来，不再张望四周，不再找寻出口，这里反正也不会有伊甸，仿佛沙漠里没有绿洲。这是不是个迷宫？我望着自己留下的脚步和痕迹，已经是遍布整个周围。讨厌自己走了进来，走不出去，呼天不应，喊地不灵，听见的只有自己的回音，当时听见其他人的回声，也只是幻想。

而幻想，指的是它从来不曾存在，是潜意识给的假象，虚的，伪的。

对话

突然间想起和一名朋友的对话让我鸣了起来

我：如果有一天你再也找不到我，打电话不接，短讯也不回，我好像消失了，那你会怎样？
他：上网找你就好啦，反正你都会online的
我：.... 也对啦... 哈哈....

那是三个月前的对白吧。如果现在重问的话可能是....

我：如果有一天你再也找不到我，打电话不接，短讯也不回，我好像消失了，那你会怎样？
他：找不到就找不到啦，反正有没有你也没什么大不了...
我：.... 也对啦... 哈哈.....

有点冷吧.... 哈哈哈....

把疼爱都给你，把疼痛都给我

我沈默 不代表我不痛
我不痛 眼泪就不会流
总是安静承受 安静忍受
安静看你走

你说我 很适合当朋友
你说我 总是会听你说
你说别太难过 保持联络
有空的时候

想挽留 却为什麽点头
我不懂 连我都不懂我
如果说的太少 爱的太多
有谁能够懂

千言万语拥挤我的宇宙
让我震耳欲聋 喔喔
有多少爱 就有多少
沈默的疼痛

把疼爱都给你 把疼痛都给我
最痛是当时微笑送你走
等到你转身后 眼泪也不敢流
只怕你偶然还会回过头

把疼爱都给你 把疼痛都给我
放开手是我最后的温柔
如果你能飞得 快乐自由
这疼痛 并不算 什麽

突然...

突然觉得好累，原来持续一件事情是我不曾做过的愚蠢，竟然做了。
突然时间很慢，原来停顿时间不需要时光机，只要徘徊自己就行了。

突然觉得散漫，原来我一直以来的怠惰，其实只是个小巫遇见大巫。
突然觉得残酷，原来金钱存在的价值对我来说是一种很空幻的虚伪。

突然站了起来，原来躺着什么都不做，会让自己的手脚脑袋都麻痹。
突然双手伸展，才发现原来简单的姿势，可以有意料之外的破坏力。

突然联想不到，一条延伸而展的上曲线，可以没有下一个转弯地方。
突然感觉不到，活着的欲望所给予的冲击力已经探听不到我的下落。

突然梦中惊醒，为什么那么甜的梦，原来只是一个天马行空的虚幻。
突然梦中惊醒，手机原来没有短信，响的是潜意识里的娱乐魔法师。

突然心悸不快，如果我有血管阻塞，我想让他自然康复而不想治疗。
突然非常想你，其实并不突然，只是觉得你已经突然消失了，还是我突然的消失了？

新朋友

有时候要想部落格的题目真的是有点难，要想个比较贴切的题目往往比要编个华丽的故事更难，哎呀随便清拆一点，重要的还是内容嘛...哈哈！

话说某天我与一名新朋友交谈，我们就拿猜个性的话题来谈，如，“Jerry 是个怎样的人”。当然交谈很久，就那一段比较深刻的来与大家分享一下，看看在个别意见不同的地方，可否找到共识：

新朋友简称“友”，Jerry 简称“J”

友：你是个蛮坚持的人，对吧。一些事情不如你所愿的话，你就会很受影响。比如说，如果你有一些事情想做，就会很有计划。但是如果计划没在设定的目标达到的话，你就会很情绪化。

J：还好吧。我可以接受一些目标设定的delay。因为目标只是一个方向，往往在实行目标是会遇到很多障碍，然而延迟了自己的计划。那些我都很了解，而且不会应为这些而情绪化。

友：哦...但是你都会很有计划的啦，而且计划都会像很多。想太多了，以为你太会想，所以导致一些不必要的问题。本来一件事是很简单的，可以让你想的很多，好像很复杂，对吗？

J：（笑着点头...）

友：Jerry 我不懂，可能你会不会就是太坚持自己的某些意见或看法，然后除非是比自己更强的人告诉你其他的，你才会认同。要不，你一旦被人否定，就会很难过，或是说，你不回被人否定的。

J：当然。I mean 除非是我凭空想象出来的东西，那我就会听取别人的一些意见。要不然，如果是我很确定的见解或意见，我一定要看到别人证明给我看，你说的对，我说的是不对。很自然的。如果一些事情牵涉的自由你自己，你听不听我的，其实重要性没那么高。但是如果牵涉的不只你一个，是几方面的，那就要很慎重考虑我合理的意见。一些人，在遇到这些情况时，往往只考虑“想要的”，而不考虑“应该的”。原因大多数因为他们想的是为自己想要，而不是考虑到多方面应该的。想着类型的意见如果用来否定我，我不能接受。除非是你可以证明给我看，你所说的是对的，那我一定服。

友：对咯，你就是要比你强的人跟你说，你才服。

J：这不一定，只要证明就好了，证明不出的话，那就听我的。当然我想，世界上没有人被不合理的否定后，还可以不情绪吧。

友：世界上的人很多，不同的个性也很多，有些人就是不理不理，不管人家否定。

J：HAR? 有人可以接受不合理的否定吗？I mean 小事我不理你和不合理，你要怎样就怎样，否定我就否定啦，反正与我无太大关系，在你牵涉范围很小，那就随你。但是如果牵涉到我，或很多方面的involvement，我想我还是坚持合理的见解，如果要否定我的话，最好是以客观的角度去看待问题，而不应该总是以自己想要的为先，那就为之不合理。

简单但长编的剪辑一段与大家分享。我赞成，我想的的确不与全世界人相同。但是我联想的，是可能会发生的问题。在做某一些事情前都会想，种种会发生的后果，不是因为我谨慎。是因为我要给自己一种心理准备，无论发生什么事情，自己都可以反应的过来。而不是像现在这样，完全不知道如何反应问题。我否认我想的不多，但是还是无法准备自己在改变的速度，真的有点不合理。

这位新朋友让我很敬佩，因为在交谈中一开始我就认为他很柔很弱。可能是岗位的关系，所以导致他负能量太多了，本来我以为他会很慌，虽然我感觉到了他的慌，但是始终还是沉得住气。超棒的。

梦一场 - 萧敬腾 吉他和弦

点击放大， =)

如果这就是爱情 - 张靓颖

你做了选择 对的错的
我只能承认 心是痛的
怀疑你舍得 我被伤的那麽深
就放声哭了 何必再强忍

我没有选择 我不再完整
原来最后的吻 如此冰冷
你只能默认 我要被割舍
眼看著 你走了

如果这不是结局 如果我还爱你
如果我愿相信 你就是唯一
如果你听到这里 如果你依然放弃
那这就是爱情 我难以抗拒

如果这就是爱情 本来就不公平
你不需要讲理 我可以离去
如果我成全了你 如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清 是我证明 我爱你

灰色的天空 无法猜透
多余的眼泪 无法挽留
什麽都牵动 感觉真的好脆弱
被呵护的人 原来不是我

我不要你走 我不想放手
却又不能够奢求 同情的温柔
你可以自由 我愿意承受
把昨天 留给我

爱与不爱吉他和弦

超爱这首歌。忘记了一些时候写歌的人总是可以很一针见血的从歌曲里唱出韵味。黄威尔是本地著名的音乐人。Vocal 强，曲风虽然只是民歌摇滚，但演绎出的意境，远远胜出东于哲，毕竟东于哲只是个偶像。

吉他和弦部分用得很简单，是一般的歌曲都会重复的。最重要的是，弹奏者的韵味和心境，可以给效果很大的影响。

Verse 1
C Em7/B Am Am7/G
天天一起看海 脱离现实的存在
Fm7 C Dm G
我们牵手拥抱 填满了空白 很愉快

Verse 2
C Em7/B Am Am7/G
和你一起计划将来 做你最好的依赖
Fm7 C
但未来没有来 打算打不开
Dm G
沉默暗示你不想等待

Chorus
C
当爱与不爱一样让人心痛
Em7/B Am Am7/G
我们都无话可说
Fm7 C
有过多少快乐 就有多少痛
Dm G
都在揪着

C
当爱与不爱一样让人心痛
Em7 Am Am7/G
不要松开我的手
Fm7 C
故事走到最后 也许还没最后
Dm G C
不要带走 你的天空

Verse 3
爱情已被现实摔坏 痕迹都留不下来
我们像是小孩 现在才明白
眼泪诉说你想要离开

Repeat Chorus x 2

Lame Joke? The True Identity of God

One Day, in the Garden of Eden, Eve, called out to God, "Lord I have a problem"

"What's the problem?" God asked.

She replied, "I know you created me and gave me this beautiful garden and all these wonderful animals but I'm just not happy. THe reason is that I am lonely."

God replied, "Well here's what I'll do for you, I'll create a man"

Eve asked, "whats a man?"

"Man is a flawed creature with many bad traits. He'll lie, cheat, and be vain glorious. He'll be bigger than you, faster and will also like to hunt. But since you've been complaining, he'll be capable of comforting you and pleasing you. However, he'll revel in childish things like fighting, and kicking a ball about. He also wont be too smart so he'll need your help to think properly."

Eve then asked, "sounds like he's ok, but what's the catch?"

God repied, "As I said, he'll be proud, arrogant and vain. So you'll have to let him think that I made him first. Just remember, it'll be our little secret, woman to woman!"

Jerry says, after living for how many millions of year, some guys who read this article and find out laughing at themselves, how could a fool they'd be. That we thought that we are great, but wtf we're just a preplanned designated joke from the start. To all christian, quoted this article from some book. Seriously no offence.

Dialogues

#1.
A: saw the flash?
B: wow they really flash over to giv signal for speed trap.. so cooperative.. wat a 1 malaysia

#2.
A: wat time u slp?
B: im sleeping soon loh.. tomoro work...y leh? u pek cek?
A: i wan bath 1st, then i need some1 to chat wit..
B: like 12:30 am?
A: 1
B: ...

#3.
A: u know jerry... im controlling my voice already...
B: (gosh... im reading text u know....)

#4.
A: wher r u now?
B: im still at the bank, may b u all should start the lunch 1st.. everybody arrived?
A: everybody reached.. so many ppl.. but we r not going to start without u..
B: wtf.. u're kidding rite? im stil stuck in the bank..

#5.
A: u don tell me u.....
B: u think i no need eat?
A: need.. but no need to eat so much nia...
B: im not the keep fit type of person rite?
A: but u also not tht person who will find ur fren if the thing u can handle urself..

#6.
A: 我知道我只能够2选1，这两个根本不可能同时进行。
B: (have u ever really think of trying? i think its worth trying tho, but i guess u don wanna try picking up both.. sry for not telling u this.)

#7.
A: lol
B: hami tai ji?
A: return u free domm free dom free dom free dommm freee dooooommmmmmmmmmm!!!!!
B: free lan

#8.
A: actually wat is the gum going to do with the hip?
B: if the gum is in tht condition, u all must fix the gum 1st, bcos its life threatening

#9.
A: i put bz is bcos jia jia wan ma.. i don wan the msn pop up to disrupt the media player...sometimes im not bz wan...
B: haha me too lar... i also jia jia wan.... haha...

#10.
A: Wanna buy leh...
B: ya.. but expensive... dunno should buy o not...or u wan buy for me?
A: can... buy for u,, but if u buy urself, u will get it faster lo.. if i buy.. need to wait very long.. haha!
B: i wait lo since stil not so good to play tht kinda pedal yet..yeah got ppl wan buy for me liao.. yes!
A: after 3 to 5 yrs will get it as ur birthday present.. btw.. how much is it first?
B: u don wish to know de la.. tht model no produce anymore.. new model is Boss GT-10.. if u sure after 3-5yrs u will think to buy.. google it...

尼克斯君性格网站

性格分析

流浪者。9月24日出生的人是天生的流浪者，他们生性爱好旅行，或者说命中注定要去旅行。流浪或旅行，是他们生活中最真实的主题，但也可以幻化成精神和情绪层面的探险。

不要把“流浪”局限在表面的字义，阅读、思考、梦想和旅行等，各种躯体上和心理上的流浪，都足以引发这群流浪者高度的兴趣。

在这群人当中，有些是早年常流浪，日后却选择过着“从良”般的安定生活；有些则是到了中年时期才突然游兴大发，随时准备抛弃红尘，整装上路。然而绝大部份在今天出生的人，是永远都无法安定下来的。就算他们以为安定是他们所梦寐以求，还是会周而复始地更换新环境、新对象、新计画，并且自以为终于找到可以天长地久的东西。不过，有自知之明的人却也心里有数：对他们而言，并没有所谓真正的永恒。可是天知道！没过多久，他们又会开始寻寻觅觅了。

爱情运

今天出生的人，经常在寻找能够与自己性格产生互补作用的特殊人才，以及要完成自己理想不可或缺的伴侣。

他是一个认为世界是以恋爱为中心而回转的典型空想家，因此，常会被他人粗野的言行所伤害。过分要求对方要具备自己所欠缺的，或能完全符合自己标准的性格，往往会让自己不断重复体验失败的痛苦。其实，自己所期望他人所具有的性格，大多隐藏在自己的内心。所以，如果能不强求别人，而从自己内心深处去寻求的话，依赖他人来成就自己的情形，应该会自然而然的减少才对。有魅力的今天出生的人，若能将他最富魅力的地方充分发挥出来的话，就能够感受到最大的喜悦。今天出生的寿星，虽然想要长久维持富有变化的爱情生活，然而却缺乏安定的心情。如果想要维持像婚姻这种长期性关系的话，需要为能持续维持安定的情绪而努力。在这天出生的寿星，所拥有的亲切、魅力、喜好气派等优点，在安定的爱情生活中，可以发挥到极点。

金钱运

今天出生的寿星，物质欲望并不强，但对有关金钱方面的事，却是个十足的神秘主义者。

认为金钱是能用的时候就要充分的去使用它。对美丽的东西、喜欢的服饰品，或能够满足自己高尚奢好的花费，毫不吝惜。今天出生的人，对金钱的处理明朗而清白，最讨厌欺骗；同时非常厌烦自己的恋情与金钱扯上关系而被抹黑。因此，不会因为金钱的因素，去选择自己恋爱或结婚的对象，如果双方要分手，也不会要求金钱方面的代价。

事业运

在工作方面，经常与他人保持接触，对今天出生的人来说，是必要且不可少的；那是对自我的一种激励，更是迈向成功之路的起点。

今天出生的人，往往直到与工作的伙伴分开，不得不单独挑起工作进度的情况下，才会体认到自己缺乏判断及决定力，而因此感到挫折。所以，只有在与他人有密切合作关系时，才能将自己的优点发挥到最大的限度。今天的人若能充分展现其魅力以及外向的社交性才华，必能在管理人际关系上开花结果。除了外交性领域外，也适合从事法官、律师、交涉代理人、调解人员等工作由于本质有喜欢美与均衡的特质，所以室内装潢、服装表演、化妆品业界等行业，也是能够发挥实力的理想工作。此外，今天出生的人，若能把自己创造性或美的才华，运用在音乐、文字、戏剧、绘画等艺术领域的话，可以获得无限的满足。

健康运

今天出生的人在人生的不同阶段中，注定会遭到相当严重的心理困扰。

所以，最好能及早接受某种形式的治疗或咨询，以便寻获援助，洞悉自己不寻常的潜意识活动，并学习克服烦躁和过于活跃的幻想。冥想虽然有所帮助，但只适合在短期之内使用。与其依赖药物(绝对要远离酒精)，不如努力寻找更健康的生活方式，甚至仿效“孟母三迁”换个新环境。可从事园艺、种植菜蔬；同时改变饮食习惯，不要食用含防腐剂的食品，改吃新鲜的水果和蔬菜，都是健康之道。至于运动，适度即可，不要过量。

幸运数字

9月24日出生的人会受到数字6(2+4=6)和金星的影响。

今天出生的人特别具有“磁力”，容易受人爱慕，吸引爱情的到来；再加上金星与社交的密切关连，所以常常会禁不住诱惑而去尝试浪漫的经验。金星本来就是天秤座的主宰行星，他们会受到影响也就不足为奇。爱情通常会成为被数字6影响的人生活中的一大重心，对今天出生的人尤其如此。

适合你的恋爱对象：

1月27日2月4日4月2日4月24日5月5日7月3日7月12日8月20日8月29日9月30日10月20日11月28日

适合你的朋友对象：

1月20日1月26日4月5日5月4日5月8日6月7日7月7日8月1日


PS:我对他的个性分析80%赞同，未来的事我想听。但我必须澄清，我真的没有改编任何文章里面的内容！

给一名好友的一段文章

昨天试着很辛苦跟一名好友解释男女朋友之间的priority, 不知是让她误会了还是怎样，只希望我想表达的是让朋友了解，男生也会有依赖性，不是说成熟男人就不会，恰好Melvin哥在fb post了一段，就拷贝过来让大家参考一下:

如果，你有个男人在失意时，会躲在你怀里撒娇得像个孩子，他其实很爱你。无论他去了多远，有多成功，有时变得有点自大自我和不可理喻，但当他在外头不开心失意时，他马上就会掉头躲进你怀里。他其实并走不出你魔掌。
如果，你有个像这样的男人，其实你还真不赖。你需要的只是在他失意时，安慰他鼓励他，让他好好的在你怀里休息。在他很自大时，也不用跟他争吵，你心底下暗算他会从哪里跌下来扶他就好，让他跌得“舒服“点。就像你看着你学走路的孩子，难道你怕他跌而不让他学吗？
在他坏时，其实你也不用撇下他，冷眼看就好，看他去得了多远。你离开他，搞不好十年八年后，你遇回失去你后，还在原地惊慌失措的傻瓜。

男生也会想在拍拖的时候得到attention。 除非是情非得已，环境不容，要不情侣们，请把你们的Priorities设定好，另一半是排在那里，是很重要的。虽然本人没拍拖，但是不管男女，你们的另一半的地位在他们的心目中，是很备受在意的。虽然情人节已过多时，但是还是祝天下有情人终成眷属，天天都是情人节。=)

爱与不爱 - 黄威尔

Conversate With The Rain

Its raining heavily out of no where, I was wondering how could this huge rain came about. I decided to go to witness how heavy it was.

I squad down and pulled out a stick from the blue box. After it lits, I thought of giving my own sanity a bit way off, and talk to the rain.

Me: whats ur feeling everytime u do it?
Rain: very complicated...
Me: how's it like?
Rain: i feel im very satisfy when i pour everything out, at least i know tht make things better..
Me: aint thts very good? i mean u r doin things tht make u satisfy and happy..
Rain: but i had been doing this for long, some happy wit it, some not...
Me: huh?
Rain: u see, im a natural. everytime i pour myself onto earth, i enjoy it. i like seeing greens being flushed by me.. i help the trees grow.. i reduce the temperature of land.. and the feeling i like most is, i wash away a lot of problems.
Me: so wat is the problem u face then?
Rain: some times i do it all alone, there is no reply or return i could ever expect. but its ok.. but when i hear ppl whining on me.. i feel sad.. it could be better still that if i feel that im needed..
Me: wat happen actually?
Rain: they once need water, they need me the natural water.. but when they had the technology to gain their own water, they feel im extra, that im not needed anymore.. they wan me to leave?
Me: i wont wan that to happen tho.. i appreaciate u.. i like when it rains.. even tho im on the bike, even tho i hv sensitive nose.
Rain: thx, but when they need water, they gain from other source, when they wan cool temperature, they get air cond, when they need a splash, they get the pools.. i feel my contribution is no more...

It was a long conversation. But I only manage to get those out of it. I seriously do not know what happen to it but I love when it rains. I even love the songs called Kiss The Rain, both by Billie Myers and Yiruma's play. Too bad that situation has gone bad and out of expectation. Its always bad when things are seriously out of expectation. I suppose I shouldn't expect too.

Guess what.. it's my 100th post in J-FMII, almost forgot what this blog name is.

Defining The Cause of A Split

Human are very much funny where we always blind folded by something not true. And when its about time to have a change, where we know the relevant parties will not able to accept, we always tell lie. There's one most common lie we seen all day long is during the couples are about to break up or divorce, they do not trace problem back to the root cause, but they tracked the problem at the stage immediately before it happen. Example:

She: honey, can we stay home tonite rather than going out for that movie? i know u wanted to watch that movie so much but i had been bz for consecutive 3 days and im extremely exhausted.
He: alrite dear. its almost 11pm.. hv u taken ur dinner?
She: nah i'd lost my appetite working lotsa documents for tomorrow's meeting and i think its a good timing for me to slim down.
He: ok then, go get ur shower dear.. u really looked exhausted, i go get u a cup of milk instead.
She: thx honey..

After the wife went into the bath room, he heard an sms on the wife's handphone and picked up. The texts read as below:
"Great movie huh.. I think I agree with you, Pepper Pots are better than Natalie Rushman in that movie earlier.. and thanks for the dinner you had accompany me.. it has been a better dinner than yesterday nite.. miss u"

So there goes the wife came out from the shower....

He: so how's ur preparation for tomorrow's meeting?
She: ahh.. its alrite i jz managed to finished it jz now and at first time come back home..
He: i made u a cup of milk..
She: thx dear..
He: haha.. who do u think hotter in iron man 2? pepper pots or natalie rushman?
She: huh?
He: tot u had a discussion earlier with another guy..
She: U CHECKED ON ME??!!!!!
He: jz so happen, and wat kinda things you can hide from me?
She: DO U KNOW WAT IS MANNERS AND PRIVACY? SINCE U DON TRUST ME!!! I WAN A DIVORCE!!!

So we are investigating why would this lovely couple need a divorce:
1. Because the wife lied that she's busy but watching movie at the other round.
2. Because the wife went for dinner and movie with another guy.
Point 1 and 2 has been certified invalid, because there is point number 3:
3. The husband shows no respects on privacy by looking at the wife's SMS.

Judge it.

I'll Be There - Jackson 5

必需品和奢侈品

你们有多久没有考虑过必需品和奢侈品的定义吗？

必需品是非拥有不可而且重要，没有它就不能达成某目标的物体。最一般的例子如衣食住行。其他的例子有如以下：
我没有音乐不行，活不下去。那么音乐就变成了必需品。
陈先生是关键人物，没有了他，这个会议就开不成了。 陈先生就是必需品。
如果你从此离开我，我活着也没意义了。你就是必需品。

奢侈品是可有可无，在不必要的情况下，它是多余的。不需要多take care，不需要太多理会。如果有的话只是锦上添花，没有的话也没舍关系。举个例子，如果我没有电视，我就睡觉。那么电视其实就是一种奢侈品。其他例子如：
如果我没有脚踏车，我可以走路去上班。那脚踏车就是奢侈品。
没有床垫，我可以睡地板。床垫也算是奢侈品。
今天Jerry没来，但是我们还是可以进行讨论。Jerry 原来就是奢侈品。

有以上的举例来判，其实必需品和奢侈品是很主观的，因人而异的。人类的存在可以是必须，也可以是奢侈，想法很偏激吧。那么最绞尽脑汁的论题可以问的是，现在的你，是个必须？还是种奢侈？你拥有一些你要的必需品吗？你拥有太多的奢侈品吗？

Stay Strong

Its gonna be tough, tougher each and everyday.
I grab my knuckles and hold firm.
"Fight or Flight?" I repeatedly asked myself and there's no fail on answering "FIGHT IT!!!"
Some how or rather there's finally one thing I start to consider flighting away from it.
Glad that I'm so blessed with strength.
I dock up and look up, hanging with a pair of dimple on my cheeks.
"Yes I can! GO GO FIGHT IT!!!!"

Sometimes you just need a simple self motivation,
a little bit of ego, a little bit of subjective,
a bite of stick from my blue box,
a wet stacks of alcohols.
Its so good to empower yourself with esteem.


Suddenly feel so self centralized.. haha..





PS: i like the new media i added, sang by Olivia Ong...

Monkey Business

A man caught four monkeys from somewhere and put them into a special cage.

This cage has a banana hang on the ceiling of it, connected to a wired deviced, once the banana is pulled from top, the whole cage will be channeled with electric current and shock any living things inside.

Monkey #1 is the oldest. "Week week wakk wuk!!!" He expressed his seniority as telling others that "I'm the oldest, so I deserve the only banana in this cage!" So he hop below the banana and pulled."

"BZZZZZTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!"

All the monkeys jump shockingly yelling in pain due to the current that jabbed them.

Monkey #2, cannot believe this is happening. Challenging the monkey #1 did, pulled the same banana again and screamified all the monkeys inside the cage again, hopping all over the cage as the current jabbed them again. Repeated by monkey #3, the 3 monkeys has given up to get the banana.

Here comes monkey #4, while he attempted to pull the banana, all the other monkeys whacked monkey #4 as to stop it doing something that will hurt everybody. Poor monkey #4.

The owner then removed monkey #1, replaced by a new monkey, monkey #5. By the law of the nature, monkey #5 was very curious why would no monkeys getting the free banana? So while it approaches the banana, the other monkeys whacked it up, including monkey #4 who never ever touched the banana. Poor monkey #5 wallup without knowing any reasons.

Owner then removes monkey #2 again, replaced by monkey #6. Repeating what is monkey #5 was thinking, it approaches the banana, and bambooed by all other monkeys. This time monkey #5 was very heavy punched and bitten on monkey #6.

Owner removes monkey #3, replaced by monkey #7. When monkey #7 neared to the banana, the same incident repeated.

Now inside the cage, no monkey ever touched or pulled the banana. The owner off the power, replaced monkey #4 with monkey #8. Pathetically, this monkey #8 experienced the same tragic whack by all other monkeys while it tried to go near to the banana. Even though the power is off as no current will jab any monkey.

This cycle goes through for monkey #9. #10, #11, #12, etc... If you are the N-th monkey which smart enough to know that the power is off and entered this cage, what would you do?

等

可能就是一些人最不想听的字吧，点这首歌给PS哈哈...也点给其他在等的人，包括我在内.. （把音量调高，因为在youtube里找不到更大声的了...）

Its That Simple =)

Days ago were some how not understanding what happen on earth that everybody is telling lame jokes. But sometimes a lame joke that can make you laugh, are as simple as this......


I was driving the way back from Gordon aka SK aka momo's house on Saturday evening and the phone rang while I was almost in front of my gate, so I picked up and....

Jul: YES SIR!!!
Me: huh?
Jul: *giggling a bit*...
Me: hahaha?
Jul: *continue to giggle*....
Me: Hahahaha....(cant stop)
Jul: *while giggling* 你zomo笑??!!
Me: 我zem懂你哦..你先YES SIR! 然后就先笑的leh.... Hahahahhahaa...

*Both end up laughing none stop for bout 1min only continue conversation*...


Aint that simple? =)

爆笑的无聊冷笑话 - IT 篇..

话说今天的工作也包括了一些IT的工作，就因为Sek Q-lity的问题，我经过阿辉的同意把玫瑰和沙玛姐的Admin密码给换了。想了想，就把它换成"woohoo123"来应应节。借着阿辉就要我send email通知阿向和修修。Email send 完后，过一会儿修修就msn来鸟：

修：chotomate... ...*Please find the new Admin password set is woohoo123 , including the server*（从我的mail copy回出来给我看）
我：yes，已经换鸟，没得chotto....
修： nanee... 你的意思是现在server 密码也是 woohoo123??!!
我：yeah..zomo? 有semo事？remote access 有问题？不能咩？woohoo123 woh.....
修：pakayaro.... it's of course a problem... you should set to woohooyangwei, not woohoo123 la!!!!

今年都没有跟大家拜年，就跟大家拜个晚年吧，恭祝大家新年快乐，心想事成，身体健康，要乜有乜啊！ WOOHOOO!!!!! eh no no no... should be WOOHOOOYANGWEI!!!!!!

Now I know I'm...... hahaha...

Decided to drop this quick post before departuring to Ms Tan's house. Was snaking the whole day in the office with holiday mood chatting with a brada (cham... i dunno i should call her brada or sista..)... and it sounds like.....



(after a series of conversation...anyway, the dialogue below has been edited and using all the non-human names since there are certain sensitivity issue to mention the real names...)

Her: wahahhaa... i know u chatted with melon, i know... u know wat happen now? papaya keep calling and sms her now, and she didnt refuse!
Me: haha... like tht ma good lo!
Her: good meh?
Me: takkan u wan her forever close up herself?
Her: no lar, i don like her to be with papaya...
Me: erm... i dunno lar but izt a pian jian pr really papaya is not good leh?
Her: u think papaya good meh?
Me: i dunno lar i dunno the recent him ma long time no catch up oredi..
Her: ya la... but u dun think tht apple will very easy to bliv ppl meh? then papaya only tell her all the good things.... u know....
Me: erm... no matter how bad papaya is.. i don think he is tht type who will qi pian gan qing wan la....
Her: u know he go find her during thaipusam to pass her tongkat?
Me: oh u mean at the garden there?
Her: and he's gonna date apple out to meet farmer
Me: wait u let me think har...

(after another series of sensored conversation... too difficult to edit lar so i skip tht part...)

Her: all these while, papaya didnt show his maturity in my eyes lor...but u different woh....
Me: got terbalik o not? hahah... maturity in wat sense sin....
Her: u're experienced, and u care for ppl more...in every sense u're matured ah... but except tht u smoke la... haha...
Me: ya lor at least papaya don smoke ma....

(continue with series of conversation...)



Ok.. very poor editing I know but that's the best I could do since rushing to Ms Tan's house. Haha... Wow I tell you guys, I float until I hit the ceiling of my office you know..... Anyway, don care whether its true o not, I owe you a million of thanks my good brada... oops I mean... sista....

And yah, in case you all didnt get the meaning of this post, SOMEBODY IS SAYING I'M MATURED AND CARING OK!!!!! MATURED IN ALL SENSE!!!!!
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although i know im not la....

PS: don misunderstand, this brada.. oops i mean sista of mine has no special interest on me... she's getting married very very de soon anyway... =)

Definition of Smile

Smile,
A happy face expression using mouth, without producing voice.
Is that everytime the same?

Smile,
An expression of satisfaction.

Smile,
A sign of relax and recreating.

Smile,
I am not letting you to see my sorrow

Smile,
"Haiz..."

Smile,
"I'm alright"

Smile,
Please dont tell anybody

Smile,
I'm tired

Smile,
I really had enough of it

Smile,
I'm good looking and looking good

Smile,
Can you read what is mine?

Smile,
A curve that sets everything straight

星期六的Saturday Star

今天终于滚到了泳池里
想要游的泳那么久了

和喜欢游泳的感觉

我虽然不是游泳健将
也只懂得那两式
但游泳的感觉真的很舒服

爸爸在泳池里欺负孩子
从他的眼神看出，他很担心孩子的安危

情侣在池边打情骂俏
从他们的眼神看出，他们享受在一起的感觉

教练在大声喊叫学生
从他们的眼神看出，他们很想揍那些偷懒的人

喜欢在水里只需用脚尖
就可以弹跳超过1米

喜欢在水里被水包围
仿佛保护我被一切负能量影响

喜欢在池底踢游
感觉像（肥）海豚在摆动

游泳后我决定以点心为早餐
一直都想要很久了（又很久了）
皮蛋瘦肉粥，芋角是我的最爱
买了份Saturday Star
原来还是那么好看

其实，一个人的快乐
我已经学会很久了
就算从今以后我都是一个人
就算朋友都“绝种”了
就算世界上的人类都消失了
就算...
我还是可以很快乐的，真的很简单

三年

记得三年前的农历新年来得很迟，
那是我第一次工作后的新年，
打算着可以包一封大利是给爸妈。

那年发生了很多让人痛心的事，
我在种种艰辛的环境下走过了........

还记得那时候，晴她过来直到妈出殡了
出殡的当天下午，我送她到车站搭车回去
疲惫的躯体和精神让我不想说任何东西
如往常的，我告诉她到了就报平安。

那天午觉直到晚上，无法睡好
全身酸痛，精神劳累
我猜想她应该到家了，但并没有通电问她
在满心搅乱的情况下，电话就响了：
“公，你在睡觉吗？”
“嗯...妳到了吧？”
“我到了，冲了凉咯”
“嗯..."
“你还很累吗？”
“嗯..”
“好好...我很想跟你讲话，但是你很累，你去休息多点吧”
“ok...”

当时我真的很累，可能是脑袋累极了吧
没好好和她说多两句
通常如果我很累，不太爱说话
她都会发我脾气
但那时期，她没有
因为她明白事情的突然

现在我可以体会了解，当时我那么回应她
她是多么的痛，多么的伤心
虽然她了解我应该多休息
但是我真的应该让她知道我还是在乎她
转眼就三年了....

Be Strong

Hold up... hold on...
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone.

May your smile... Shine on...
Don't be scared
Your destiny may keep you warm.

Cause all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way

My deepest condonlence
Let the sorrow diminish through time
I know you can do it.

24.1.10 0140

- work blindly
- band practising for almots 5 days a week
- beer or liqour for almost 60% of 1 month.
- loy boy sang perfectly in the performance
- almost didnt sleep for 43 hour (still counting)
- had the greatest McD ever
- smiled happily from my heart after so long didnt do it
- being crazy
- being sensual
- being rational
- being ego
- being lazy
- played all the wrong chords
- worried for whole day and read something not delighting
- played less than 3 dota games in the week
- backache recurring
- disappointed Mr O
- pissed off with some new "PROJECT"
- pushed
- decided sometimes personal blog shouldnt update that often
- Sometimes when we touch - Dan Hill
- "ur head"
- :P
- wrong nicotine application and dosage
- "many things but no me"
- not servicing my CLK after near 6000km millage
- C902 got cracked
- my bike's rim is not round anymore
- klang heavy traffic jam
- thinking on ALL possibilities
- I want
- writting this boring post
- didnt watch soccer match for so long
- saw live nba broadcast in tv but not bother to watch
- said something meaningful
- said something constructive
- said something useless
- being forgetful
- didnt met up with eddie
- not yet return CY's shoe

- drunk with 1.5 cup of tiger

- penang trip with G
- prepenang trip with J
- etc

Welcome 2010, Goodbye 2009

New year should be brand new. Today is 1st of January 2010, the 1st page of 2010 calendar. Unexpectedly, I still unable to get myself a new resolution. If there is at least one, I hope that I can give my full support to the people I care, and by all means I'll do it.

Happy New Year