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这样的要求算不算太高

2011-09-18T14:07:00.002+08:00

有时后我觉得自己像一只小小鸟
想要飞，却怎么样也飞不高
也许有一天我栖上枝头却成为猎人的目标
我飞上了青天才发现自己从此无依无靠

每次到了夜深人静的时候我总是睡不着
我怀疑是不是只有我的明天没有变得更好
未来会怎样究竟有谁会知道
幸福是否只是一种传说我永远都找不到

我是一只小小鸟
想要飞呀飞，却飞也飞不高
我寻寻觅觅寻寻觅觅一个温暖的怀抱
这样的要求算不算太高

所有知道我的名字的人啊你们好不好
世界是如此的小我们注定无处可逃
当我尝尽人情冷暖当你决定为你了的理想燃烧
生活的压力与生命的尊严哪一个重要

我是一只小小鸟
想要飞呀飞，却飞也飞不高
我寻寻觅觅寻寻觅觅一个温暖的怀抱
这样的要求算不算太高

T-E-A-M

2011-05-10T17:18:00.004+08:00

The big two incident that a lot of people may had witnessed, keep flashing inside my brain.

First incident when the Lakers against the Mavs, game 3, Gasol had not put up a good-enough-chase to the 3-pointers, claimed and blamed by Uncle Phil, the so called Zen Masters. Seeing a scene that the Spanish power forward very unhappy with the blame and keep shaking his head off. Perhaps, the Zen did not realized that the person he has to deal with is namely Dirk Norwitzki, or Tyson Chandler who both well known as far range center and forward. How he supposed to take other 3-pointers in account?

Case two happened when Mr Chicharito scored his 36 seconds goal on rival match against the Blues, Itallian Coach of the Blues throw his furious on defender David Luiz on losing mark of the young striker, plus late recovery on the korean brilliant through pass that send Petr Cech stunned unmoved. Seeing Luiz denying by keep repeating "I'm not!!! I'm not!!!!"

Both soccer and basketball are my favourite sports. One I love to watch, two I love to play. Being inside the sports are extremely happy and inspiring since that will be where you find everybody in the team are so supportive. Well understanding the long definition of team that part of it including no prejudice, no blaming, and encourage each other, I found the satisfaction by doing those.

"Good try!!" - when your teammate made a 3-point shots hitting the back rim.
"Nice shot!!!" - when your striker hits a shots which hit the cross bar
"Dude.. get closer to number 9, try not to lose mark again, then we may have chance" - when your defender miss tackle the striker and give away goals.

or you prefer......

"don shoot like that can or not? you dont know how to see?"
"so poor shooting"
"why you let him pass through u?????"

Well one important thing I'd learn through team play, is to encourage each other for improvement, for next game? for cheering up your teammates. Things that team captains, leaders. managers and coaches can never do, is demoralizing your players and behave like blamers. Probably every true team players will know, when a team lost a game, every members bear the responsibility. If Phil Jackson was saying, "Pau, I need your extra efford than usual to cover-up those miss marked 3 pointers, besides Dirk and Chandler", or if Ancelloti was saying, "Luiz, you have to repay your mistake by doing your best shots for the remaining 89mins". Perhaps things could have change, Lakers are not swept 4-0, Chelsea may could have more morale to play on, and most importantly, team members are still in 1 complete piece.

When I heard "demoralizing, that is part of the game". I truly understand and noticed, not every team activities are like that. Its either may be I am too old for the new era of sports, or they are too immatured to be comprehensive or considerate. But I think I should still insist, demoralizing, is not part of the game, especially among teammates. What you need on improvement is encouraging, not demoralizing, spelling different a lot you know? =)

5th April 2011

2011-04-05T02:55:00.003+08:00

staying up 2:55 in the middle of the nite typing something in the blogspot? perhaps my heart isnt as old as i thought, u know like.. switching off the lights, leaving the sole bright-source coming out from the screen... tapping the keyboard typing somethings sensual or so... and unsleepable thinking about life and life and life..

ya we cannot agree more on guys most of the time think bout female and money only. but that cover ultra widing scope that actually screwing up ourselves in the shoe of giant big foot. can you imagine yourselves wearing a size 22 basketball gear or futsal boot running around the court like a moron that couldnt ask for more on teammates feeding you the ball? or to intercept the opponent's passing using that pair of shoes? please dont misinterpret, i'm not describing an overating scenario but describing an overwhelming of inappropriate authorities.

some days ahead a big change has gone up to my life where i had moved up a little by defining the "a little" where i am still underated in terms of cash.. things changes overdue.. life changes overdue.. time changes overdue.. i couldnt thank them more making me realize that so much clues that has been given to me has been neglected or taken too lightly. things like.. gotten myself into something that are not practical such as photography-wanna-be, upgrading my mobility, etc.

humping myself into a hour chaser really doesnt a good idea at all, craving myself to get new things in my life in the same time, defending all the way that the way i used to be. i kinda understand how successful some hall of famers are when they able to spend 24hours in their day a constructive one, where i beg for the hour to go slow that things has still not able to catch up with my accomplishment of my so called basic needs, but they are very much untrue.

i started to persuade myself giving up something that is less important to me, giving more priority to things that i should still hang on to.. things like choosing the right choice to do in the same time, listing out my TO-DO-LIST that i hardly practise due to my lack of consistency. sounds good huh? hold on to before you think on that, i am also thinking how to speedify things, (wow what a new term i created) where disobeying and challenging the needs of other people satisfying the larger group of people on their needs..

well crap, craps. its just a thought on making things easier for me. im not pesimist type of person, seriously. but i guess whatever i said earlier is probably a bunch of craps. haha.. funny me. gosh i miss mum. the way she cooked dinner is making a house a home for me.

桃花庵歌

2011-03-19T01:38:00.001+08:00

桃花坞里桃花庵，桃花庵下桃花仙；
桃花仙人种桃树，又摘桃花卖酒钱。

酒醒只在花前坐，酒醉换来花下眠；
半醒半醉日复日，花落花开年复年。

但愿老死花酒间，不愿鞠躬车马前；
车尘马足富者趣，酒盏花枝贫者缘。

若将富贵比贫贱，一在平地一在天；
若将贫贱比车马，他得驱驰我得闲。

别人笑我忒疯癫，我笑别人看不穿；
不见五陵豪杰墓，无花无酒锄做田。

友情无价

2010-11-17T11:06:00.002+08:00

可能话题有点敏感，所以以下的对话都修改了不少，而且名字都只是以代号显示..

我：抱歉，收迟了你的PM，也看见了你的fb status，知道你block了一些和我们之前的讨论相关的人。我真的认为没此必要，这不单是逃避问题，且还没把问题解决。还是你已经和他们谈了？然后还是不能接受？可能这样会失去珍贵的朋友吧，终究我不知道事情的细节。我担心会像你和阿S一样，多可惜啊，失去一些曾经对彼此有诚心的朋友。

A：不了，不能用"珍贵" 来形容他们了。某些事情让我彻底的失望。我也觉的和阿S当不成朋友很可惜。但今天我可以很肯定的跟你说，昨晚我毫不犹豫地block了一些人，其他的还蛮犹豫的。*sensored a stretch*。原来不是这样。他们还是觉得有事。很明显的他们不需要，也不珍惜我这个热心的朋友了。既然他们用行动来说明，我也用行动来支持。他们失去的是一直以来都很在乎他们的我。

我：可为什么不至少在做任何决定前，好好谈一谈呢？虽然有时候行动可以证明一些东西，不过不亲口证实，以你的个性，你会甘心吗？我质疑。可能你不是那些喜欢解释的人，不过如果当中有一些误解的话，而解释可以化误为解，何乐而不为？难道真的什么都没有尝试，就可以放弃所谓曾经的最好姐妹吗？真的想要你了解大家曾经有过的时候得来不易，那是不是可以由他们解释，然后再处理大家的误会？

老实说，你们一群已经是我参进去的时间少了又少了，所以对他们的了解很皮面，不足以讲评些什么。不过看见朋友失去朋友的现象，真的很令人伤心
考考虑，是不是应该大家谈谈，我相信“他”应该是有诚心的人，只是比较没有主见。朋友对我来讲，真的很重要...

A: 我不会主动再约大家了，去哪里的话等他们来约我，时间许可我还是可以和大家聚在一起。我不喜欢解释，因为再多的解释只会为阿S带来更多的伤害。

得来不易？这句说得好。但是这句话应该反问他们比较对。看看他们有什么看法。
甘心？之前我很不甘心，之前我心里一只怪责因为阿S的想不开，以至大家的友情产生变化。
我不甘心，为什么姐妹们只相信他们眼睛看到的？为什么没人来与我证实，没人来听我诉说？
我不应该当那个主动去解释的人。

够了，我自问对这段友谊尽了我最大的努力，现在是他们先放弃了我。朋友对我来说很重要。老套的一句话，朋友不必多，知心的一个就够。

我：可能是个人观点不同吧，你的方法并没错，我可以接受，只是这样的话，双方面都亏，总要有一方亏多一点，才可以把事情放大而理解。
可能你已经觉得自己已经做够了，再做下去真的过不了自己，那是可以理解的。毕竟每个人的限度跟方式都不同，没有absolute对错。不过如果是我的话，我还是愿意把面子放下来，低声下气。而且我见过很多其他其他的朋友失去朋友，不管当时情况多么难受，不过后来都会觉得很可惜，尤其是当事情没清没楚。

A：事情会有转弯，如果主动的是他们。谢谢你愿意听，也分享了这么多。

我：不用谢谢我，我比较贪心一点，朋友不必多，但是知心的越多越好..哈哈！

PS: 好难遍哦....

有趣的双向思维论

2010-11-11T00:23:00.002+08:00

最近（其实一直以来）都会徘徊在单课题多元思考的状况。在多种不同的思考中，选出一个可以让自己舒服好过而容易接受且不让自己压抑的想法来说服自己。至少，在劣势情况当下也要想出一个反方向，又可从劣势中好的方面，让自己平静一些。以下是一些经典的双思维论点，或者一些在某地方看见的双向思维比喻。

1. 这个世界上，是先有鸡蛋？还是先有小鸡？

2. 苹果，是烂了才有虫？还是有虫了才烂？

3. 是要先有激励才有表现，还是先有表现才有奖励？

4. 叶子的飘落，是清风的追求？还是树枝不挽留？

5. 大便的掉落，是马桶的追求？还是肛门不挽留？(Like x 1)

凡是如果有双向思维，生活不但轻松许多，而且做人也看开不少。

家

2010-10-06T01:17:00.002+08:00

我回来了，我的家。
突然觉得这里像是我的家，心里的家

有人说，当你在外面困透了，就会家里吧
因为那里总可以让你有舒适的感觉
像这里一样

我的心没地方好去，没地方可以停留
但是有个家，总随时欢迎我回来
这里便有类似的感觉

原来在最紧绷的心情伪装若无其事，昂然无恙，镇定冷静
还蛮累的，蛮耗神的。

不过在纷扰中徘徊，心情迷失时
我回家了，我的心灵之家
J FM II

A Life of a Pen

2010-06-28T20:49:00.004+08:00

About half a year ago I received a pen. Personally I'm not good taking care of pen. It would only takes me two week to "finish up" a pen. As if, hilang lar.. stolen lar.. left somewhere lar.. surprisingly this pen that I got survive up till today. As if I am having a very special feeling on it, funny, I was thinking perhaps this pen has survive through my record, may be I'll use it forever.

There was a time that the clicker spoilt. So I was thinking may be its not as lasting as I thought. Therefore I checked out where it was bought, and manage to repair it. On that moment, I really think this pen is really nice, especially my daily work do a lot of signing documents, I would probably need a comfortable pen to cob me during my work.

After it was like 5 months, since I have a new colleague that shared my job, many documents I do not sign anymore, and as seldom I need to use it, one day, I found out that the pen has already finish consuming its ink. I think, this pen has probably come to its end. Most likely it can be continued to be used, but it has only to buy a refill for it. May be the friend who gave me this pen would someday buy me the refill, a doubt and a trance of chances. However, I'm keeping this pen back to its box, and probably not going to use it, unless this friend bought me the refill. Asking too much huh.. ahhaa..

Dear friends and visitors, unfortunately this will be my last post at J FM II. Due to some personal reasons, I'll stop blogging in this page. No body knows if I will continue, but I'm deciding to stop here. If there was anything that damaged you or insulted you, I apologize because I seriously didnt meant it. Special thanks to all those regular visitors, Chong, Little Flower, April, Elims, ah soo, eli, gns js, gns cy and ah ju may be? I wont close up this blog and leave it for visiting purposes, if theres something you guys want to come back and glance through. Thats all for J FM II. Take care guys.

Lame Joke (World Cup Edition)

2010-06-25T18:50:00.002+08:00

Last week planned by Lynn, we hooked up to Ivan's house for his 20th birthday and when he know I was in front of his gate he replied me,"WHAT THE F*CK???!!!"

Haha.. so it was like a wine session at nite and funny drunk Ivan was complaining about his next day will be travelling to Sungkai: "WTF is a hot spring over there... its just a hot spring rite..??" There I replied with its quite a nice place that I heard of where you can put a basket of eggs and boil while you're in it.

So there he goes whining his way to the kitchen where the uni friends are around the table drinking and said "TOMORO WE'RE GOING TO SUNGKAI HOT SPRING!!! TO BOIL EGGS!! BOIL OUR EGGS!!!" then the friends are laughing and there comes the inspiring world cup edition of lame jokes.

Me: Ivan do u know why the girls are the best goal keepers in the world?

Ivan: No... why?

Me: because ___________________________________

Do you guys know why?

迷宫

2010-06-23T00:22:00.004+08:00

我是个称职的老师，因为我总是会给很多例子和比喻。所以在现实生活中，比喻和例子可以用来掩饰一些真相，且不透露真实的问题来找出另一番的观点。我和阿修的沟通，总充满了比喻和例子。

昨天我心烦了，想要逃开自己的问题，却无法脱离。所以找了阿修，给了他一个比喻。

我告诉他说，我非常厉害解迷宫，但是现在我陷入了一场迷宫，走了很久，都走不出来。不管怎样尝试，什么方法，都没能找到出口。总是兜了兜，兜了兜，来回都是同样的道路。来来回回都是末路。他回我说，要不你就不玩，要不你就习惯一下Deja Vu的东东。

我犹豫了他所说的Deja Vu的意义，因为那是个很大很大的字眼，没有预料到他会这么说。但是我回答他说，我已经在迷宫里了，但是我不玩了，要出来，我要出来，怎样才能让我出来？也出乎预料的：

修：习惯一下在迷宫里面就好，不用出来啦。
我：我必须走出来，真的很严重，不出这迷宫不行。一直在里边转，很疲累，我垮下来了，也崩溃了。
修：既然你走不出来，也没有出口，那为什么还浪费力气去争扎呢？不如在迷宫里找个伊甸？
我：迷宫里没有伊甸，我走遍了整个迷宫，一片漆黑，什么都没有。

对话就这样结束了。没有结论也没有方法让我走出来，仿佛自己在钻牛角尖。我不像是这类型人吧。毕竟理智成分还很高，只要不过午夜，就不会太感性...(某人说的吧)....

结果我停了下来，不再张望四周，不再找寻出口，这里反正也不会有伊甸，仿佛沙漠里没有绿洲。这是不是个迷宫？我望着自己留下的脚步和痕迹，已经是遍布整个周围。讨厌自己走了进来，走不出去，呼天不应，喊地不灵，听见的只有自己的回音，当时听见其他人的回声，也只是幻想。

而幻想，指的是它从来不曾存在，是潜意识给的假象，虚的，伪的。

对话

2010-06-21T20:45:00.002+08:00

突然间想起和一名朋友的对话让我鸣了起来

我：如果有一天你再也找不到我，打电话不接，短讯也不回，我好像消失了，那你会怎样？
他：上网找你就好啦，反正你都会online的
我：.... 也对啦... 哈哈....

那是三个月前的对白吧。如果现在重问的话可能是....

我：如果有一天你再也找不到我，打电话不接，短讯也不回，我好像消失了，那你会怎样？
他：找不到就找不到啦，反正有没有你也没什么大不了...
我：.... 也对啦... 哈哈.....

有点冷吧.... 哈哈哈....

把疼爱都给你，把疼痛都给我

2010-06-20T03:02:00.000+08:00

我沈默不代表我不痛
我不痛眼泪就不会流
总是安静承受安静忍受
安静看你走

你说我很适合当朋友
你说我总是会听你说
你说别太难过保持联络
有空的时候

想挽留却为什麽点头
我不懂连我都不懂我
如果说的太少爱的太多
有谁能够懂

千言万语拥挤我的宇宙
让我震耳欲聋喔喔
有多少爱就有多少
沈默的疼痛

把疼爱都给你把疼痛都给我
最痛是当时微笑送你走
等到你转身后眼泪也不敢流
只怕你偶然还会回过头

把疼爱都给你把疼痛都给我
放开手是我最后的温柔
如果你能飞得快乐自由
这疼痛并不算什麽

突然...

2010-06-17T01:11:00.003+08:00

突然觉得好累，原来持续一件事情是我不曾做过的愚蠢，竟然做了。
突然时间很慢，原来停顿时间不需要时光机，只要徘徊自己就行了。

突然觉得散漫，原来我一直以来的怠惰，其实只是个小巫遇见大巫。
突然觉得残酷，原来金钱存在的价值对我来说是一种很空幻的虚伪。

突然站了起来，原来躺着什么都不做，会让自己的手脚脑袋都麻痹。
突然双手伸展，才发现原来简单的姿势，可以有意料之外的破坏力。

突然联想不到，一条延伸而展的上曲线，可以没有下一个转弯地方。
突然感觉不到，活着的欲望所给予的冲击力已经探听不到我的下落。

突然梦中惊醒，为什么那么甜的梦，原来只是一个天马行空的虚幻。
突然梦中惊醒，手机原来没有短信，响的是潜意识里的娱乐魔法师。

突然心悸不快，如果我有血管阻塞，我想让他自然康复而不想治疗。
突然非常想你，其实并不突然，只是觉得你已经突然消失了，还是我突然的消失了？

新朋友

2010-06-13T11:13:00.006+08:00

有时候要想部落格的题目真的是有点难，要想个比较贴切的题目往往比要编个华丽的故事更难，哎呀随便清拆一点，重要的还是内容嘛...哈哈！

话说某天我与一名新朋友交谈，我们就拿猜个性的话题来谈，如，“Jerry 是个怎样的人”。当然交谈很久，就那一段比较深刻的来与大家分享一下，看看在个别意见不同的地方，可否找到共识：

新朋友简称“友”，Jerry 简称“J”

友：你是个蛮坚持的人，对吧。一些事情不如你所愿的话，你就会很受影响。比如说，如果你有一些事情想做，就会很有计划。但是如果计划没在设定的目标达到的话，你就会很情绪化。

J：还好吧。我可以接受一些目标设定的delay。因为目标只是一个方向，往往在实行目标是会遇到很多障碍，然而延迟了自己的计划。那些我都很了解，而且不会应为这些而情绪化。

友：哦...但是你都会很有计划的啦，而且计划都会像很多。想太多了，以为你太会想，所以导致一些不必要的问题。本来一件事是很简单的，可以让你想的很多，好像很复杂，对吗？

J：（笑着点头...）

友：Jerry 我不懂，可能你会不会就是太坚持自己的某些意见或看法，然后除非是比自己更强的人告诉你其他的，你才会认同。要不，你一旦被人否定，就会很难过，或是说，你不回被人否定的。

J：当然。I mean 除非是我凭空想象出来的东西，那我就会听取别人的一些意见。要不然，如果是我很确定的见解或意见，我一定要看到别人证明给我看，你说的对，我说的是不对。很自然的。如果一些事情牵涉的自由你自己，你听不听我的，其实重要性没那么高。但是如果牵涉的不只你一个，是几方面的，那就要很慎重考虑我合理的意见。一些人，在遇到这些情况时，往往只考虑“想要的”，而不考虑“应该的”。原因大多数因为他们想的是为自己想要，而不是考虑到多方面应该的。想着类型的意见如果用来否定我，我不能接受。除非是你可以证明给我看，你所说的是对的，那我一定服。

友：对咯，你就是要比你强的人跟你说，你才服。

J：这不一定，只要证明就好了，证明不出的话，那就听我的。当然我想，世界上没有人被不合理的否定后，还可以不情绪吧。

友：世界上的人很多，不同的个性也很多，有些人就是不理不理，不管人家否定。

J：HAR? 有人可以接受不合理的否定吗？I mean 小事我不理你和不合理，你要怎样就怎样，否定我就否定啦，反正与我无太大关系，在你牵涉范围很小，那就随你。但是如果牵涉到我，或很多方面的involvement，我想我还是坚持合理的见解，如果要否定我的话，最好是以客观的角度去看待问题，而不应该总是以自己想要的为先，那就为之不合理。

简单但长编的剪辑一段与大家分享。我赞成，我想的的确不与全世界人相同。但是我联想的，是可能会发生的问题。在做某一些事情前都会想，种种会发生的后果，不是因为我谨慎。是因为我要给自己一种心理准备，无论发生什么事情，自己都可以反应的过来。而不是像现在这样，完全不知道如何反应问题。我否认我想的不多，但是还是无法准备自己在改变的速度，真的有点不合理。

这位新朋友让我很敬佩，因为在交谈中一开始我就认为他很柔很弱。可能是岗位的关系，所以导致他负能量太多了，本来我以为他会很慌，虽然我感觉到了他的慌，但是始终还是沉得住气。超棒的。

梦一场 - 萧敬腾吉他和弦

2010-06-11T19:23:00.004+08:00

点击放大， =)

如果这就是爱情 - 张靓颖

2010-06-11T00:00:00.001+08:00

你做了选择对的错的
我只能承认心是痛的
怀疑你舍得我被伤的那麽深
就放声哭了何必再强忍

我没有选择我不再完整
原来最后的吻如此冰冷
你只能默认我要被割舍
眼看著你走了

如果这不是结局如果我还爱你
如果我愿相信你就是唯一
如果你听到这里如果你依然放弃
那这就是爱情我难以抗拒

如果这就是爱情本来就不公平
你不需要讲理我可以离去
如果我成全了你如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清是我证明我爱你

灰色的天空无法猜透
多余的眼泪无法挽留
什麽都牵动感觉真的好脆弱
被呵护的人原来不是我

我不要你走我不想放手
却又不能够奢求同情的温柔
你可以自由我愿意承受
把昨天留给我

爱与不爱吉他和弦

2010-06-05T13:31:00.004+08:00

超爱这首歌。忘记了一些时候写歌的人总是可以很一针见血的从歌曲里唱出韵味。黄威尔是本地著名的音乐人。Vocal 强，曲风虽然只是民歌摇滚，但演绎出的意境，远远胜出东于哲，毕竟东于哲只是个偶像。

吉他和弦部分用得很简单，是一般的歌曲都会重复的。最重要的是，弹奏者的韵味和心境，可以给效果很大的影响。

Verse 1
C Em7/B Am Am7/G
天天一起看海脱离现实的存在
Fm7 C Dm G
我们牵手拥抱填满了空白很愉快

Verse 2
C Em7/B Am Am7/G
和你一起计划将来做你最好的依赖
Fm7 C
但未来没有来打算打不开
Dm G
沉默暗示你不想等待

Chorus
C
当爱与不爱一样让人心痛
Em7/B Am Am7/G
我们都无话可说
Fm7 C
有过多少快乐就有多少痛
Dm G
都在揪着

C
当爱与不爱一样让人心痛
Em7 Am Am7/G
不要松开我的手
Fm7 C
故事走到最后也许还没最后
Dm G C
不要带走你的天空

Verse 3
爱情已被现实摔坏痕迹都留不下来
我们像是小孩现在才明白
眼泪诉说你想要离开

Repeat Chorus x 2

Lame Joke? The True Identity of God

2010-05-30T12:13:00.002+08:00

One Day, in the Garden of Eden, Eve, called out to God, "Lord I have a problem"

"What's the problem?" God asked.

She replied, "I know you created me and gave me this beautiful garden and all these wonderful animals but I'm just not happy. THe reason is that I am lonely."

God replied, "Well here's what I'll do for you, I'll create a man"

Eve asked, "whats a man?"

"Man is a flawed creature with many bad traits. He'll lie, cheat, and be vain glorious. He'll be bigger than you, faster and will also like to hunt. But since you've been complaining, he'll be capable of comforting you and pleasing you. However, he'll revel in childish things like fighting, and kicking a ball about. He also wont be too smart so he'll need your help to think properly."

Eve then asked, "sounds like he's ok, but what's the catch?"

God repied, "As I said, he'll be proud, arrogant and vain. So you'll have to let him think that I made him first. Just remember, it'll be our little secret, woman to woman!"

Jerry says, after living for how many millions of year, some guys who read this article and find out laughing at themselves, how could a fool they'd be. That we thought that we are great, but wtf we're just a preplanned designated joke from the start. To all christian, quoted this article from some book. Seriously no offence.

Dialogues

2010-05-26T20:27:00.004+08:00

#1.
A: saw the flash?
B: wow they really flash over to giv signal for speed trap.. so cooperative.. wat a 1 malaysia

#2.
A: wat time u slp?
B: im sleeping soon loh.. tomoro work...y leh? u pek cek?
A: i wan bath 1st, then i need some1 to chat wit..
B: like 12:30 am?
A: 1
B: ...

#3.
A: u know jerry... im controlling my voice already...
B: (gosh... im reading text u know....)

#4.
A: wher r u now?
B: im still at the bank, may b u all should start the lunch 1st.. everybody arrived?
A: everybody reached.. so many ppl.. but we r not going to start without u..
B: wtf.. u're kidding rite? im stil stuck in the bank..

#5.
A: u don tell me u.....
B: u think i no need eat?
A: need.. but no need to eat so much nia...
B: im not the keep fit type of person rite?
A: but u also not tht person who will find ur fren if the thing u can handle urself..

#6.
A: 我知道我只能够2选1，这两个根本不可能同时进行。
B: (have u ever really think of trying? i think its worth trying tho, but i guess u don wanna try picking up both.. sry for not telling u this.)

#7.
A: lol
B: hami tai ji?
A: return u free domm free dom free dom free dommm freee dooooommmmmmmmmmm!!!!!
B: free lan

#8.
A: actually wat is the gum going to do with the hip?
B: if the gum is in tht condition, u all must fix the gum 1st, bcos its life threatening

#9.
A: i put bz is bcos jia jia wan ma.. i don wan the msn pop up to disrupt the media player...sometimes im not bz wan...
B: haha me too lar... i also jia jia wan.... haha...

#10.
A: Wanna buy leh...
B: ya.. but expensive... dunno should buy o not...or u wan buy for me?
A: can... buy for u,, but if u buy urself, u will get it faster lo.. if i buy.. need to wait very long.. haha!
B: i wait lo since stil not so good to play tht kinda pedal yet..yeah got ppl wan buy for me liao.. yes!
A: after 3 to 5 yrs will get it as ur birthday present.. btw.. how much is it first?
B: u don wish to know de la.. tht model no produce anymore.. new model is Boss GT-10.. if u sure after 3-5yrs u will think to buy.. google it...

尼克斯君性格网站

2010-05-23T13:25:00.002+08:00

性格分析

流浪者。9月24日出生的人是天生的流浪者，他们生性爱好旅行，或者说命中注定要去旅行。流浪或旅行，是他们生活中最真实的主题，但也可以幻化成精神和情绪层面的探险。

不要把“流浪”局限在表面的字义，阅读、思考、梦想和旅行等，各种躯体上和心理上的流浪，都足以引发这群流浪者高度的兴趣。

在这群人当中，有些是早年常流浪，日后却选择过着“从良”般的安定生活；有些则是到了中年时期才突然游兴大发，随时准备抛弃红尘，整装上路。然而绝大部份在今天出生的人，是永远都无法安定下来的。就算他们以为安定是他们所梦寐以求，还是会周而复始地更换新环境、新对象、新计画，并且自以为终于找到可以天长地久的东西。不过，有自知之明的人却也心里有数：对他们而言，并没有所谓真正的永恒。可是天知道！没过多久，他们又会开始寻寻觅觅了。

爱情运

今天出生的人，经常在寻找能够与自己性格产生互补作用的特殊人才，以及要完成自己理想不可或缺的伴侣。

他是一个认为世界是以恋爱为中心而回转的典型空想家，因此，常会被他人粗野的言行所伤害。过分要求对方要具备自己所欠缺的，或能完全符合自己标准的性格，往往会让自己不断重复体验失败的痛苦。其实，自己所期望他人所具有的性格，大多隐藏在自己的内心。所以，如果能不强求别人，而从自己内心深处去寻求的话，依赖他人来成就自己的情形，应该会自然而然的减少才对。有魅力的今天出生的人，若能将他最富魅力的地方充分发挥出来的话，就能够感受到最大的喜悦。今天出生的寿星，虽然想要长久维持富有变化的爱情生活，然而却缺乏安定的心情。如果想要维持像婚姻这种长期性关系的话，需要为能持续维持安定的情绪而努力。在这天出生的寿星，所拥有的亲切、魅力、喜好气派等优点，在安定的爱情生活中，可以发挥到极点。

金钱运

今天出生的寿星，物质欲望并不强，但对有关金钱方面的事，却是个十足的神秘主义者。

认为金钱是能用的时候就要充分的去使用它。对美丽的东西、喜欢的服饰品，或能够满足自己高尚奢好的花费，毫不吝惜。今天出生的人，对金钱的处理明朗而清白，最讨厌欺骗；同时非常厌烦自己的恋情与金钱扯上关系而被抹黑。因此，不会因为金钱的因素，去选择自己恋爱或结婚的对象，如果双方要分手，也不会要求金钱方面的代价。

事业运

在工作方面，经常与他人保持接触，对今天出生的人来说，是必要且不可少的；那是对自我的一种激励，更是迈向成功之路的起点。

今天出生的人，往往直到与工作的伙伴分开，不得不单独挑起工作进度的情况下，才会体认到自己缺乏判断及决定力，而因此感到挫折。所以，只有在与他人有密切合作关系时，才能将自己的优点发挥到最大的限度。今天的人若能充分展现其魅力以及外向的社交性才华，必能在管理人际关系上开花结果。除了外交性领域外，也适合从事法官、律师、交涉代理人、调解人员等工作由于本质有喜欢美与均衡的特质，所以室内装潢、服装表演、化妆品业界等行业，也是能够发挥实力的理想工作。此外，今天出生的人，若能把自己创造性或美的才华，运用在音乐、文字、戏剧、绘画等艺术领域的话，可以获得无限的满足。

健康运

今天出生的人在人生的不同阶段中，注定会遭到相当严重的心理困扰。

所以，最好能及早接受某种形式的治疗或咨询，以便寻获援助，洞悉自己不寻常的潜意识活动，并学习克服烦躁和过于活跃的幻想。冥想虽然有所帮助，但只适合在短期之内使用。与其依赖药物(绝对要远离酒精)，不如努力寻找更健康的生活方式，甚至仿效“孟母三迁”换个新环境。可从事园艺、种植菜蔬；同时改变饮食习惯，不要食用含防腐剂的食品，改吃新鲜的水果和蔬菜，都是健康之道。至于运动，适度即可，不要过量。

幸运数字

9月24日出生的人会受到数字6(2+4=6)和金星的影响。

今天出生的人特别具有“磁力”，容易受人爱慕，吸引爱情的到来；再加上金星与社交的密切关连，所以常常会禁不住诱惑而去尝试浪漫的经验。金星本来就是天秤座的主宰行星，他们会受到影响也就不足为奇。爱情通常会成为被数字6影响的人生活中的一大重心，对今天出生的人尤其如此。

适合你的恋爱对象：

1月27日2月4日4月2日4月24日5月5日7月3日7月12日8月20日8月29日9月30日10月20日11月28日

适合你的朋友对象：

1月20日1月26日4月5日5月4日5月8日6月7日7月7日8月1日

PS:我对他的个性分析80%赞同，未来的事我想听。但我必须澄清，我真的没有改编任何文章里面的内容！

给一名好友的一段文章

2010-05-22T20:31:00.003+08:00

昨天试着很辛苦跟一名好友解释男女朋友之间的priority, 不知是让她误会了还是怎样，只希望我想表达的是让朋友了解，男生也会有依赖性，不是说成熟男人就不会，恰好Melvin哥在fb post了一段，就拷贝过来让大家参考一下:

如果，你有个男人在失意时，会躲在你怀里撒娇得像个孩子，他其实很爱你。无论他去了多远，有多成功，有时变得有点自大自我和不可理喻，但当他在外头不开心失意时，他马上就会掉头躲进你怀里。他其实并走不出你魔掌。
如果，你有个像这样的男人，其实你还真不赖。你需要的只是在他失意时，安慰他鼓励他，让他好好的在你怀里休息。在他很自大时，也不用跟他争吵，你心底下暗算他会从哪里跌下来扶他就好，让他跌得“舒服“点。就像你看着你学走路的孩子，难道你怕他跌而不让他学吗？
在他坏时，其实你也不用撇下他，冷眼看就好，看他去得了多远。你离开他，搞不好十年八年后，你遇回失去你后，还在原地惊慌失措的傻瓜。

男生也会想在拍拖的时候得到attention。除非是情非得已，环境不容，要不情侣们，请把你们的Priorities设定好，另一半是排在那里，是很重要的。虽然本人没拍拖，但是不管男女，你们的另一半的地位在他们的心目中，是很备受在意的。虽然情人节已过多时，但是还是祝天下有情人终成眷属，天天都是情人节。=)

爱与不爱 - 黄威尔

2010-05-19T22:54:00.001+08:00

Conversate With The Rain

2010-05-18T20:10:00.002+08:00

Its raining heavily out of no where, I was wondering how could this huge rain came about. I decided to go to witness how heavy it was.

I squad down and pulled out a stick from the blue box. After it lits, I thought of giving my own sanity a bit way off, and talk to the rain.

Me: whats ur feeling everytime u do it?
Rain: very complicated...
Me: how's it like?
Rain: i feel im very satisfy when i pour everything out, at least i know tht make things better..
Me: aint thts very good? i mean u r doin things tht make u satisfy and happy..
Rain: but i had been doing this for long, some happy wit it, some not...
Me: huh?
Rain: u see, im a natural. everytime i pour myself onto earth, i enjoy it. i like seeing greens being flushed by me.. i help the trees grow.. i reduce the temperature of land.. and the feeling i like most is, i wash away a lot of problems.
Me: so wat is the problem u face then?
Rain: some times i do it all alone, there is no reply or return i could ever expect. but its ok.. but when i hear ppl whining on me.. i feel sad.. it could be better still that if i feel that im needed..
Me: wat happen actually?
Rain: they once need water, they need me the natural water.. but when they had the technology to gain their own water, they feel im extra, that im not needed anymore.. they wan me to leave?
Me: i wont wan that to happen tho.. i appreaciate u.. i like when it rains.. even tho im on the bike, even tho i hv sensitive nose.
Rain: thx, but when they need water, they gain from other source, when they wan cool temperature, they get air cond, when they need a splash, they get the pools.. i feel my contribution is no more...

It was a long conversation. But I only manage to get those out of it. I seriously do not know what happen to it but I love when it rains. I even love the songs called Kiss The Rain, both by Billie Myers and Yiruma's play. Too bad that situation has gone bad and out of expectation. Its always bad when things are seriously out of expectation. I suppose I shouldn't expect too.

Guess what.. it's my 100th post in J-FMII, almost forgot what this blog name is.

Defining The Cause of A Split

2010-05-02T11:10:00.003+08:00

Human are very much funny where we always blind folded by something not true. And when its about time to have a change, where we know the relevant parties will not able to accept, we always tell lie. There's one most common lie we seen all day long is during the couples are about to break up or divorce, they do not trace problem back to the root cause, but they tracked the problem at the stage immediately before it happen. Example:

She: honey, can we stay home tonite rather than going out for that movie? i know u wanted to watch that movie so much but i had been bz for consecutive 3 days and im extremely exhausted.
He: alrite dear. its almost 11pm.. hv u taken ur dinner?
She: nah i'd lost my appetite working lotsa documents for tomorrow's meeting and i think its a good timing for me to slim down.
He: ok then, go get ur shower dear.. u really looked exhausted, i go get u a cup of milk instead.
She: thx honey..

After the wife went into the bath room, he heard an sms on the wife's handphone and picked up. The texts read as below:
"Great movie huh.. I think I agree with you, Pepper Pots are better than Natalie Rushman in that movie earlier.. and thanks for the dinner you had accompany me.. it has been a better dinner than yesterday nite.. miss u"

So there goes the wife came out from the shower....

He: so how's ur preparation for tomorrow's meeting?
She: ahh.. its alrite i jz managed to finished it jz now and at first time come back home..
He: i made u a cup of milk..
She: thx dear..
He: haha.. who do u think hotter in iron man 2? pepper pots or natalie rushman?
She: huh?
He: tot u had a discussion earlier with another guy..
She: U CHECKED ON ME??!!!!!
He: jz so happen, and wat kinda things you can hide from me?
She: DO U KNOW WAT IS MANNERS AND PRIVACY? SINCE U DON TRUST ME!!! I WAN A DIVORCE!!!

So we are investigating why would this lovely couple need a divorce:
1. Because the wife lied that she's busy but watching movie at the other round.
2. Because the wife went for dinner and movie with another guy.
Point 1 and 2 has been certified invalid, because there is point number 3:
3. The husband shows no respects on privacy by looking at the wife's SMS.

Judge it.

I'll Be There - Jackson 5

2010-05-01T19:03:00.002+08:00

必需品和奢侈品

2010-04-29T00:56:00.006+08:00

你们有多久没有考虑过必需品和奢侈品的定义吗？

必需品是非拥有不可而且重要，没有它就不能达成某目标的物体。最一般的例子如衣食住行。其他的例子有如以下：
我没有音乐不行，活不下去。那么音乐就变成了必需品。
陈先生是关键人物，没有了他，这个会议就开不成了。 陈先生就是必需品。
如果你从此离开我，我活着也没意义了。你就是必需品。

奢侈品是可有可无，在不必要的情况下，它是多余的。不需要多take care，不需要太多理会。如果有的话只是锦上添花，没有的话也没舍关系。举个例子，如果我没有电视，我就睡觉。那么电视其实就是一种奢侈品。其他例子如：
如果我没有脚踏车，我可以走路去上班。那脚踏车就是奢侈品。
没有床垫，我可以睡地板。床垫也算是奢侈品。
今天Jerry没来，但是我们还是可以进行讨论。Jerry 原来就是奢侈品。

有以上的举例来判，其实必需品和奢侈品是很主观的，因人而异的。人类的存在可以是必须，也可以是奢侈，想法很偏激吧。那么最绞尽脑汁的论题可以问的是，现在的你，是个必须？还是种奢侈？你拥有一些你要的必需品吗？你拥有太多的奢侈品吗？

Stay Strong

2010-04-23T21:17:00.003+08:00

Its gonna be tough, tougher each and everyday.
I grab my knuckles and hold firm.
"Fight or Flight?" I repeatedly asked myself and there's no fail on answering "FIGHT IT!!!"
Some how or rather there's finally one thing I start to consider flighting away from it.
Glad that I'm so blessed with strength.
I dock up and look up, hanging with a pair of dimple on my cheeks.
"Yes I can! GO GO FIGHT IT!!!!"

Sometimes you just need a simple self motivation,
a little bit of ego, a little bit of subjective,
a bite of stick from my blue box,
a wet stacks of alcohols.
Its so good to empower yourself with esteem.

Suddenly feel so self centralized.. haha..

PS: i like the new media i added, sang by Olivia Ong...

Monkey Business

2010-04-19T20:40:00.003+08:00

A man caught four monkeys from somewhere and put them into a special cage.

This cage has a banana hang on the ceiling of it, connected to a wired deviced, once the banana is pulled from top, the whole cage will be channeled with electric current and shock any living things inside.

Monkey #1 is the oldest. "Week week wakk wuk!!!" He expressed his seniority as telling others that "I'm the oldest, so I deserve the only banana in this cage!" So he hop below the banana and pulled."

"BZZZZZTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!"

All the monkeys jump shockingly yelling in pain due to the current that jabbed them.

Monkey #2, cannot believe this is happening. Challenging the monkey #1 did, pulled the same banana again and screamified all the monkeys inside the cage again, hopping all over the cage as the current jabbed them again. Repeated by monkey #3, the 3 monkeys has given up to get the banana.

Here comes monkey #4, while he attempted to pull the banana, all the other monkeys whacked monkey #4 as to stop it doing something that will hurt everybody. Poor monkey #4.

The owner then removed monkey #1, replaced by a new monkey, monkey #5. By the law of the nature, monkey #5 was very curious why would no monkeys getting the free banana? So while it approaches the banana, the other monkeys whacked it up, including monkey #4 who never ever touched the banana. Poor monkey #5 wallup without knowing any reasons.

Owner then removes monkey #2 again, replaced by monkey #6. Repeating what is monkey #5 was thinking, it approaches the banana, and bambooed by all other monkeys. This time monkey #5 was very heavy punched and bitten on monkey #6.

Owner removes monkey #3, replaced by monkey #7. When monkey #7 neared to the banana, the same incident repeated.

Now inside the cage, no monkey ever touched or pulled the banana. The owner off the power, replaced monkey #4 with monkey #8. Pathetically, this monkey #8 experienced the same tragic whack by all other monkeys while it tried to go near to the banana. Even though the power is off as no current will jab any monkey.

This cycle goes through for monkey #9. #10, #11, #12, etc... If you are the N-th monkey which smart enough to know that the power is off and entered this cage, what would you do?

等

2010-03-20T12:45:00.003+08:00

可能就是一些人最不想听的字吧，点这首歌给PS哈哈...也点给其他在等的人，包括我在内.. （把音量调高，因为在youtube里找不到更大声的了...）

Its That Simple =)

2010-03-08T21:32:00.004+08:00

Days ago were some how not understanding what happen on earth that everybody is telling lame jokes. But sometimes a lame joke that can make you laugh, are as simple as this......

I was driving the way back from Gordon aka SK aka momo's house on Saturday evening and the phone rang while I was almost in front of my gate, so I picked up and....

Jul: YES SIR!!!
Me: huh?
Jul: *giggling a bit*...
Me: hahaha?
Jul: *continue to giggle*....
Me: Hahahaha....(cant stop)
Jul: *while giggling* 你zomo笑??!!
Me: 我zem懂你哦..你先YES SIR! 然后就先笑的leh.... Hahahahhahaa...

*Both end up laughing none stop for bout 1min only continue conversation*...

Aint that simple? =)

爆笑的无聊冷笑话 - IT 篇..

2010-02-25T01:20:00.003+08:00

话说今天的工作也包括了一些IT的工作，就因为Sek Q-lity的问题，我经过阿辉的同意把玫瑰和沙玛姐的Admin密码给换了。想了想，就把它换成"woohoo123"来应应节。借着阿辉就要我send email通知阿向和修修。Email send 完后，过一会儿修修就msn来鸟：

修：chotomate... ...*Please find the new Admin password set is woohoo123 , including the server*（从我的mail copy回出来给我看）
我：yes，已经换鸟，没得chotto....
修： nanee... 你的意思是现在server 密码也是 woohoo123??!!
我：yeah..zomo? 有semo事？remote access 有问题？不能咩？woohoo123 woh.....
修：pakayaro.... it's of course a problem... you should set to woohooyangwei, not woohoo123 la!!!!

今年都没有跟大家拜年，就跟大家拜个晚年吧，恭祝大家新年快乐，心想事成，身体健康，要乜有乜啊！ WOOHOOO!!!!! eh no no no... should be WOOHOOOYANGWEI!!!!!!

Now I know I'm...... hahaha...

2010-02-19T18:02:00.007+08:00

Decided to drop this quick post before departuring to Ms Tan's house. Was snaking the whole day in the office with holiday mood chatting with a brada (cham... i dunno i should call her brada or sista..)... and it sounds like.....

(after a series of conversation...anyway, the dialogue below has been edited and using all the non-human names since there are certain sensitivity issue to mention the real names...)

Her: wahahhaa... i know u chatted with melon, i know... u know wat happen now? papaya keep calling and sms her now, and she didnt refuse!
Me: haha... like tht ma good lo!
Her: good meh?
Me: takkan u wan her forever close up herself?
Her: no lar, i don like her to be with papaya...
Me: erm... i dunno lar but izt a pian jian pr really papaya is not good leh?
Her: u think papaya good meh?
Me: i dunno lar i dunno the recent him ma long time no catch up oredi..
Her: ya la... but u dun think tht apple will very easy to bliv ppl meh? then papaya only tell her all the good things.... u know....
Me: erm... no matter how bad papaya is.. i don think he is tht type who will qi pian gan qing wan la....
Her: u know he go find her during thaipusam to pass her tongkat?
Me: oh u mean at the garden there?
Her: and he's gonna date apple out to meet farmer
Me: wait u let me think har...

(after another series of sensored conversation... too difficult to edit lar so i skip tht part...)

Her: all these while, papaya didnt show his maturity in my eyes lor...but u different woh....
Me: got terbalik o not? hahah... maturity in wat sense sin....
Her: u're experienced, and u care for ppl more...in every sense u're matured ah... but except tht u smoke la... haha...
Me: ya lor at least papaya don smoke ma....

(continue with series of conversation...)

Ok.. very poor editing I know but that's the best I could do since rushing to Ms Tan's house. Haha... Wow I tell you guys, I float until I hit the ceiling of my office you know..... Anyway, don care whether its true o not, I owe you a million of thanks my good brada... oops I mean... sista....

And yah, in case you all didnt get the meaning of this post, SOMEBODY IS SAYING I'M MATURED AND CARING OK!!!!! MATURED IN ALL SENSE!!!!!
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although i know im not la....

PS: don misunderstand, this brada.. oops i mean sista of mine has no special interest on me... she's getting married very very de soon anyway... =)

Definition of Smile

2010-02-08T21:43:00.002+08:00

Smile,
A happy face expression using mouth, without producing voice.
Is that everytime the same?

Smile,
An expression of satisfaction.

Smile,
A sign of relax and recreating.

Smile,
I am not letting you to see my sorrow

Smile,
"Haiz..."

Smile,
"I'm alright"

Smile,
Please dont tell anybody

Smile,
I'm tired

Smile,
I really had enough of it

Smile,
I'm good looking and looking good

Smile,
Can you read what is mine?

Smile,
A curve that sets everything straight

星期六的Saturday Star

2010-02-06T16:25:00.005+08:00

今天终于滚到了泳池里
想要游的泳那么久了

和喜欢游泳的感觉

我虽然不是游泳健将
也只懂得那两式
但游泳的感觉真的很舒服

爸爸在泳池里欺负孩子
从他的眼神看出，他很担心孩子的安危

情侣在池边打情骂俏
从他们的眼神看出，他们享受在一起的感觉

教练在大声喊叫学生
从他们的眼神看出，他们很想揍那些偷懒的人

喜欢在水里只需用脚尖
就可以弹跳超过1米

喜欢在水里被水包围
仿佛保护我被一切负能量影响

喜欢在池底踢游
感觉像（肥）海豚在摆动

游泳后我决定以点心为早餐
一直都想要很久了（又很久了）
皮蛋瘦肉粥，芋角是我的最爱
买了份Saturday Star
原来还是那么好看

其实，一个人的快乐
我已经学会很久了
就算从今以后我都是一个人
就算朋友都“绝种”了
就算世界上的人类都消失了
就算...
我还是可以很快乐的，真的很简单

三年

2010-02-04T19:11:00.004+08:00

记得三年前的农历新年来得很迟，
那是我第一次工作后的新年，
打算着可以包一封大利是给爸妈。

那年发生了很多让人痛心的事，
我在种种艰辛的环境下走过了........

还记得那时候，晴她过来直到妈出殡了
出殡的当天下午，我送她到车站搭车回去
疲惫的躯体和精神让我不想说任何东西
如往常的，我告诉她到了就报平安。

那天午觉直到晚上，无法睡好
全身酸痛，精神劳累
我猜想她应该到家了，但并没有通电问她
在满心搅乱的情况下，电话就响了：
“公，你在睡觉吗？”
“嗯...妳到了吧？”
“我到了，冲了凉咯”
“嗯..."
“你还很累吗？”
“嗯..”
“好好...我很想跟你讲话，但是你很累，你去休息多点吧”
“ok...”

当时我真的很累，可能是脑袋累极了吧
没好好和她说多两句
通常如果我很累，不太爱说话
她都会发我脾气
但那时期，她没有
因为她明白事情的突然

现在我可以体会了解，当时我那么回应她
她是多么的痛，多么的伤心
虽然她了解我应该多休息
但是我真的应该让她知道我还是在乎她
转眼就三年了....

Be Strong

2010-02-01T21:48:00.003+08:00

Hold up... hold on...
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone.

May your smile... Shine on...
Don't be scared
Your destiny may keep you warm.

Cause all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way

My deepest condonlence
Let the sorrow diminish through time
I know you can do it.

24.1.10 0140

2010-01-24T01:23:00.003+08:00

- work blindly
- band practising for almots 5 days a week
- beer or liqour for almost 60% of 1 month.
- loy boy sang perfectly in the performance
- almost didnt sleep for 43 hour (still counting)
- had the greatest McD ever
- smiled happily from my heart after so long didnt do it
- being crazy
- being sensual
- being rational
- being ego
- being lazy
- played all the wrong chords
- worried for whole day and read something not delighting
- played less than 3 dota games in the week
- backache recurring
- disappointed Mr O
- pissed off with some new "PROJECT"
- pushed
- decided sometimes personal blog shouldnt update that often
- Sometimes when we touch - Dan Hill
- "ur head"
- :P
- wrong nicotine application and dosage
- "many things but no me"
- not servicing my CLK after near 6000km millage
- C902 got cracked
- my bike's rim is not round anymore
- klang heavy traffic jam
- thinking on ALL possibilities
- I want
- writting this boring post
- didnt watch soccer match for so long
- saw live nba broadcast in tv but not bother to watch
- said something meaningful
- said something constructive
- said something useless
- being forgetful
- didnt met up with eddie
- not yet return CY's shoe

- drunk with 1.5 cup of tiger

- penang trip with G
- prepenang trip with J
- etc

Welcome 2010, Goodbye 2009

2010-01-01T02:37:00.002+08:00

New year should be brand new. Today is 1st of January 2010, the 1st page of 2010 calendar. Unexpectedly, I still unable to get myself a new resolution. If there is at least one, I hope that I can give my full support to the people I care, and by all means I'll do it.

Happy New Year

My Early Christmas Carol

2009-12-24T11:47:00.001+08:00

Sometimes When We Touch - Dan Hill

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Merry Christmas

2009-12-24T11:37:00.001+08:00

失落沙洲和弦简谱

2009-12-18T11:11:00.002+08:00

哇！第一次post酱的东西，好像有点怪怪..哈哈，但是一直找不到这首歌的弦谱，所以就随便乱抓..大概也没有很多浏览这里的人欣赏吧，就当作是给自己浏览的post吧..

这首歌由木吉他弹奏的话，本人是比较喜欢 T23-1-23-1-2-1 在主歌，副歌方面就要随性，通常这种指法的东西都是看当时的心情得啦hor..哎呀清拆啦反正第一次，如果有semo不很专业人家也不理啦！来来，看和弦看和弦...

G Bm Em Bm
又来到这个港口没有原因的拘留
C Bm Em
我的心乘着斑剥的轻舟
Am D
寻找失落的沙洲
G Bm Em Bm
随时间的海浪漂流我用力张开双手
C Bm Em
拥抱那么多起起落落想念的
Am D G G7
还是你望着我的眼波

Chorus 1
C D Bm Em
我不是一定要你回来只是当又一个人看海
Am D G G7
回头才发现你不在留下我迂回的徘徊
C D Bm Em
我不是一定要你回来只是当又把回忆翻开
Am D Gsus4 G
除了你之外的空白还有谁能来教我爱

G Bm Em Bm
又回到这个尽头我也想再往前走
C Bm Em
只是越看见海阔天空
Am D G G7
越遗憾没有你分享我的感动

Rpt *Chorus*

C D Bm Em
我不是一定要你回来只是当又一个人看海
Am D G G7
疲惫的身影不是我不是你想看见的我
C D Bm Em
我不是一定要你回来只是当独自走入人海
Am D Gsus4 G
除了你之外的依赖还有谁能教我勇敢
Am D Gsus4 G
除了你之外的空白还有谁能来教我爱

好像有点怪，但是这是我已经试了一段时间的...清拆啦.... hahaaha

X了

2009-12-16T21:38:00.003+08:00

黑色笑靥掉了，雪白眼泪掉了
该出现的所有表情瞬间掉了
瞳孔没有颜色，结了冰的长河
回忆是最可怕的敌人

故事情节掉了，主角对白掉了
该属于剧中的对角戏也掉了
胸口没有快乐，断了翅的白鸽
不枯萎的藉口全掉了

曾经唱过的歌，分享过的笑声
在心中不断拉扯
想念不能承认，偷偷擦去泪痕
冬天过了还是会很冷

越来越欣赏Green Hornet，可以写出这样的词
既简单，又让人有无限的想象空间
最喜欢就是副歌的第一句，真的让人充满遐想
掉了，吊了，调了，叼了，钓了，雕了，屌了....
想不到他和阿密特搭档，可以有这样的效果

Realization

2009-12-13T23:24:00.001+08:00

Now I know... I'm so scary......

Doing Something Right but Incorrect (Ball Match Case)

2009-12-11T13:58:00.006+08:00

You are an SG in your team, your opponent leading with 2 points and the game clock is 3 seconds remaining. Game clock is ticking down to 2 sec and the opponent's PG made a turn over and the ball roll to you where you are standing , a big man of your team is open but the C of the opponent team is rushing to you to block your upcoming open shot, this very moment you can:

A: Pass the ball to your open big man, and let him made the 99% easy shots, drag the game into over time
B: Take your most favourite 3-pt shots from down town and bury your opponent by leading them a point without going into the OT. But of cause with the risk of missing the long shots and the whole team lose the game.

Normally I would choose B, since I'm really fancy on 3pt shots. Some how or rather passing to the big man can really get a high percentage of equalize the scores, but we do not know what's gonna happen during the 5 minutes OT. I'm doing a reasonable decision right? But it's just so incorrect for me not to pass the ball to the big man for an easy dunk. Something is right, but its just so not correct.

Funny Clinic Visit

2009-11-28T22:00:00.002+08:00

*Nurse open door, and I sat down*

Doc: Ok lets start by geting your weight and your height... hrm.... weigth XX kg.... height 178cm

*I dunno I only 178cm.... looking weirdly at the doc*

Me: actually I felt quite severe discomfort at my back...

Doc: Ya ha.... ok lemme check and see, you ly down on the bed pls..

*Me lie down...*

Doc: Which part?

*Me showing the pain part...*

Doc: Ok... get up 1st, lemme complete the thing first...Come I check your blood pressure...

*pumping and checking....*

Doc: oh ok.. quite good, 120/70... can I check your tongue?

Me feel awkward: Ok....*I dunno backache got relate with tongue*...

Doc: ok.. can... still ok...

*Doc start filling a form on my height etc that she checked...*

Me: May I know why got check so many things?
*Doc no hiu me...*

Doc: Have you collected your urine?

Me: HUH??? back ache need collect urine?? I think that form doesnt belong to me...

Doc: oh? you are Tan XXX XXX right?

Me: *smiled and said* no doc, Im not....

Doc: OHH!!!! ok ok... hehehehe.... ok whats the problem........

Me: =.=........

Dreaming

2009-11-15T05:46:00.003+08:00

Late at night when all the world is sleeping

I stay up late and think of you

and I wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too

Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight

Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight

And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be

Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you ever see me
and I wonder if you know I'm there, am I there?
If you looked in my eyes would you see what's inside

Would you even care

I just wanna hold you close but so far
All I have are dreams of you

So I wait for the day and the courage to say

How much I love you, Yes I'll do

Late at night when all the world is sleeping

I stay up and think of you

And I still can't believe

That you came up to me, and said

"I love you, I love you too"

Now I'm dreaming, of you tonight

Til tomorrow, and for all of my life

And there's no wher in the world I rathered be

Than here in my room, dreaming of you endlessly

笨蛋的路痴

2009-11-05T21:50:00.004+08:00

原来回去，是那么的难
我在一个交通十字路口，险着闯了红灯
然后发现自己被困在路口当中
当时，我决定改变主意
因为刹那间我觉得很辛苦

我转向了中路的方向
想借着绕进住宅区会比较不塞
谁知路途比原先遥远
完全出乎意料

我驾着车，开始有些慌张
我失去正常盘控驾驶盘的能力
两度差些亲上了前面的车
有一次，有辆他x的车硬要出来
我毫不犹豫地贴近，要他退后

然后，不知为何我忽然崩溃
可能是后知后觉
绕了个大圈，是冤枉和无谓的
是错路，虽然是我选择
是个愚蠢的错择

我花了接近一个小时半
终于到达了所谓的目的地
我打开车门
看见的却是最不想到达的地方
原来浪费了这么多时间
我到了一个我不想去的地方

Parking Space

2009-09-21T17:43:00.003+08:00

This car seems came from far, exhausted

Parking itself into me, adjusting a suitable position to stop, comfortably, peacefully

I shaded with my 11 years old roofing sheets, which almost no body will ponder on it

I saw the car's model something like SLK or so, a luxiriuous car

The car own by a young man, thin, with a pair spectacles

It seems that the car are not happy, because of all the problems given by the owner

"My owner always prefer another car" said the SLK to me

"Why?" I replied with a fake curiousity

"Why he must treat me like that...? Why..."

"Its ok dear, you can shade under me. Or why not you park yourself under me, and leave your owner?"

"I tried, but don't know why, I can't! He simply drives me crazy"

Not long, the young man came back, and drove the car away

I some times still see the same car, hoping it to get better from its owner, or simply change owner.

I hope I can own a SLK myself but,

I'm just a parking slot, who allows people to park into me

Most importantly, its only temporarily.

老人国

2009-08-26T23:15:00.002+08:00

我醒来时，只见几个身穿医袍的小孩子围绕着我
他们拿着手写，然后问我姓名与来历
接着一股语气说，“没事了，你只是撞伤头部而已”
没错，我是被一辆笨车撞到了，但是....

身穿医院里的病人服，我走向了医院的公园
狂了，怎么一路都是一些从孩童到十七八岁的少年
而且他们都用非常异样的眼光瞄着我
在公园的椅子上坐着，身躯与头脑同等的不自然

“嘿，你好像是从外地来的？” 有个各自不大的小孩向我抛问号
“呃...这里是哪里？”
“这里不就是老人国咯！”
“老....老人国？怎么每个人都那么年轻？！”
*惊讶地*“嘘！！！！不要说那两个字！！！！”
“哪两个？年轻？”
“嘘！！！！会被捉的.....”

ok，很明显这地方很古怪，明明全都是小子，但却.....
“你好，我叫Jerry，我来自...请问..这里的人都是那么的.....不老吗？”
“哈哈，对，这里的人都那么的不老，我叫Marcos，是老人国的建筑工程，那天被Sylvia那婆娘差点就..."

谈着谈着，才知道这里的人都只活到十八岁
十八岁过后，就回到一个叫“尘埃”的地方...
Marcos说，从前老人国有一些反国规的人没有到尘埃去，
就被罚到一个叫幻影的空间受苦
“从前有一个人，竟大胆到在国王面前说出XX两字，那个叫木老虎的一名黑人，就被送到幻影去受苦；还有一个叫Billy Gate的人，在每个人的电脑里驻进病毒，每个人一开电脑就会看到那两个字；另一个更加夸张，竟然用电吉它弹唱出XX两字成摇滚，好像叫什么Gilbert 包.."

Tiger Woods, Bill Gates, Paul Gilbert?
Marcos还说，老人国的人都从一条叫做铜河的川，
每年四月，都会有船只送婴孩进来老人国。
到底哪些婴孩是从哪里来呢？

If's and Dont's In Facebook - You VS Employers

2009-08-17T21:14:00.006+08:00

Here comes this very familiar pic, I believe that many guys out there received this email about this lady doing something very lunatic to get her own arse out of bounds. But have you learn any lessons before any bad things happen to you? specifically, here's some do's and dont's:

1. If you own a Facebook account, don't add your boss (very basic huh?)

2. If you added your boss, don't misuse it during office hour

3. If you misuse it during office hour, don't post something FUNNY as your shout out

4. If you posted something FUNNY as your shout out, don't relate it about your work

5. If you posted something about your work, don't say something idiotic

6. If you posted something idiotic about your work, don't mention about your BOSS

7. If you already mentioned something about your BOSS, don't say anything moo moo about him

8. If you already said anything moo moo about him, make sure you had already a confirmed worker (for confirmed employee, go to No 12, for non confirmed employees, go to No 9)

9. If you are still under probation, make sure you don't leave any stuff back in your place since you are not more faceee in order to "accidentally" see your colleagues and your BOSS.

10. If you left anything back there, don't go to collect the stuff yourself, ask somebody to do it for you.

11. If you already reach the office, say hello and goodbye to your boss.

12. If you are a confirmed employee, don't tell the boss you posted the shout out, just tell him/her that your 8 years old brother are so excited that facebook can post shout out so openly

13. If you already told your boss that, you are basically done, check your remaining annual leave and start looking for new jobs.

- The End -

WAIIIITTTTTT!!!! Shouldnt just stopped there. Let talk about, "What to do when you already added your bosssssshhhh???

1. If you added your boss in the facebook, fully utilize it, put up your link of your blog and tag his name on the link.

2. Delete all the blog entries that you say about negative comments on your company (Really have to do it meh???!!!)

3. Blog all good things about the company and how much you enjoy your work scope, including that you are looking forward to carry more responsbility which is some times not really true.

4. Pretending that he wont read your blog, say all good things about your managers and colleagues so that he thought you are a damn good teamworker.

5. State all the favorite places you are looking forward to travel such as Bali, Maldives, Sipadan, etc etc so that he could possibly suggest those location IF there's a company trip which may include you. (OHHH YEAHHHH!!!!)

6. Put all the increment and bonuses statistic of your friends in other company for his refrences in order to look good for your year end for the whole year of hard work job. (HOLY MAMMAAAA!!!!!!)

D*MN!!! DON CHA JUZ LURVVVV #5 and #6???!!!!!!

The Opinion Above Does not Represent J FM II.

以上言论不代表本台

Whats Goin On?

2009-08-01T20:37:00.006+08:00

25 years and my life is still

Trying to get up that great big hill of hope

For a destination

And I realized quickly when I knew I should

That the world was made up of this brotherhood of man

For whatever that means

And so I cry sometimes

When I'm lying in bed

Just to get it all out

What's in my head

And I am feeling a little peculiar

And so I wake in the morning

And I step outside

And I take a deep breath and I get real high

And I scream at the top of my lungs

What's going on?

And I try, oh my god do I try

I try all the time, in this institution

And I pray, oh my god do I pray

I pray every single day

For a revolution

迷失的游魂

2009-07-28T21:53:00.004+08:00

当夕阳西下时，他冒从档口边的树丛里出现了
没有人发现他，只有其他幽魂，也渐渐的活动起来

他往回家的路慢行，重复着他仅有的见见家人
也许还刺眼的沉夕让步伐都慢下来
只有搭上了一辆载满砂石的卡车
忘记了当初的目的，他睡着了

醒来时，他非常的痛苦
突然记起当初万箭锥心的过错，由谁来替他弥补？
从卡车上下来，他发现了在十字路口有一群饿鬼抢食
他缓缓地经过右边的小巷，却发现尽头无法令他前进

眼见只有热闹的十字路口，可以让他有机会记起当初的目的地
站在车来车往的路口中，车辆穿身而过
脑海除了生前触怒朋友的画面，再也无法思考
他躺在大路上，不想再行使了
来往的车辆令他更加凌乱
他双手压在头上，显得无比的痛苦

凌晨的二时四十八分，他从马路上站了起来
繁忙的道路，变得如此的宁静
饿鬼们也不见了，之间另一名幽魂躺在另一端的道路上
步向起身后第一个面向的那一方走了
虽然他不知道前方是哪里，是什么
他只是知道，在晨曦之前
他要找到一个可以让自己躲开光亮的地方
毕竟，他知道自己已无血肉之躯

如果此文触动了你的不安，非常抱歉。这只是一片虚构的文章！=）

Hi, How Are You? I'm Fine, Thanks for Asking

2009-07-28T01:24:00.002+08:00

Yeap, things are that simple, applicable, and widely use.

Apologize to my redang crew for not continuing the posts. Owe you guys a big one.

Its like saying hi to many things that we had left out. I'm sure many of you recently watched this clip, trying to describe the clip in texts. He walked out from the back stage, wearing a very lite plain white T, on the very dim light, He carried a briefcase. He opened the briefcase, and took a piece of coat out from the briefcase. Hanging tht piece of coat in the air, like 2-3 seconds, the crowds screamed and yelled like they never did. He put up his coat, from the same briefcase, He grabbed his white glove, only 1 piece of white glove. The crowd craved, they lost their sanity looking at The King doing it. The music started, he shoke his body and legs, slides the feet backward creating a graceful movements......

Thanks to The King, who gave us so many moments we should have. After stop blogging for so long, He is one of the major factor that make me feels like I should jot something here. Long live The King, you are not alone.
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I pick myself incomplete recently. Doing things that not much of purpose, objectives, etc. I smacked myself hardly after knowing that there are few friends also facing the same problem, perhaps its just a so called transition period for ourselves, for those who are still have plenty of room for improvement, for those who are like me. Living life without purpose and objectives are some times so difficult to accept. Among my friends, they have the same feelings.

Therefore I jotted myself few things to go for, some sort of upgrade or filling up my own life with colours. First come the SLR thingy. I was thinking, if I buy a SLR camera, at least I will commit my time to do some shooting since its not cheap to get an SLR. But yes, its not cheap, so I have to think more than thrice to really get an SLR.

Then comes the Lenovo IdeaPad idea. I am superbly pissed off and f*cked up by using all the 2nd hand thingy. Whoever know me good enough know that I don like 2nd hand things that people don wan then, GIV YOU USE LA..... After my office desktop stolen by some stupid arse thieves, they gave me a used C*mpaq, that also I only request them to upgrade my RAM but there are some ignorants who don understand language did not do it for me, then they gave me the SECOND HANDED D*ll. Yeap, SECOND HAND. I rather buy myself. Thats because of the disatisfaction I had.

Welp after all that, I am thinking isnt good to have myself learn an extra language? Japanese is good since many japanese company are having factories here, I can have the advantage if one day I so happen got into it. But still, if I don speak, don read, don listen, don practice, they will rust, because I cant speak japanese alone....

Ok how bout really let myself be a qualify guitarist? at least I can practice guitar alone... So I planned also to get on the guitar class to learn some theory, at least I'm not buta buta play guitar only but I know whats the theory behind....?

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Its a bit lengthy over but things are hardly smoothen recently. I'm not giving up life, nope not that easily. I once thought of stopping this blog, but I didnt. This shows that I will make my life continue positively. I kiss my fingers which are crossing.

I'll be back

2009-07-24T00:14:00.000+08:00

its time for me to come back

Happy Mothers Day

2009-05-10T21:31:00.002+08:00

I was disccusing with a friend on whether to do another entry in this period, since I am very very unknonw status on how to describe my recent mood swings. Anyway, I decided to post this, since its a global celebration onto Mothers Day, it should be meaningful to do so.

To do it a little bit special, I do not think I carry the responsible to describe nor explain how mother should be.... how great they are... how noble they are.... etc etc... meaningless when most of us already know, BUT, I am doing this to dedicate this song to all the children in this world, if you can here this song and understand the meaning of the song writer, deep inside your heart, thank your parents.

So, please love your parents, not long ago I just read an article, it says:

“世界上有两样东西最不能迟，一是行孝，二是行善”, there's two things in this world, we cannot afford to late, 1 is filialty, 2 is charity. I am not a filial person, but I do hope those who have the chance to do it, do it.

Last but not least, Mom, miss you so much. And please look after father from up there k.... hehee...

The Trip I Name It Siao Siao #1

2009-04-30T21:12:00.000+08:00

Its all started from the waiting of the Mr Air-cond Spoil to wake up and pick us up. We spent our time at that familiar McD with the Jawis on it. And Yean Hong (here and after known as the booterr) introduced that the familiar bus that should take us to the jetty has arrived.

After they hopped up to the bus 1 by 1, me and ah soo still chit chatting out side the bus, there, this very smart bird decide to drop me a hint which is to ask me to get up the bus before there's no more seat, with its poo poo on my shoulder.... wtf..... so I decided to take a photo shot of the bus plate number before I forgot the plate number for me to get to Mr Da, Mr Mag, and Mr To if they can give me some extra pocket money.

This nice Mr Aircond spoil first drove us to the Terrengganu China Town. As named, everything here are chinese, including the Bah Kut Teh and dim sum can be found here. The sky of China Town is full of swallow, flying around the bluish clouds. Here, a group of siao lang started to do their snap shots, including that they suddenly found some celebrities around, so they gathered and feast on the "don't-know-which" superstar for photo shooting session, I tried to take a good shoot on the siao lang gang but end up there's a guy call Micheal Rambo peace-ing to me... and I suddenly saw an evidence that a superstar has been really having a strong relationship with Malaysia.....

At the not so blue sky, and streaky hot sun shining onto the bus roof top, we proceed to the jetty which could possibly take 40 minutes, but unfortunately, the air cond of the bus broke down and everybody is preenjoying the services of sauna on the bus. The "sweater" couldnt take it so went to the bus driver aka Mr Aircond Spoil and discuss on how to turn cold the spoilt air cond, but end up opening all the roof door to sooth everybody inside. After that, we head to the island on the very fast boat, very fast the motor spoilt boat. End up standing up for that whole hour listening to 2 aunties gossiping......

To Be Continued..........................................

A Piece of Dialogue With Liang

2009-04-29T18:23:00.003+08:00

L: its jz like that time when ur.... *cough* left...u didnt told us also, jz after that suddenly an sms...

Me: oh u meant my mom? nah, its near CNY, i dont wanna spoil others mood by coming to the funeral, summore its weekdays, everybody gotta work, there's no point by coming to the funeral as if its gonna make me feel better, it wont.

L: so wat, we wanna show we r frens, u do not need to sms everybody u know, tht time if u sms 1 of us, we will fwd this news to everybody

Me: *sum wat laughed*

L: i jz worried that ppl went there and laugh like a gathering instead of a funeral

Me: i jz worried that u all come and i hv to repeat how She left over and over again and made me so difficult.

L: this is y, u never told anybody bout ur real prob.

I was suppose to post my trip to the Redang on how "exhausted" it was but it bounced to have this kind of feeling for me to blog this up. Perhaps I started to hump myself away from my target which should be more positive or at least let Irwin read my post more worriless. But there's too many things I didnt do for Her. I feel so ashame that up till now familism still cannot really grow inside me especially after reading Bryan's post on how he entertaint his mom with the out-of-tune guitar. My mom didnt even know I can play guitar. What a ridiculous joke to tell.

What the....

2009-04-22T22:58:00.002+08:00

I use the Fumakilla bottle to knock on my head
To make myself more alert
Gallons of caffein cant stimulate the neuros anymore
They are all now numb.

First happen when I lost my diary,
fine though till I knock that money lender's Waja,
still ok you know till I forgotten to submit my report in time,
now I lost all my f*cking receipt and I am subsidizing the company now.

Perhaps I need to use a ceramic instead of the aerosol bottle.
Because I am now numbed.
They first told me there's a pay rise.
"O.." I replied without giving a damn of the facial expression.
Then they passed me the offer letter and confirm it.
"Any expectation?" he asked.
"No, not at all" with the expression-less replied on the sat-down-prepared-to-discusss manager.

Then they started to yell at each other at another ground.
Its good that I decide to stay this ground,
Its bad that I have to squeeze all those pain into juice, by myself.

I started to feel alone, aging to be exact.
Even the geese not walking out from the front yard anymore.
I see the dogs at the guard house getting skinnier and I can some what see their bones.
The ants are not even bothering the biscuits crumbs I left on the table.

Is it all my "should be" "shouldnt be"?
I killed my own satisfaction, need lower ambitious.
I need a break, which I'm going to get soon.
May be its not a long break but, at least will cast me away from the boiling points.
I hope that people who stay here has the self management that I "used to" have.
That the neighbours do not receive such high decibels onto the innocents.

Time to sleep. Good night!

请把我的名字默念一百遍

2009-04-19T18:34:00.003+08:00

昨天晚上偶然之下，在车上听见了一首熟悉的歌，好有感觉，在我不经意哼着那首歌的时候，我发现有一个gns也竟然眯摸着这首歌，可能是哪首歌的温馨程度。。。真是很怀念这首歌。。。

Random Long Post

2009-04-19T16:13:00.003+08:00

i guess this is the 1st random post i did it here. to me most likely the term "random" happen to appear in this kinda occasions are some wat meaningless, and i'm deciding not to take care of my grammar and language here.

it happen to appear in my mind tht stopped me from blogging since mid of march till recently i put back sthg that not really me into the blog to sort of continuing things that had stopped for a while, which is a very bad habit of me on persisting sthg, in all sorts of efforts which needs to pay.

1st of all is the news of frens didnt make it up after chasing a gal for several years. big bow to him. several years aftering 1 gal. end up zero bcos tht gal told him tht herself do not know wat she really wants, and do not hope tht my fren to continue waste time on her. wat a ridiculous excuse. half true half not? i told myself, shall there's anygal tell me tht, there's only 2 things appear in my mind: 1 is tht gal found her true guy for her; 2 is she had enuf lunatic time spent on me, thts y. i spent a nite wit tht buddy of mine without complaining. i am more than 100% sure that if i'm down in mood, he will do everything he can to console me. this is call brother.

after that a fren of mine that i tot had been released from the past nitemares. but seems like still kena haunting by the characters in the nightmare spontaneously, so sad tht when u tried so hard to help fren, they are still bind to the negative side of the devils who still bugging them and unable to release. perhaps i was the devil b4, erm may b i stil the devil which still haunting somebody's mind. but i hope that i am not anymore.

after discovered myself underperform, i quickly style myself up in my workplace. things are quite likely to happen since suddenly the load of my work started to remoderate and changes a lil bit. and now, i do not hope that i hv more hours per day, i hope there are more days per week.

being nasty in the family has not become my preference. after doin it once, i really find it hard to accept for myself. and i think that familism has letting me know that i made a serious mistake on decision making, that i am not able to to change the cruel truth on meditating the illness in this house. even myself had lost patience on managing the eldar. i become very hot temper when i reach home. i still rmb wat LF said, "pity u, u cant feel the warmness of ur home" similar things mentioned by SY too.

recently i had a few frens which are far younger, like 19-20s, or some wat 22-23. joining them makes me feels like i'm old. perhaps the only thing in this world which is fair is the time. everybody share the same 24-7 a week, and 365.25 days per year. which will not be arguable. u take ur nx move to spend the nx second. u gain wat u spend for the last second. some focus wealth, welp most of them do, some focus fun and entertainment, some spend to look for their soulmates for the rest of their life, some out of nthg just wan to be themselves, ie me. how ever when i looked at those who i called gns, i envy that the only thing i don hv is the timing. i hope i would back to the campus again and do things that wat they r doin rite now. during my studies, my only complain to study life is there's no concrete rewards, unlike working life, u work hard ya its fucking hard but in the end of the day u get ur rewards, so called "in the end of the day". but nowadays the gns who are studying, they get their rewards, mixing up wit frens so freely; buying things that they intended to buy, and who need to work to buy their Sony Ericsson or Samsung? 1 out of 10?

deemed that i'm single, ray for no reason called me yesterday said wan intro me a "fren", and i can feel tht there are timings for me to readapt for being a good and responsible man to rely on. at least the correct person are simple so important at the correct place and correct time. i hope things will jz go smoothly and i put my palm on my chest and type this: if i were to stay single for the rest of my life, for this moment, i think its ok"

for watever reason i posted this long winded thingy. i hope everybody will hv their life progressive. the ills will get cured; the sad will get happy; the poor will get rich; and the irritating ppl can get lost.

Will You Marry Me? by KSK

2009-04-19T15:48:00.004+08:00

"It's already half year ago, when we first met at the Hall of Grace, we know each other, hang out, dinner, movies, looking at the stars, and counting the cars on the highway, I want to tell you I love you, I hope that you will accept my love and become my soul mate, will you marry me?", said Terrance to Neesha, kneeling down on the floor with the wedding ring. During the eve of christmas, that would be the most unforgettable day for Terrance to stomp his courage to say those words.

Neesha was stunned. She cant close her eyelids but to look at Terrance. Without giving any reaction and reply, she ran up her room. Terrance was unhappy. After 6 months of knowing each other, he thinked that proposing together with confession perhaps worked simply too sudden until Neesha came down from her room bringing an unknown letter.

"Last christmas, I was very sad of a broken relationship. I approached pastor Lee. Pastor Lee told me that everything will be fine. The man of my life, will appear and be with me for the rest of my life, pampering me, give me everything. He wrote all these onto this letter." Neesha hand over the letter to Terrance and continues,"but I want to tell you, even though that the pastor did not tell me all those, I want to wear this ring, and love you for the rest of my life".

Old School...

2009-04-17T21:51:00.006+08:00

#1 Wanted

#2 Old School Ad Board

#3 There is still letter for this address you know...

#4 Its older fashion than your anneh's barber shop

#5 Miss those bottles or not?

#6 You never ever took a bus, how could you imagine that is a bus stop?

#7 There's no Autopay station here, and I am very sure I have been to such carpark when I was a kid

#8 I seriously do not know what was this building, looks like a rich family house to me.

HOW DID HE......???!!!!!

2009-03-10T10:32:00.002+08:00

One day, I'm gonna learn... THIS!!!

WTF!!!!!!!

Speed Trap?

2009-02-28T19:15:00.003+08:00

Do you see a police setting camera to catch speed driver in the photo below?

Ok how about this?

谎话的意义

2009-02-28T18:38:00.003+08:00

世界上有人真的没有说过谎话？
我有，而且还很经常。
可能谎话对自己其实没有占很大意义，
对我来说和一般人一样，
谎话 - 隐瞒事实的词句重组。

这两天我不断在思考谎话的真正原因：
- 隐瞒自己的破绽？
- 隐瞒一些残酷的事实
- 愚弄别人
- 为谋取利益
- 为了一些善意而说谎

大概前天吧，被骗了。
虽然不是什么天大事情，
但是好像蛮难解释吧。
因为，当场就发生了一些事让我揭穿自己被骗。
可能是难堪吧，反而被骗的觉得难堪
当我大叫：“噢！破空头了！”
自己觉得很“泄衰”，原来是被骗了，
马上就离开一群人的闲聊。

感觉原本不遭，
但是此人却愚蠢到当我是极度蠢蛋，
在我到槟城时打了个“善后”的电话，
哇唠A你啊X臭X！
那是心虚？还是内疚？竟然用一些不可能的解释来特地澄清！

过后经过考虑后，就知道了谎言的意义：
善意的谎话，被隐瞒者知道真相过后，感觉内疚难过；
恶意的谎话，说谎者知道破空后，感觉内疚难过。

你们说过最遭的谎话，有让你们内疚难过吗？

PS: 自觉者，请不要再来解释，因为这样只会让你自己更加难堪

我系购物狂！不是我的错！ - 男人女人购物传统观念

2009-02-28T14:45:00.002+08:00

有无发现到现代女人，在购物官场是一条猛龙？男人到购物广场就只是会买自己想要的物品，但天生购物狂的女人......
1. 她们会埋下就算自己不是很喜欢的物品，包括衣服，小饰品等
2. 到了广场，90%不可能空手而回
3. 如果摆明车马是要“购物”，惨了，有时候一双手也不一定能那完全部袋子。
4. 等等！！！！！

其实，“我们不应该怪她们”。她们天生购物狂的特性，不是她们想要的。那为什么她们那么爱疯狂购物？

话说从前～～～～～

“在人类还在处于打猎和采摘果实的年代，男人大部分的活动，就是独自走入森林里头，找寻猎物。男人非常清楚自己的目的，就是找个好的猎物，以便可以让家人吃顿好的。所以当他们打猎时，都很专注在“自己要找什么东西”。一打到猎物，就很满意的回家。而且也不很挑，只要可以填满肚子就好。

女人的工作室采摘果实。通常在她们的男人出外后，她们就三五成群的，一同到森林里采摘果实。当然，比起打猎，果实比较容易多了。数量和多，品种也很多。女人们就会很兴奋的观察到底那一些果实是比较值得采摘，考量的因素包括有：外表；有否被动物嚼食过；采摘容不容易；和好不好吃等等。然后采摘后，也不一定会吃。可能会放在一起，然后再三挑四选，务求选出最好的果实。”

亲爱的朋友们，你们是否觉得这个故事非常和现代的女生非常有关联？

中國武俠片的５０條不變定律

2009-02-24T21:16:00.004+08:00

1. 悅來客棧是古代最大的連鎖客棧。……

2. 超級巨毒，解藥，暗器都產自西域。

3. 平時朝夕相處的人，只要穿上夜行衣，再蒙個面紗，對方就不認識了。

4. 沒用的小角色用的武功名字有很強的文學性和動物性，就是不大好用。

5. 長著超長白髮+鬍子的絕對是曠世高人，和他要拉好關係。

6. 英雄配一把好兵器，好到從不用去保養修理。

7. 在亂箭中，英雄要是不想死，就決不會死；萬一中了箭，那也是因為一旁有大惡人挾持其親人導致英雄分心。

8. 一定要象徵性的打幾下，才出絕招，並噴著口水大叫：去死吧！！

9. 使出必殺技要做很花哨的動作，還要做上一兩分鐘，但敵人決不會乘機偷襲，儘管這是個好機會……

10. 高手都無視萬有引力，到處亂飛且飛得飛快。不過要是趕遠路，卻會騎馬。

11. 大俠套餐：2斤熟牛肉+上等女兒紅。（悅來客棧長期供應……）

12. 好人從不下毒，壞人從不不下毒；但好人從不下毒卻老被誣陷下毒，壞人從不不下毒卻沒人懷疑他。

13. 大俠想顯示自己的修為，往往會撿起一根樹枝將不知天高地厚的小角色打敗，後來悅來客棧開始供應樹枝……

14. 在一條筆直的街道被人追殺，儘管有很多事要做，但弄翻兩旁的小攤是最重要的！

15. 好人用暗器是形式所逼，多才多藝，一擊必中；壞人用暗器是卑鄙無恥，旁門左道，扔死了都扔不中……

16. 壞人千心萬苦扔中了，還會被好人忍著巨痛放倒，並噴著口水大叫：卑鄙！

17. 會有絕世佳人救起中暗器的英雄，日不久也生情……

18. 當時社會治安不好，人人佩帶危險器械……

19. 菜市場殺豬的絕對是一胖子！！！！！

20. 絕世神兵被麻布一層一層裹緊，絕世神人也被麻布一層一層裹……

21. 主角一生坎坷或是一帆風順，一生坎坷的會坎坷到死，一帆風順的從不買彩票……

22. 所有人都很有錢，銅板很少出現，一張一張的銀票比草紙還便宜。

23. （悅來客棧的）店小二知識淵博，有問（+錢）必答！　　

24. 有錢人姓金，錢；窮人叫二狗。好人壞人偽君子一聽名字就知道。

25. 少林寺就1個方丈（老和尚那種8算）和1個徒弟厲害，其他都很==。　　

26. 練秘笈要分性別，別如男的，女的，男女混合的，不男不女……
27. 很喜歡在酒樓（悅來客棧）裏鬧事，先掀桌子，再摔椅子，最後才火拼。　　

28. 有時候可以一劍劈掉巨石，有時候卻劈不掉一張八仙桌。　　

29. 英雄都很帥，大反派也很帥，龍套長相鮮明~ 　　

30. 經典臺詞：A：在下***，江湖人稱****。　　B：原來是***，久仰久仰。　　A:不敢當不敢當…… 　　

31．單挑是， “ 正義 ” 一方支撐不住了，就會喊人幫忙： “ 對付這種魔頭，不用和他講什麼江湖道義，大家一起上！ ” 　　

32．打擂時，一定是翻個跟頭上去的，再用30條的經典臺詞…… 　　

33.螳螂拳經久不衰，太極拳只有2個人會…… 　　

34.少林圖書館經常失竊…… 　　

35.儘管高手可以用鼻子聞到敵人的氣息，但在被偷聽時，只有對方碰翻了什麼東西才能察覺。　　

36.被察覺的人往往在快被追上時扔閃光彈，並在這一段時間逃的比平時快10倍。　　

37.都喜歡假死。　　

38．一個人喝完悶酒一定會下暴雨。　　

39.一下暴雨就會打並且只打一個雷。　　

40.團體組合流行：(如)四大門派，四大金鋼等等………………………

41.拔劍時，有時會有劍氣，有時會拔不出來…… 　　

42.朝廷的大將軍是坨屎，公公才是高手。　　

43．總有那麼一本書，劍，玉讓人搶。　　

44.擁有比網路更快的傳播方式………………嘴！　　

45.沒見過有誰上廁所，要是有的話，那是因為被下了瀉藥…… 　　

46.妓院都是怡紅院（我懷疑是悅來集團的子公司……）。　　

47.髮型高度定型，甩一甩就恢復（用潘婷的？）　　

48.要麼從小習武，要麼從不習武，否則是成不了大器的。　　

49.大俠勝利的方式只有2種：一招搞定或100，200，300招搞定……

50.美女到處都是，這是最鬱悶的……

兴奋

2009-02-19T21:09:00.003+08:00

好久没这样.......

今天我的player播着自己的歌
I'm leaving on the jet plane, Jewel 的version
刚刚就tab了一下，好舒服

今天的工作虽然不轻松
但是充满开心的心情
大概是偷闲的时间利用的太好了吧

我告诉她别再养宠物了
宠物终有一天会离开自己
别再让自己伤心了

原本想好好把今晚的时间都让自己拥有
还不赖，就是什么都不理就行了
管他奶奶的

在自己surfing的时候，
看了许多人的部落格，
罗忆诗，颜菀倩，kenny sia,

有人告诉我，
我的witty回来了，
虽然刚刚懂witty是什么意思
但是真的很开心！

A Day To Remember

2009-02-07T14:01:00.003+08:00

7th Feb, I wanted to write all the details about this date on how important it is. To me. But as I tried so many times to describe what it is all about, I cannot help myself by losing myself out of that.

I just want to say, I miss You, very much, things would be so different if You are stil here. I really miss You.

January Post Dated "Check"

2009-02-03T21:10:00.004+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year and Gong Xi Fa Cai to all.

It took me so long to think about what I should jot for the coming post. I thought of posting something related to Chinese New Year, but my friend all know that I'm a boring person during CNY because my best top prioritized activity is hugging my pillow XD. Ok what ever it is, it would sounded more negative if its earlier and I do not want it to spoil everybody's festive season which is one of the reason that I delayed this post (though there's not much of visitors here....), and this time, I put it into more direct manner and comprehensive: My January Checked List. This is a list of what ever I thought of, in simplified version, almost about anything.

My January Checked List
1. To be postive, and it doesn't mean that I'm allowed to be careless.
2. To be always alert on the existing scenario. Do no underestimate any small matters arising.
3. Keep up with agressiveness, which will able to pace up myself to reach my target.
4. Keep up with patient, which will able to reduce unnecessary worry and demote possible-avoidable problem.
5. Do appropriate judgement and consideration with proper facts and figures. Do not rush into making a correct and good decision
6. Do not hesitate too long after selected the possible options listed down which may lead to "Shiet I miss the chance!"
7. Keep up with stupid and funny character which always make your friends laugh all time. Try not to be dull and self defensive.
8. Being serious in the correct time is the utmost important attitude rather acting stupid in the important discussions.
9. F-A-M-I-L-Y = Father And Mother I Love You. M is no longer here, therefore I decided to change that to Father And Me, I Love You.
10. Never eat any chocolate without drinking lots of water before KTV session.
11. Nicotine will not provide any long term solution. Destress with the correct method please.
12. Team activities (disregard of indoor and outdoor) are so important that will tell you that you are never alone in this sphere.
13. Always look back. Because there was where we walked through all the happy and unhappy times.
14. Shopping for CNY is some what unnecessary, since even if you were wearing last year's cloth, your friends will never mention about your cloth, neither if you worn the newly boughts.
15. Understanding your own religion and actual practice and needs for the ceremonies which is about time to learn.
16. Sometimes they are just so annoying, but if we really cant cope nor resolve those, ignore it.
17. There are always time and sufficient concerns for friends without fail, because there's not much faith frm family members, and we shouldn't expect to receive from them, but to give them what ever we have.
18. Carelessness is just a big problem to solve.
19. Yelling loud sometimes do solve certain problems.
20. Yelling loud sometimes don't solve the problems.
21. Keep fit and reduce some inches PLEASE.
22. Verifying is what an important move to make sure things go on or stop putting in hope.
23. Saying Happy New Year is some what easier to say Gong Xi Fa Cai.
24. Buying some delicious foods are good to share, but make sure you had enough of them before others sapu everything.
25. Always be factual, some times temper arises so easily if things that were wrong aren't corrected, and especially when you know some one is wrong.
26. Stop being too considerate and start being calculative since 7 out of 10 is taking advantage on you.
27. Stop being too rational because some times we just cant think out of the box, and things that can continue will just stop there.
28. Utilizing lunch hour to sleep in the office feels so damn good. Perhaps I should practice it more often and no bird Mr O.
29. Always keep your offensive and defensive system manual, where by you know how to prevent unnecessary damage onto others or onto yourself.
30. Got my biggest Ang Pow ever: 360,000. Dont doubt that. (since its in Rupiah).
31. Drinking beer while playing dota feels just so good.
32. Try not to do a check list at the end of February because I find it will be very nuisance to read by others.

冷笑话 - 历史人物篇

2009-01-21T22:38:00.002+08:00

Q: 哪一个中国历史人物是跑最快的？
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Terms and Definition

2009-01-21T21:55:00.003+08:00

Stunned

Adjective
Unable to act or respond; dazed; shocked

Attempt

Noun
1. The action of trying at something
2. An assault or an attack

Responsive

Adjective
1. Answering, replying, or responding
2. Able to receive and respond to stimuli
3. Using antiphons; antiphonal
4. Susceptible to feelings of others

Denied (past tense of Deny)

Verb
1. To not allow
I wanted to go to the party, but I was denied.
2. To assert that something is not true.
I deny that I was at the party.

Verify

Verb
1. To substantiate or prove the truth of something
2. To confirm or test the truth or accuracy of something
3. (Law) To affirm something formally, under oath

冷笑话 - 地方研究篇

2009-01-19T23:12:00.004+08:00

Q: 地球上有东京，南京，北京，为什么没有西京？

Ａ：因为。
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西经被唐三藏取走了。

冷！冷！！冷！！！！！

Note For Early 2009

2009-01-18T21:43:00.004+08:00

Yeap we heard that what they said. Its going to be a very tough year, tougher than ever at least.

While the SEA economy crisis during year 97/98, I was just a lad, perhaps I'm still one. I seriously feel the difficult time that I am going to face. Which is the target that I set mentioned earlier, to proceed with another financial target of my aim.

However, I think I had a very energized year this year, at least for this 18 days. Every negativity seems so nothing to me, I took my things more easily and more aggressively when they were needed to.

I told myself there's no such things called 365-happy days. As all the big ropes are helical shapes of multiple smaller ropes, which I assume there are so many elements that to combine into a big one in our life. No doubt, many negative things still happens. On my past year, those big things which impacted onto me and people around me had been too much. I would have just resolved every people relation and work matter better than what I had did.

Its a good start this year. I feel like every thing is more. The people are more, the good mood is more, friends are more, energies getting more, loves things around more, hopefully it'll lead to my bank notes to become also more. Which I think that, its time for resuming my part time job again. Although it may not be easy to manage my stamina and time. But I did it once, I think I can do the same thing before thinking of expanding things to become bigger.

It sounded very low profile when I reread my own post here. I want to clarify that this is not. This time I'm very sure especially the first 10 days of 2009 I had met a few big cases personally and officially, but I was so surprise everything handled perfectly. Perhaps understanding that many things are just beyond our control, we will have to move on with our foot steps firm enough to carry all the weight.

I want to remember my feelings now. That is why I came to this post. Previously I had created a personal authorized blog to jot down all the negative things to prevent myself spreading all the negativity to my friends, quoting Irvin, its too difficult to read my blog because that he had to help himself prevent to be affected by my negativity. Fortunate or unfortunate? I had not put a single alphabet there yet. Perhaps its just so nice to make things a little bit better by thinking in the positive way. I'd forgotten when was the last time I think like that, but throughout early of this year, I've been doing that, unconsciously.

Good job I praised to myself! I'll keep that up! And everybody should keep that up! Lets move ahead although its a tough year in financial, we shouldn't make it a tough year for our emotion and quality life!

Tom (Jeans) and Jerry's Non Sense Chat Log (Funny!)

2009-01-18T11:41:00.003+08:00

It was a boring working late afternoon, as usual, I was looking for somebody to hit me with some text from my chatting tools to at least let me drift myself out from my work as my ular session:

T: hi jerry,,still alive ah?
J :ahh~~~...... ah~~~~~..... *dying*
T: ping piang.....
J: errkkK!!!!
T: chik chiak_[bullet uploading]..
J: siiiuuu....siiiiuuuuuu~~~~*matrix-style dodging bullets*.... nyek nyek nyek...
T: croaching tiger hidden dragon ...hiok,,hak hak,,,hek,,,[kung fu]
J: hoik! *dodge* hiiippp *jump up on the air* kraaakkk!! *broke a bamboo stick* AHH~~~ *stand on the bamboo tree preparing...*
T: tieng tieng....[guitar swiping], "xiu lam kung fu hou yeh"
J: hou hou yeh
T: xiu lam kung fu geng
J: hao hao geng
T: ngor hai ti tao gong
J: ti~~ tao~~ gong~~~~
T: nei hai kam kong toi,,,,,
J: kam~ kong~~~ toi~~~~ huak!!! HUAK!!!!!!!!
T: hahhaha,,,
J: ahhaah
T: siup,,,,,[pulling out the sword]
J: huh??!!!!!!! fok fok fok *stick swinging*
T: see my 飞云!hoi，，，hah。。。。
T: 风云剑!!
J: then i cannot use stick jor
T: i forgot wat tat sword name liao...hahahha
J: 血饮狂刀
J: 绝世好剑
T: ya,,,,jue shi hao jian
J: gurup...gurup.....*eating 菩提子*
T: 小李飞刀! siup ,,,,[茶杯..flying,,,]
J: kororororoororor........... *filling 茶杯 with tea*....
T: 敬你一杯! 请问大虾贵姓？
J: 大虾? 在下老虎虾!未请教!
T: 久仰大名...
J: 不敢当
T: 一斤多少钱？
J: 放肆！什么一斤多少钱?!!!
T: 哈，难道你是用‘只’来算的？
J: 最少要买五斤!! 用‘只’来算也可以!
T: siup.....[sword....pulling]
J: !! 未请教....
T: 再请教
J: 先请而后教
T: 先教再后请。。。
J: 后请而后教
T: 再后就接招!!!hiop....
J: hoik
T: ting ting ting'''[music]
J: 埋住！
T: ting ting ting ting,,,,,[walking round]
J: flok flok flok *pigeon fly in*
T: frezze...[MI2,...uom cruise walk in...opps...]
J: 大侠原来是同道中人
T: 你是哪一道？我是常迟道。。。。你呢？
J: 山中飞鸽传书, 说大侠原来是来买秘密老虎虾!
T: 对...老兄...
J: 飞鸽传书说，Mariah Carey 要来,要买老虎虾请他吃
T: 对....
T: 不好意思，昨天mariah 说他不想吃了
J: ！！
T: tom cruise,,要吃....
J: 唉，飞鸽传书就是不够SMS快, 已经叫他们用ＳＭＳ了...
T: 错,我们用3G
J: ３鸡？
T: siup....[PDA pulling,,]
J: 难怪三只小猪过时了。。。
T: ya,,,看我的最新山鸡, 最快，，最大，，，最划算
J: 高明高明!
T: 而且还是黑剃鸡{HTC}!!!
J: 可以跟我们虾帮派的千里传音相比
T: 难怪你outdate了, 我们可以传万里了
J: 让我把这太黑剃鸡拍起来,siup! [HP take out]
T: 泰国龙珠上等3鸡，可以传万里家
J: 我这个锁你屎未索(Sony Cybershot)
T: 锁你屎未索!! 黑剃鸡的死对头!!
J: 不错吧?
T: 屎未索已经收皮了。。
J: 不可能!
T: 讲多无谓。。。。看招!
J: hiippp
T: croaching tiger..[croach croach croach...]
J: hidden dragon [shouting...roarr.....roaarrr.....]
T: wah...really tired...来杯乌龙茶
J: 我不要, 我要黑龙茶!
T: ring ring ring...[黑剃鸡响了。。]
T: 老虎虾兄...在下又要使...任务难违。。。
J: *听～～妈妈的～～～话～～*[锁你响了]
T: 后会有期...
J: 等等！
J: shiupppp *tea cup sliding*
T: 嘿，，我接
J: 先敬茶。。。。
T: 我 siup....再请你茶
J: 很涨了,谢谢
T: 不客气
J: 你已经中毒了, muahahahhaha!
T: 哈哈哈...看我的
T: hoiikkk....puuuuu....[vomit out the tea]
J: 早料到你会这样, 其实毒中在你的手,
T: 哈哈密密麻麻。。。。。你也中招了!含笑半步丁！！hohoho..
J: :X，顾名思义，要含笑，半步，才丁。我没有半步，所以没丁
T: hoik,,,,,,[jumping to the air force 1]
J: 你！！！别跑～
T: obama need my helps
J: oops *walked*
T: he said he cannot pang sai, i need to urut 他, hoik!!
J: hoik, siup [continue yamcha]
Both: 哈哈哈....
to be continued....

Note: Tom Jeans (Facebook / Friendster) is my ex coursemate during diploma. A good looking guy, I always call him Kent Zhu Xiao Tian, because to me he really looks like him, some angle of view. He taught me a little bit of guitar last time, where I'd also joint him to jamming room before. And he's now a father, but a happy father I think. Only a happy father can able to chat to me like so funny, not like those very dull father, always talk about do's and dont's only. Haha. Hope to meet him up some day. Really long time no see.

In Memories of XF and XS

2009-01-13T21:24:00.003+08:00

Dear XF,

By listening to the description from Your mummy to me, I know You left with full of willingness, by staying cute, even though You'd left.

We know You do not want to leave XS alone up there, that is why You decided to meet him up there 2 days after XS left. I'm sure that XS will first whack You up before saying anything to You, because I just asked Him to bless your life with full of strength day before, and You do not seem to accept that but made another decision.

I think that both of You will love each other more up there, live more happily up there. XF, stop bullying XS when You reach there ok? And we know how fat You were, so, You do not need to keep fit already, since You are already fat :p . Therefore eat as much of doggy food as You can. We know You like it, no need to curi curi makan.

And daddy know I very naggy.. but both of You must bless mummy alot, for her to be happy every single second, every day. And don't be naughty, cause I already ask Your grandma to watch you all out, She will report to me if both of You in caught naughty!

With Love,
Papa

To Little Skinny Who Will be Always be Blessed

2009-01-11T13:11:00.003+08:00

Dear XS,

We know that You are always adorable, we know that you are always happy. When You reach your new place with full of joy and endless happiness, please do not hesitate to be as playful as possible, eat and store unlimited kua zi of Your most favourite activities. God will bless You no matter where You go. With the new place, we know that You will be happier than suffering Your illness within these few months. I feel very regret that I'm not around with You during Your toughest moment, and as well as not around with mummy when she's helpless. So, with all Your means, I hope You can bless mummy with all the happy days she will be going through, and all the strength to empower both of mummy and XF to continue live strong and happy. RIP.

With Love,
Papa

New Year Eve

2008-12-31T17:33:00.004+08:00

Happy New Year!

How memorable, when I started to join TAR college, I made my new year celebration very meaningful. Almost every year I'll have my outing, either with my group of gang, or with my date.

This year, slightly low profile. I'll be bbq-ing at Kelv's house. Its a trio celebration:
1. Its Kelv's birthday at 31st Dec, Happy birthday!
2. To gather for 2009 new year eve. Happy New Year!
3. To help Kelv and Irv on their DELAYED housewarming. Happy... er... whatever....

I'd remember my last eve the best. I gave a surprise. A finally positive surprised to a VIP. I seriously thought of doing it once again this year. But I cannot find myself a good position on doing it. But still, you are still a VIP :)

As usual, everybody got their New Year Wishes every year. As my previous post about christmas wishes, for new year eve, its a more practical wishes, or I prefer calling them the "Targets":
1. To exercise / sports more regularly, ie at least 3 times a week, not for putting off weight, but to reduce stress in a more proper manner.
2. To increase personal financial health. I finally achieve my 1st target which should be in 2 years target using 2.5 years. For 2009, I will start looking at market share, small investment, and perhaps resume my part time job as a tuition teacher or some other things which can reduce my financial load.
3. To spend more time at home (in the living room) to be accurate. For that, perhaps I'll just get a wireless modem to allow me to access internet in my living room, and in the same time accompany my dad watch evening news more.
4. I hope its not too overloaded with the 4th target. To treat people around me better, by not giving them any hatred, causing them any hard feeling, to make them always happy, to prevent making them suffer, and feel bad.

To all my dear friends, family, colleagues, whoever I know, whoever knows me, lets stroll our hand together, and welcome the new, colourful, wonderful, and perfected with loves in all our air, the brand new year of 2009!

Amusing Tea Break =.=

2008-12-27T16:22:00.003+08:00

I had not taken my lunch since my brunch with Soo Chuan and Darren, so I decided to go to the malay stall to get some nasi lemak or pisang goreng. I came down from my bike, right after I stood my bike, the long-time-no-see mak cik was greeting yelling: "Boy! Lama tak datang boy!" I replied with a smile and "Ya lor". Then, I started to ask the other kakak if there's nasi lemak. However, the excited mak cik continues while I was looking what else I can buy for my tea time except nasi lemak:

"Boy! boy you sudah kahwin?"

"Oh, belum, belum kak..."

"Boy akak ada seorang kawan ada anak nak cari kawan lar.. boy ada minat?"

*Stunned*"huh...??"

Then this hokkien aunty beside thought I dont understand what kakak said:
"伊爱做媒人，看你有兴趣无，爱介绍搽媒给你八！”

*Gulped* How come suddenly I had this very unwell feeling that suddenly like I very old...

"Boy, you nak kenal tak, gadis tu cantik, bagus, buka kedai bunga kat sana je, nak kenal tak? Akak bawakan?"

*Stunned again!* "Err... Tak pe la kak, tak pe..."

"Oh, ah boy segan ke... alah... tak pe, ah boy ada kawan yang minat tak? gadis tu muda, cantik, umur 24, boy tengok ada tak kawan yang minat tak.. ah boy umur berapa?"

"24 akak, 24..." (taking my nasi lemak and pisang goreng...)

"Oh.. ok ma... sama umur dengan aboy, kalau aboy nak, datang cari akak ya..."

(Smiled and,) "Ok Kak.. thank you ya..."

(Faster paid and left)

Christmas Wish....

2008-12-26T14:51:00.004+08:00

Did everybody had a great Christmas celebration? Did everybody exchanged your Christmas present? Everybody had their Christmas Wishes?

I had mine from Christmas Eve to Christmas non stop EAT EAT EAT!!! Yeah.. How nice. Starting to enjoy eating in big groups. Everybody seems to have my common characteristics of eat = happy!

I had my Christmas Wishes which is commonly known that Santa will grant everybody 3 wishes. So here are mine:

1. All my family, my friends, my colleagues, Her and her, happy, healthy, and everyday unfinished happiness!

2. To make myself rich from today onwards, so that I can get my new HP, new car, new house (in long term @@), and thus able to get to all the places I wanted to go.

3. Santa Claus will grant me another 3 wishes.........

Merry Christmas!! and new year is coming, very eager and looking forward for it!

Sunday Morning

2008-12-21T11:12:00.005+08:00

已经好久没在星期天早上那么早起身
8：30am, 反常

昨天收到了一份早来的圣诞礼物
兴奋！礼物的Description:
虎眼石：可以使人容易在事业上有所突破
懂得自律，化解压力达成目标
过着幸福快乐的日子
财富光芒，具有极强的生命力
有招财辟邪之功效！

当我在兴奋的研究这份礼物时，
发现了另外一个message。

此后，我再也无法让自己不浏览那网站
而且每次浏览以后，都得以很难收拾的心情去调试。

我无法让自己脑袋清醒，
或许理智已经被情绪骚乱
我甚至开始考虑一些曾经击倒自己的一些选择
我只希望妳能过得比我好。

反复的一直播着那首歌。
曾经她也曾告诉过我，是一首动听的歌。
知道今天，我想，我们都没想到，没预料到
这是一首让我非常懊悔的一首歌，
每一句词，都好像在诉说我们的过去，
每一个琴声，都好像在形容我们的错过

我曾告诉过一些朋友，：
“人总不能一直往后看”
“只要我保持清醒，就不可能让自己重要的人和我一起委屈”
等等。

我把歌词post在facebook上，
Irvin 回帖了：i will definitely hate u.... then forget about u.... dats all i wanna say
起初以为他想在平时一样在我的wall上面乱涂鸦，
但是看见最后他说：“dats all i wanna say”
让我觉得他好像在替她帮我回帖。

封锁了我的呼吸，我不要让我所谓的爱再伤害妳。
当我每一次道歉，都会想起妳告诉过我妳多么不想听
好愧疚，好后悔。
后悔的感觉糟透了。

搞什么！！！今天是冬至！！
还是祝大家冬至节快乐吧！
吃多点汤圆，好让大家都可以团团圆圆！

ＰＳ：好想要买新电话，一个可以照比较好的相片的手机，Ｃ９０２与Ｋ８５０　谁有什么意见呢？

我该如何怀念你？

2008-12-17T23:08:00.008+08:00

黑夜燃烧着烟蒂
指缝间溜出回忆
收音机播的歌是我写的
当时我们在一起

在那潮湿的雨季
伤口变得好仔细
太模糊的结局
你猜不下去
爱就停止在这里

Memori 我该如何怀念你
想你推开我还是在我怀中听你说：“我爱你”
Memori 你会恨我还是忘记
封锁我的呼吸 Oh..
只留着我的姓名
属于最浅的回忆

当时我故意没有要留住你而开口
我没有被你原谅的理由

Memori 我该如何怀念你
想你的聪明还是孤独
让爱一而再伤害你
Memori 宁愿沉默也不会再提起

100% Saturday

2008-12-14T01:35:00.002+08:00

Ok it's not so 100% after all, two things:
- The PIKOM PC Fair
- NTV7 Star Live Concert

09:40 - Gordon picked me up, you're late, AGAIN!
10:30 - Reached KL Sentral to take Putra LRT to KLCC. I'm sooo excited, seeing all those sceneries I always look at about 3 years ago. I miss KL sentral so much! This is the place almost every weekend I have to spend time alone, window shopping at Adidas, and McD. I miss those times.
11:05 - Reached KLCC, had Burger King as brunch.
11:45 - Depart from Burger King to KL Conventional Centre. Saw Roti Boy shop, so memorable, again.
12:05 - Reached PC Fair. Walk around and was looking for headphone with mic. Met Alan Tham, my ex PC Fair colleague, he's a marketing director now, and yeah, his name, Alan Tham, but he's not from Hong Kong. Saw a girl suddenly hop onto Jason, a bit surprised, cute girl after all, encouranging Jason to go ahead.
13:30 - Gordon bugged by a Toshiba sales person. Dilemma to choose either Dell or Toshiba. After "Mo-ing" for a period of time, decided to get Dell (although I still think Toshiba is more worthwhile).
14:10 - Looking for the nearest ATM, unfortunately, Mxybank only allow maximum withdrawal of RM1500, because we do not have credit card, so I have to queue for another ATM to withdraw another RM1000 to borrow him.
15:20 - Finally got his lap top, so damn heavy, looking the fastest way back from conventional centre to the LRT.
16:10 - Got back to KL Sentral. Grabbed Gordon's car key and fly back to klang.
17:00 - Preparing to go to the concert!
17:40 - Meet up the gangs and head to PJ Amcorp Mall for dinner, Cherris and Joey hopped on.
18:30 - Looking for McD in Amcorp Mall but no seat, ate KR Roasters.
20:10 - Concert going to start! But Soo Chuan not yet come, and our tickets are with him!!!!!!!
20:30 - Still not coming yet, Emil Chou WAS OUT!! Singing Hua Xin!!!
20:40 - Finally Soo Chuan reached. We took the ticket and rush to the Hot Zone Area. Very muddy the field after heavy rain in the afternoon. All our shoe become brown colour!
20:40 - 23:30 - Got High, Got Crazy, Got Burning almost throughout the concert. Y2J and James Xiao very powerful! CRAZYYYY!!!!!!
23:55 - Reached Berkerly for yam cha session, leg so pain, stand and walk for almost whole day.
01:15 - Reached Gordon's house again, to get back my key which left at his house.
01:25 - Reached home, wash all the mud on my jeans and shoes, then typing this blog.

Ok. The greatest part of the day are a few things. A. I miss KL life. I miss the LRTs; I miss KLCC's lone shopping time; I miss the tone that they played inside the LRT everytime they reach a place; I miss KL Sentral; I miss the stairs that I prefer to walk rather than the escalator; I miss the PC Fair which I worked at. B. My first time ever enjoy listening to singers singing in live; I fall in love with James Xiao and Y2J.

And apart from all that, I think its time that I change my handphone which incorperate with a good camera so that I can take down the picture I wanted to take the whole day! FXXX!!!!!

Good Night, Sweet Dreams...

2008-12-08T23:52:00.002+08:00

I'm going to bed, hopefully, I can continue the dream I dreamt yesterday, very nice, very illusionary, and indicating some good prospects for me. Bed Mama... Please let me continue the dream I had yesterday, and realize it in my real life. Thanks. Good Night

The Stars Aint Out of Reach?

2008-12-04T20:09:00.003+08:00

I was walking around, just a face in the crowd
Trying to keep myself out of the rain
Saw a vagabond king wear a styrofoam crown
Wondered if I might end up the same
Theres a man out on the corner
Singing old songs about change
Everybody got their cross to bare, these days

She came looking for some shelter with a suitcase full of dreams
To a motel room on the boulevard
Guess shes trying to be james dean
Shes seen all the disciples and all the wanna bes
No one wants to be themselves these days
Still theres nothing to hold on to but these days

These days, the stars seem out of reach
These days, there aint a ladder on these streets
These days are fast, love dont last in this graceless age
There aint nobody left but us these days

Jimmy shoes busted both his legs, trying to learn to fly
From a second story window, he just jumped and closed his eyes
His momma said he was crazy -
he said, "Momma Ive got to try!
Dont you know that all my heroes died...
And I guess Id rather die than fade away"

These days, the stars seem out of reach
But these days, there aint a ladder on these streets
These days are fast, love dont lasts-in this graceless age
Even innocence has caught the morning train
And there aint nobody left but us these days

I know Rome still burning
Though the times have changed
This world keep turning round and round and round and round these days..

There aint no time to waste
There aint nobody left to take the blame
There aint nobody left but us these days

Complicated Day

2008-12-03T21:38:00.002+08:00

Today I went to another Ipoh day trip. Attending a customer services, unexpectedly, it was very smooth. Everything was under control. Me and my marketing boss had a very happy chit chatting lunch with the customers talk about almost everything.

On the way back, I recalled many memories. I recalled Her and her. Although it makes me wet my eyes again, but after some time of serious thought, I am very sure that my decision is rational, provided with some regrets, which I think every mistakes has to comes with its price to pay.

I reached home. Putting down the Chicky Biscuits and the Beh Teh Soh on the table. I suddenly thought of looking for my FD's slip, which I found its already missing while I looked for my insurance policy earlier. I had become so nervous, although its not a big amount, but they are on of the things that She left for me.

Dad told me about housework. I think situation didn't improved, doesn't improve, and not improving. I found my laundries were packed inside a plastic bag and thrown inside the store room. Surprisingly, I didn't felt furious, but dissapointed, because my marketing boss just told me that Ipoh ladies are very obeyant and caring, but why is she like tht?

I told myself to look for a room out side. Almost giving up the happening in the house, I suddenly thought of: luckily I didn't allow her to come in, or else......I'm thankful for making the correct but damaging decision. Then I think again, dad needs me. I dig a spot in my liver, hopefully it'll be detoxify all my problem tonight.

I'm lost. I was asking a friend of mine to tell me some jokes to entertaint me, ended up I was sourcing those jokes myself. After reading those jokes and share to that friend, I felt so destressed, and feel so much better.

I decided to blog this up, with that I give myself a hope, that everything will be better, to console myself that nothing can ever beat me. I know I'm not a good son, but to all my best, I'll defend his happiness, to create the least of his knowledge on the negativity, for him to live as happy as possible, on his believes on the wrong things, thus live happily for the rest of his life.

哪里有彩虹告诉我....

2008-12-03T20:39:00.003+08:00

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

Unexpecting the Expected

2008-11-24T19:53:00.005+08:00

Things has not turned better, I guess this is not the bottom of the valley yet. I wonder when can I really write something more optimistic here, just like what Irvin nag at me, spreading the unhealthy mood around.

Last friday I have this chance to do quite a lot of things. I met up George D who'se long time no see; I played table tennis which I think my waist is a bit incompetent with it; I knock the engineers' head by telling them they are the frog under the coconut shell; I entertaint my fellow colleagues by singing a happy song; and on the second morning, I learnt how to swim free style (finally).

I admit that I had approached some irrational way to destress, perhaps way to irrational. Gordon told me, "You are the wan who told me this method to destress is a fake method." I felt so sorry to him, so does myself. I think I should be on my way back to resolve all the problem I faced, facing, and to be faced. Yeap, no doubt I'm able to share my problem by telling dudes and machis around me on how miserable life is, how difficult customers are, how sucks to deal with some non-logic members, and how worry I am onto some "should-be-over" problem.

While I think I'm the worst person in this universe, I think I'm just a peanut. There are too many things beyond my control, some body reminded me, I missed out things that I should able to control, ie my family. I'll knod with the say I'm lack of familism. Its not always my strength. Am I setting the bar way too high? I definitely think I didn't and I don't. Therefore, I decided that I will not smock away other people's familism as well, just like C's. C was texting me that her mom will visit her sis at Klang, for the sake to cure misses. I'm feeling semi consoled, for not smuggling away another precious of her mom.

Well guess what, I'd booked my flight to Bali, too early to tell but, it seems like it doesn't destress me now. I definitely need a short trip, to a relaxing places like, Pangkor? Genting? Cameron? Problem to look for suitable companion to go around... But it's ok, I think with my level of stress, I still able to release through the fluid and gases I took recently. Or I suppose it should be more exercise for the sake of health. Yah yah...... 35 years old I know... stop nagging me ok...

Today surprisingly, Chong left a message in my blog, after I read his message, I looked for that mp3 and listened. Very soothing. So I dropped him a message through MSN, and we chatted about company prospects, perhaps in short period of time, we are at the losing edge.

From my finance, my family, my love life, has ended a failure in 2008. BUT..... BUT!!!!!..... nevermind. Next year chinese zodiac has out already, as the zodiac said, rat is in TIP TOP CONDITION!!!! Do you guys know, in this moment, everything is very very uneasy, I'm facing all those things that I'm informed that not going to be good. I'm really unexpecting them to come. But I do hope that next year, will be a great year, I hope everything will turn good, a brand new start for whatever my bad records, that I'll wash away all my bad luck, and welcome all my brand new success! Ok you guys may think its a lil bit early to say that but:

2009!!! WAIT FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!

Shahrir: Fuel price to be cut further mid-Nov

2008-11-11T08:14:00.001+08:00

As expected, there will be another round of fuel price revisions coming mid-November (likely the 15th of November 2008, this Friday) and Minister of Domestic Trade and Consumer Affairs Datuk Shahrir Samad indicates that it will most likely be a price cut.

The government announced previously that it aimed for the fuel prices to be revised every 2 weeks and it has kept to this for the past month or so quite diligently. Each round of revisions brought cuts, with the most recent being a 15 sen cut to RM2.15 per liter for RON97 petrol and RM2.05 per liter for RON92 petrol and diesel. This came into effect on the 1st this month.

Anyone want to try to guess how much the cut will be this time?

不一样的星期一

2008-11-10T21:16:00.002+08:00

怎么说？今天的星期一的确不凡。我不发现平时该有的蓝蓝心情，反而更觉得平静。一大早就听了曹格的起床歌：“世界上只有快乐是最重要！”不错不错。

当然周末过得不是那么的理想。但由于要再等机会，若还是不行，就吃自己咯！不开心的事当然也有。客户还是来电碎碎念，想要趁机得到好处，费事理他们，继续自己更有意义的工作更好。我发现自己比以往更有冲劲，开始更有“一点点”的效率，再加上适量的偷闲，还有适量的咖啡因，实在是令人无得顶！！

我今天在网上遇见了好久没聊的年轻网友，说要回来大马了。还要我带他去见识“夜生活”！哈哈年轻真是令人有一种精力充沛的感觉！虽然我不年轻了，但入场是还被检查身份证！真不赖！哈哈！

虽说心情不蓝，但还是感觉某种压力围绕著自己。我今天独自到泳池里游泳，享受被水压的无事一身轻的Feel，爽！虽然没有看见美女，但总算有运动吧！幸运的是，当我在回家路途中扭开Lite FM，听见我和Chong常常唱的: Why do birds.. suddenly appear... 好陶醉！最近一直喜欢这首歌也许是在想一些事，令我更享受这首歌的乐器。

我回到家里，吃着非常难吃的晚餐，心里想了想：可能明天会不会一样？可能会，可能不会了！我一定要好好记住这感觉！

我开始这里有点象日记本了。每天都好像很依赖这里。。。

Why do birds, suddenly appear?
Everytime, you are near?
Just like me, they long to be,
Close to you~~~

Why do stars, fallin from the sky?
Everytime, you walked by?
Just like me, they long to be,
Close to you~~~

On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue~~

That is why all the guys in town
Follow you, all around~
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you~~

Just like me, they long to be
Close to you~~

One Step Too Far

2008-11-09T23:30:00.000+08:00

One step too far
All at once I'm falling
Just like a star
I'm buring for you
Thought I could keep myself from feeling this way
I guess that was my first mistake

Cause suddenly I'm walking
Down a dark street to your door
Wanting you is driving me insane
And now my feet are standing
Where they've never stood before
Guided by a twist of fate

If I lose myself with you tonight
Fall apart or hold on tight
Wrong or right I won't be afraid
Cause even if my heart should break
You'd be the best mistake I ever made

I'm in your room
Now there's no denying
What's in your eyes
When I look at you
To shadows talking but they don't make a sound
Words have lost their meaning now

And the air has turned electric
Now I know the time is right
To put myself into your hands
And suddenly I'm shaking
As your fingers touch my skin
I don't need to understand

But If I lose myself with you tonight
Fall apart or hold on tight
Wrong or right I won't be afraid
Cause even if my heart should break
You'd be the best mistake I ever made

And if tomorrow proves me wrong
I swear I don't belong
I know I'll carry on

蓝色星期六

2008-11-08T16:20:00.000+08:00

好久没有用中文了，今天刚好有空，就打打汉语拼音吧！

今天要先向同事们道歉：

峰：我真的很对不起！我不是想要失约，只是睡到连闹钟都听不到了，连你打给我都不懂！对不起！

Vick: 可能不能和你们一起去上山，但我真的不想去了所以向你讲了个谎话。对不起！

心情蓝蓝的，可能是为了一些一厢情愿的幻想，造成自己拿来衰。其实根本就是没有，还以为人家在给暗示，原来是自以为是！哈哈！所以我想了想，也许该把目标设定低一点？或许会比较容易满足？还是该继续往高处挑战？心情还是怪怪的，不要紧，来一首陶喆吧！令我想起了宝顺陶醉地唱过这首歌：

空无一人这片沙滩
风吹过来冷冷海岸
我轻轻抖落鞋里的沙看着我的脚印
Oh 一个人一步步好寂寞

看海有些绿天有些蓝
那段爱情有些遗憾
向不知不觉游向海天
到最深的地方才发现你早已经放弃我

我听到海浪温柔的呼吸
我看着云朵飘来飘去
有什么方法让自己真的忘记
Only Blue Only Blue~~
爱让人好忧郁
我的心我的心蓝蓝地

我真的想找一条船能远远离开这片沙滩
每次又回到同样海边还是会对你想念想念你
有点Blue 没有人能向你留给我的回忆有点 Blue Oh~
Only Blue~~

Emotional Expression

2008-11-08T04:54:00.001+08:00

It has been quite sometime that my emotions are very immediate and transparent. And it has been going up and down throught out these days. I tried to manage my emotion especially when I'm with people around me, but I just find that recently its too difficult because emotion changes too drastically. Its been some time where I found myself so poor in managing my emotional expression, but if you are having some emotion like this, are you able to manage your emotion well? Guess its too difficult, I'm a good emotional handler, yet I cant even manage the following:

Very difficult right? But wow... That's the life, up and down, happy and down. True Life.

Live your life the fullest!

Some Valuable Story....

2008-11-03T20:40:00.001+08:00

I forgotten I received this mail from who, but it is indeed a very meaningful article. Before quoting in the article, let me do some prevail and introduction:

Dear friends. Which is the worst experience that you never had? Lost your most beloving dog? People around you left you? Made a serious mistake which caused more than 6 figures? Accidentally hurt someone badly? Out from those, how well did you managed your emotions? Have you walk out from those shades of darkness? Of so many questions I'd asked, the short stories show you the answer.

Start quoting:"

Professor began his class by holding a glass with some water in it on his hand. He held it up for all to see, and asked the students,"How much do you think this glass weighs?"

"50 gms! 100 gms! 150 gms!" The students answered.
"I do not know how much this glass weigh unless I really weight it, but my question is, what would happen if I held it up like this for a minute?" The professor asked.
"Nothing." Answered by a student

"Ok what about I held it up for an hour?"Asked the professor again.
"Your arm will began to act, professor."Said one of the student.

"You're right, now what would happen if I held it for a day?"
"Your arm could go numb, you might have severe muscle stress and paralysis and have to go to hospital for sure!" Ventured another student and all student laughed.

"Very good. But during all these, did the weight of the glass changed?" By the professor.
"No it didnt" was the answer.

"Then what caused the arm ache and muscle stressed?" - - - - - The students were puzzled.
"What should I do now to come out from the pain?" asked the professor again.
"PUT DOWN THE GLASS!"said one of the student.
"Exactly" said the professor.

Life problem are something like this. Hold it for few minutes in your head it seems OK. Think it for a long time then it'll begin to ache. Hold it even longer and they begin to paralyze you, you will not able to do anything.

Its important to think on the challenge or problem in your life, but even important is to PUT THEM DOWN at the end of everyday before you go to sleep. That way, you are not stressed and you wake up everyday a strong, and a fresh day, and able to handle any issue, any challenge that comes to your way!

So, when you leave your friends today, remind them to PUT THE GLASS DOWN!

End of Quotes.

Ending this quotes, I would like to do some remark.

How much of you are a easy problem taker? I'm a bit over on this matter where I take problem too easily, a weakpoint I classify it. I always tend to forget problems that happened around me. But however, I think this artcile make sense. It may be a heavy glass of water, but if we don put down, we will be holding the glass forever. Good day!

A Terrible Kick Off for the Week

2008-11-03T20:36:00.000+08:00

I know today its going to jam heavily. I reached out from my house 7:10, 15 minutes earlier than usual, but 10 minutes later than planned.

Two hours later, I was thinking if I should turn off my media player. I was looking for some instrumental songs for my friend. I found the dvd that I burnt. It is keeping all my musics and photos taken. I cant help myself to take a look on those. It reminded me some memories that I had already put down. Some decision that I had determined to proceed. I run down my tears, when I was listening Jim Brickman’s play. All the pieces are like singing us. I broke down in the office when it was playing The Gift. I quickly ran out from the office because it has been worsen. Seeing Jamel smiling at me, I replied with a similar curve. I was about to yell.

Its already four months plus. I resolved my sorrow very rapidly, I thought. If its not so many things has changes, if She never left, if he wasn’t born, if he doesn’t needs me, if I’m not so vulnerable, if she never mention those to me, if we never keep any memories, if.

I turned off my media player moments ago. Understood that I had became the wound opener, I am so regret. I pierced through her heart by assuming it should recover soon or something. I gave up all the promises that I told her those days. When I think back, I realize that I am so wicked. I deliberated all the worries that exist, should exist, into hopes that sound so beautiful, and I crush everything into zero. In the end of thinking all those scars I caused, I understood to me now, its not love anymore, but concerns.

It was a poor start. I though this week is where I need to put 200% onto my work. But it had taken a tumble on my Monday. I’m very sure it isn’t a Monday Blue. Because it started from days ago, weeks ago, months ago. I even committed sins that I never thought I wouldn’t. It has been so many unexpected within these few months. Don’t really have time for going down but emotional is sometimes far beyond rational.

I do not know when it will end. Until the next guy go into her life? Until the next girl come into my life? Guess that its likelier for the latter to happen first.. haha naughty me…

What A Day!

2008-10-26T16:59:00.000+08:00

Today, I'm back as a leader position to command the whole event. Although its not a very big event, consisting less than 400 people, but I had very deeply felt that its worthed when seeing few of the 120% supporting crew members to back me up.

I want to do a special thanks to all these people:

Fuang > although you told me that you are very kan jiong all the time, but I still find that you are very cautious handling every single thing.

Vick > Throughout the whole preparation of the event, I rank you the number 1 contributor, who poured most of your time to make from A to Z, although now you are having your own personal problem, but you had never abandon this event project. Very uneasy to see you run in the injured condition, but you said you are ok, not so bad, I decide to believe you. But if you are not ok, I will be very uncomfortable, that you had done so much even in injuries.

Leo > Thanks for doing the most important job in this event - the booklet. Its too difficult to be handled, although there's some minor error occured, but I'm still giving you a thumbs up!

Fong > Bro, you are the most MAN person I ever seen among my friends. In this particular event, you have been travel among the jobs from those who need tenderness like Master of Ceremony, to the most performance-drive job, like leading the stretching and marching the flag.

Kee Wei and Tan > I want to thank you for making all the results keep in time, delivered, and well organized.

Rebecca > I wan to salute you! You are so experience in handling so many different scenario at on handling sudden change of the event.

Madam Ngu > Thanks for your help in our registration, without you, I think the whole situation will be very messy.

Kim Leong > You are my all rounders. From preparing food, handing over the prizes, preparing the titans to the track, you were everywhere.

Low > Thanks for ensuring all the titans in good shape!

Mr Chin > Thanks for your "support"

Mr Ng > I owe you a BIG one. If its not you, I think today will be a one sided event.

Mr Hoo > Thanks for running your full stretch at your 4x400m event, although we didnt won, but in my heart, all of you are winners.

Jolyn > I thought our prize giving part will be a huge mess, but you prove to me that I was wrong, by making everything in such a good sequence and manner.

TB Tan and Krish > Thanks for your support, although you all are busy all the time with work, you never say "no" to our help

Angie > Thanks for organizing the meeting all these whiles, and I need you to organize another Review Meeting for this event next monday.

Ah Hong > Thanks for collecting the "underwear". And tonight you will drive me because I plan to drink until I become coma.

Mr Ong > Thanks for understanding me not in the office most of the time because busy organizing this event. I promise I will spend more time to close up all the unfinished job back in the office.

And of course, how could I don't thank him

Chong > although we didnt get our 20 mil, but I really want to thank you by assisting me although you are from Kuching, and today from 7:30am, till 2:30pm, I never see your eyes leave your lap top screen by helping every body to key in the results accurately, by duet-ing wit me online when we are stressed, by performing "Magic" with me when we are both free, and I just cant finish thank you here, may be when I won my 20 mil, I know how to express my gratitude. Haha.

I think to all those name that I left out, I apologize. But dont take it too hard. Cause its my forgetful, not that you didnt contribute, I just cant finish all those name here.

Although there are some silly mistakes, some major mistakes, some minor mistakes, and some "facial" mistakes, but I think our team handling it fantastically. Today in our team, there's no blaming, no pin pointing, no hassle, no pushing problem around. I witness this teamwork with full of impressiveness. Everybody is backing up each other, supporting each other, encouraging each other, and no complain until the trouble has been sort out. I am indeed so long never as happy as today. Its not because of the event, cause its only 60-70% of success, but its the team spirit that I seen.

We really strived, it has been shown.

*How could I? HOW COULD??!!!!!

Special Thanks to:

Izu and Carmen > Sorry for forgetting your big names, if its not both of you, I think I cannot last until my afternoon tea break at 3:30pm... And because of you 2, I drank 5 cans of 100plus (at least) *wwwooopppss*.......

Thanks again for everybody who presence themselves in the stadium! Tomo Arigathou!

Too Much For An Evening

2008-10-20T23:29:00.000+08:00

Its a great night. I suddenly have this feeling that I cant wait to blog this right after my shower.

Scene 1: I called up my banner supplier for my company sports day. Inquiring him to help me to do an ink print (I cant believe they dont understand the description "canvas") banners which has been decide by W, or more accurately, his sister. I purposely requested W to convert it into the JPEG file, so that it is more common to be used in any graphical software. His sister did it in Adobe Photoshop, which is quite professional. I dont have that software. To ease everybody to review the design. I requested W to convert into JPEG file. This supplier, lets call him CT. He told me that, "Canvas? you meant ink print is it..."(see.. he cant understand canvas) "Nowadays ink print is very the high tech liao.. we use computer to print the drawings out. But it must be in .AI file name la...."
Me: "Adobe Illustrator? Your software should be able to convert the JPEG file into .AI files"
CT: "Cannot lahh... I do this type of banner so many times liao.. It must use .AI files... else I cant print it out..."
Me: "Can la... You try and see can bo? I dont have the converter nor Adobe software in my software."
CT: "Cannot la... you try to find the converter lohhh"
Me: "...."

I was kinda frustrated with his improfessionalism. I consulted my Kuching buddy Mr Young Gun. He told me that he never heard of such converter, may need time to source, and having the doubt I had, "isn't it Adobe can use the 'save as..' function to convert it?"
Therefore I look for Adobe Illustrator software, hoping to find the cracked version since the license protection for Adobe is tremendously strong. Uhah!!! Got it. Immediately I open the JPEG file and saved as the AI.

Sigh... some people just tend to act smart and their ego... like young gun said, "They are just trying to fart..."

Scene 2: To good to know that Little Skinny has slowly recovered, his eyes is less swollen and less reddish now. And he is keeping his wheel and don wan to let his mate to play on it. Haha.. pretty cute.

Scene 3: I had my Thank You Dinner thanks to Dato S. It was quite an enjoyable dinner looking at Mr CKW drunk, 70%? Ya about there. I'm impressed with his drunk. He spoke everything the truth, partially.
"YJ2 has excellent team work! When I knocked CKK's glass, some body will just jump out and drink for him!"
"It has been already Buyers market nowadays, all the S2M sales men know very well, CKK knows very well, CH knows very well, I think Jerry also knows a little. On how customer rejects us like throwing our product back to our warehouse!"

I only looking foward to these 2 statements, please let me explain why they are "Partially correct"

Statement 1: "YJ2 has excellent team work! When I knocked CKK's glass, some body will just jump out and drink for him!"
Correction: YJ2 has excellent teamwork FOR CERTAIN DEPARTMENT, they will protect their own departmental people and sometimes will neglect other people"

Statement 2: "It has been already Buyers market nowadays, all the S2M sales men know very well, CKK knows very well, CH knows very well, I think Jerry also knows a little. On how customer rejects us like throwing our product back to our warehouse!"
Correction: It has been already buyers market LONG TIME AGO! All the S2M sales may not know very well, CKK may not know very well, CH may not know very well, I think Jerry knows A LOT! On how customer reject us like throwing the four letter words on to your face together with their saliva.

Well, perhaps he was drunk, lets just don take it too seriously ;).

Scene 4: I wan to thank Mr CKK. Part of it. I got this so dog luck chance to meet him after Mr Dragon ask me to drive W back. I can feel that he was just trying to shooh him away, nevermind, I can do the job. On the way to carpark, God blessed, I saw Mr CKK. He was shocked that Dragon asked me to: "Can you drive W back first? HMK said we have something to discuss"
Is it so secretive? I thought "YJ2 people has excellent teamwork". His act already broke the golden rule inside a team - No secret between team members. Nah here proved that Mr CKW said was only PARTIALLY correct. Its just because me and W are not engineers, we are quality personnel, different department. Felt so bad but, who cares? I got this kinda dog luck to meet Mr CKK. I took this opportunity to tell him that the ITTI's isolation scenario. He invited me and W to join their "something to discuss".

Oh... No wonder Dragon don't want me to join. It was about a nagging by Mr CKK. I guess some times when egoism went too high, these people do not wish to let others see them nagged. Mr CKK said a lot of things, I really express my gratitude here that he had help me to say something for ITTI. He mentioned on how YJ2 treated ITTI as a rubbish bin, throwing all the rejected material to ITTI so called "ask for help", but in fact they were just doing "garbage disposal". I regretted when Mr CKK conversate this with me in front of so many people:

"Jerry, do you have anything to add on?"
"Mr C, I have plenty of things to say, but I don think this is a good position to say"
"I understand, you want to do it in details."

Mr C, I do not have such intention. No doubt that I want to use figures to show how you all treated (treat) ITTI as a garbage bin by throwing those things to ITTI. But the reason that I do not want to speak is I don want your engineers to lose their face and saying me to act like a pro by climbing the stairs you gave me. So here, let me put down what I wanted to say just now:

"Dear colleagues, I know that I'm out of the team, 3 miles away from the place you work everyday. However, when I received the rejected materials, I didnt sent any email to bombard you guys, I carry the samples from 3 miles away, sitting at Aunty's canteen spending your tea break to discuss with you, asking you all to help me by try to reduce this kinda problem. How ever, I think this brotherhood method initiated by me has been abused, and as that goes on, ITTI has been well known as garbage bin, where all the rubbish will be thrown there, showing your YJ2 good figures, leaving all your shits at ITTI.

In ITTI's position, no doubt that we are daughter company, but every metric tonne material you billed us as prime grade, has been rejected and rejected. And everytime I voice a nag, it has been replied by a joke that: huh? complain? ok lohh I don give you material. =.= h-a-h-a =.=. Not funny at all. Disregard of sellers or buyers market, ITTI do not even have the right to sound how bad is your quality, of the material and your attitude. During sellers market, the sellers are having rights to decide who to sell, even though you may have plenty of cash, I can just stop your material supply; whereas when buyers market, everybody is keeping their cash and clear off their stock, and dear YJ2 colleague, this moment you throw all you stock to ITTI, ITTI do not have cash, but forced to receive your material, defected ones some more, cheated some more.

If you were to think of isolating ITTI's people, please proceed. This will strengthen my will to be the joker of this game. I will be the bad guy. I will become the YJTI's Mr Brian Ch'ng, to send you all at least 3 complaints per week, or even more. I joint you all during the maintenence job asked from Mr CKK, it is not for the replacement leave (partially of course), it is because I wanted to let you all know, when you all need help, I'll be there, but why that ITTI called for help for so long, yet we only heard about hypocritic suggestion from you all?

I'm sorry if what I said are harshy, I don even want to give a damn! I just want you all to know how bad is ITTI doing now, not because that me and Mr O do not want to improve it, but it is this scenario where YJ2 people think ITTI people are staying inside rubbish bin. Now let me tell you, people who stay inside the rubbish bin are able to contain because they are able to withstand this pressure, when I asked dragon to join me to visit customer, he cross his hand and show me a big NO. Therefore, when I said I'm going a complaint at Penang, Ipoh, Kuantan, JB, etc etc.. Please never ever say that I'm enjoying."

Yes it could be that long. That is why I didnt mumbled.

It has been a long night. I'm feeling so much better now, no body shares my problem. I just do not want person who are not in suitable position to initiate to share my problem. I'll be good. I'll be good. I just know that. I'll be better.

Prayers for Little Skinny (Xiao Shou)..

2008-10-19T23:38:00.000+08:00

Today, I beg for the health of little skinny to be as cute and healthy, naughty and adorable, fast and active, responsive and obeyant, as the day he was not ill. I pray for him that his swollen eyes will cure, so that he can be as happy as usual. Thanks for the help.

*chanting*......

How good it will be, if tomorrow never comes

2008-10-16T22:29:00.000+08:00

Fong: Jerry, so next year you'll go up there right?

Jerry: I don't even know what will happen tomorrow, can we don talk bout "next year"?

Fong: You can definitely know what will happen tomorrow, plan what you want to do tomorrow, then you will know.

Jerry: Have you ever met such scenario when, you know what you want, but something unwanted is likely going to happen, and you can give a damn to change those unwanted things.

I dont see my tomorrow. Perhaps when I forsee it, I only see those unwanted things likely to happen. When she carried her son to come in front of my room saying something so affecting, I knew I hit the bouzai. The good things never realized, not even my 4D numbers are striked.

I was wondering how it could be, when I think I attempt to repair the atmosphere, to a more harmonical place. It is only 4 people, plus 1 infant. I cant manage a 4 people scenario, I cant solve a 4 people problem. May be I'm not so good, I'm not good enough here. No body will listen to me here; no body will think I'm good here; no body will appreciate what I did here; no body will like me here."

I am mentally fatigue. I am sooooo disappointed. I am so fucked up. I am so pissed off. I am so lost. I am so helpless. I am so stupid. I am so unwanted. I am so undisputed. I am so dedignified. I am so demoralized. I am so useless.

I choose to remain silent, and deaf if possible. According to the experts, when a person started to become deaf, or mute, unnaturally, it is the activation of self defense mechanisms.

"Expect for a better tomorrow" ??

When I sleep tonight, I only hope that I can wake up tomorrow.

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着

2008-10-13T14:07:00.000+08:00

你的回话凌乱着在这个时刻

我想起喷泉旁的白鸽甜蜜散落了

情绪莫名的拉扯我还爱你呢

而你断断续续唱着歌假装没事了

时间过了走了爱情面临选择

你冷了倦了我哭了

离开时的不快乐你用卡片手写着

有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢

我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了

开心与不开心一一细数着你再不舍

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得

你不等了说好的幸福呢

我错了泪干了放手了后悔了

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着要怎么停呢